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totaloser

Gastric Sleeve Patients
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  1. totaloser

    October 2014 sleevers check in please!

    I'm 5'3". My heaviest weight was 244. When I began this process I was 238.
  2. totaloser

    October 2014 sleevers check in please!

    Sorry I was overly excited this morning. I was sleeved Oct of 2013. At any rate, I reached my goal and couldn't be happier!
  3. totaloser

    October 2014 sleevers check in please!

    I was sleeved in October of 2014. Today I reached my goal weight. After many months of being stuck a few pounds above that goal I gave up and decided it was my body telling me to stop trying to lose. So I did. I continued to exercise faithfully, track what I ate and stayed within my range of calories, drank all my Water and I even had an occasional treat. I was on vacation for the past week. I think my body relaxed enough to let go of those couple pounds. I was in shock when I stepped on the scale this morning. I haven't been one to post on here much but I do come on often to read for inspiration. Thank you for that. To those of you struggling or wanting to give up, dont. Your body needs time to rest and adjust. You can and will make that goal. Be patient and be proud of how far you have come.
  4. totaloser

    Would you do it again?

    In a heartbeat! Best decision of my life. Almost 80 pounds gone. Lost weight allowed me to find a lump in my breast. Stage 2 cancer. I wouldn't have found it so soon had I not lost the weight. The sleeve saved my life.
  5. Thanks so much for your kind words! Trying to stay upbeat and positive. This won't be fun but I'll get through it. At least I'm healthier at my new low weight so that's in my favor. Hope you all are doing well with your weightloss. It really is amazing when it starts coming off and you turn into a whole new person. So many positive changes! I'm still amazed every time I cross my legs!
  6. I was sleeved back in October. It wasn't the easiest recovery for me. I ended up with a bleed after surgery and was put back in the hospital for a couple nights but after that everything started to fall into place and the weight started falling off. I am now 78 pounds lighter and many of my comorbidities have been resolved. I feel great. I went from size 20 jeans to a size 6. My breasts shrunk and that was the biggest blessing. With the loss off of my breast fat I discovered a lump that I would not have felt 78 pounds heavier. This was 3 weeks ago. It has been a whirlwind of appointments and procedures since but long story short, I have breast cancer. I had surgery to remove it last Thursday. This has all been shocking and overwhelming but the bottom line is, the sleeve saved my life. I am beyond thrilled with my weight loss and now as I go through radiation and chemo I may have some new challenges ahead with getting proper nutrition but my whole team is on board to help me through this. I look forward to being on the other side of this battle, but I will take it one day at a time knowing for sure that my decision to be sleeved was the best decision ever.
  7. totaloser

    Any REGRETS out there?

    I have no regret for having the surgery. My only regret is that I didn't do it years ago!
  8. totaloser

    Where are the 50s ???

    I'm here! I'm 51. Sleeved 10/14/13. Down 72 pounds and feel incredible. So much energy! I even tried day one of couch to 5k today. It was tough but I did it! I couldn't run when I was heavy due to asthma. My asthma has much improved with the weight loss. I am 20 some pounds from goal and I am never going back to the old me.
  9. totaloser

    Here we go again

    Don't beat yourself up. You weren't ready 5 months ago. Now you are. Hold on tight, you are in for quite the ride! Best of luck!
  10. Yes. In fact I just started. I find it very helpful. Dealing with the emotional part of this has been a challenge. Counseling is helping me to do just that.
  11. totaloser

    honest desires....

    You are absolutely right. I do take pleasure in being small. I just have a hard time wrapping my brain around it. My family will come around and the friends that don't weren't true friends.
  12. totaloser

    honest desires....

    This was addressed in my preop process however I couldn't really imagine what it was like until I reached that point. Meeting with a psychologist was part of my preop requirement. One thing I didn't do prior to surgery and I wish I would have is to attend support groups. There are people there living it now and the more you prepare before hand the less surprises you'll have as things come up. Trauma therapy is great. You are dealing with your issues now and that's what you have to do. Good luck!
  13. totaloser

    Onederland!

    Way to go Tiki!
  14. totaloser

    honest desires....

    I still have the fat girl mentality. Every compliment I second guess. My head tells me that people are just being kind. I still have alot of self doubt. I see my reflection in the mirror and it's unbelievable how small I am getting but I just can't wrap my head around it at times. I never thought this could happen for me. I deal with shame of having to turn to weightloss surgery instead of doing it on my own. I deal with guilt for making my family deal with my lifestyle changes. It's getting better but it takes time and support. I have an emotional connection to food. Food was my go to for happiness, sadness, anger, you name it and it was my crutch. Now I'm not physically capable of turning to food for my emotions but I still have that thought process. Food was my drug of choice and I have to battle that addiction continually. I have learned that I eat to live instead of living to eat but it has been hard and at times really depressing. I used to really enjoy food. I don't any more. I guess I am mourning that loss. I can have a taste here and there of the bad stuff but it's not the same and honestly I am so afraid of falling back into old habits I stay away from it. Reading the forum is so helpful because it's filled with people who are going through the same things and are at different points in their journeys. I haven't been one to post alot but it sure has helped and inspired me to read others posts. As I am getting more comfortable with myself I will start to open up more. Thanks for your response and I wish you the best!
  15. i had the sleeve done on October14th. I had a minor bleed after surgery that landed me back in the hospital for a couple extra days but all turned out fine. The first month was not fun. I didn't feel good and it was harder than I expected to get a handle on eating or not eating. Today I can say I have no regrets. My hairloss is minimal so far. I have energy like I never had before. My bladder dysfunction has corrected itself. My asthma has gone away. I no longer have itchy rashes in my folds because my folds are gone. My upper back pain from large heavy breasts is no more. I can cross my legs. I can shop in regular stores. I don't get dizzy when I bend over. The Water retention in my ankles is gone. My list can go on and on. It's a big decision and it can be a scary step, but for me it was all worth it. Good luck to you.

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