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Thanks, CarryOn7. My mom spent hundreds of dollars on me (the Jenny Craig/Herbal Magic/Weight Watchers) during high school. I have spent thousands of dollars, most recently on the personal training two years ago. I am so done with spending money to get nowhere!

You're hilarious! I just subscribed to you on youtube. Haven't been sleeved yet but I hope when I do I have such a satisfying bowel movement. lmao

Thank you Triple H!

The below quote is from here. Welp. That's depressing. And very accurate for me. My timeline (that I can remember) 2003 - 200 lbs, graduated high school tried Jenny Craig, Weight Watcher's, Herbal Magic, physician-supervised weight loss 2004 - 230 lbs, freshman "15" 2006 - 200 lbs with diet/exercise concurrent with first serious relationship 2006 - 230 lbs, 3 months after end of first serious relationship 2007 - 250 lbs 2008 - 220 lbs with diet and exercise, then started a grueling intensive 3 year program 2009 - 250 lbs 2011 - 275 lbs, graduated from said program, then couldn't find a job for 4 months, did food and retail therapy 2012 - 235 lbs, with personal trainer costing $4000 with diet/exercise 2013 - 285 lbs, highest weight ever at pre-op for vertical gastric sleeve surgery, found out 2 weeks before surgery I am hypothyroid. Time to put an end to this horrific yo-yo dieting. It reinforces in my mind that I'm doing the right thing by having this surgery. No turning back now.

Um, you don't look older that's crazy. You look way more vibrant and full of energy. You look younger and healthier. Great job! Don't let the family bring you down.

Today is my fourth day of my 3 week pre-op diet. My diet is supposed to consist of a protein shake for breakfast, a protein shake for lunch, a protein food source and salad for dinner, and a third protein shake before bed if needed. It hasn't been too difficult although I have to admit that I have cheated. Here is a list of my sins: 1st day - for dinner I had egg salad which I ate with bell peppers as a scoop. When I ran out of my serving of bell peppers I used a few rice crackers to finish up the egg salad. 2nd day - same as 1st day 3rd day - instead of egg salad for dinner I had cod. Instead of 1 serving/fillet, I had 2. But three-quarters of the way into it I realized it was too much. I ate with my eyes, not my stomach. Overeating because the food is there is something I am working on. When I have the sleeve I will not be able to stuff myself like I used to. One extra bite could mean terrible side-affects. I will really have to listen to my body. Although I called it cheating and "sinning" I don't feel bad about what I have done. This is a practice run for after the surgery and it is hard not to make a mistake after all my years of making mistakes constantly in regards to eating. You can't unlearn habits in 3 days. But I am trying. You better believe it. I know I will be successful with the sleeve. There's no other option. But my degree and speed of success depends on my ability to unlearn ingrained habits. And I WILL unlearn those dastardly ways. Enough is enough. I am worth every step of this journey. I am worth all the struggles ahead and I will come out at the end a healthier me.

Wow, Heather, that's a kick in the pants from other posters if I ever saw one! But I think it's good for us pre-oppers to have other well-travelled sleevers keep us in line. I think that's what will help make us successful down the road. I have too many enablers in my life already, it's good that I won't find that here.