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yesterday morning i was so scared. i was debating on just saying "nevermind" and walking out. i love my online support groups. i appreciate being able to see the journey to the surgery and also see experiences that happened to otherspost surgery. however this was all a very big part of my fears this morning. the flip side though i gave myself the pros and cons pep talk and the reasons i ever started this journey. so i sucked it up went into surgery. afterwards in recovery i was in sooooo much pain in my stomach. but after the morphine kicked in it was ALL good! i think i was so prepared, from everyones experiences, that the rest of the day has been awesome. today was so good. only had some dizziness. i have hardly had any pain. now up until about 3:30 i was faithfully taking the pain managment. after that i started to ween myself off the morphine. still very little pain. no problems getting into or outof the bed or going to the restroom. the dizzyness had gotten alot better. overall it has been a great experience. just did upper g.i. to make sure no leaks. taking 2 big gulps of the liquid has made my stomach cramp. i have also gotten a pain in my right shoulder. the nurse said it was gas pain. so now i am waiting for gas meds.
ps thanks all of you for pour previuos

i have fed bcbs basic. 3 mo wait, 3 mo dr. visits, 3 mo nutritionist visits (no covered if not diabetic), 1 visit from each per month. psych eval. no mention of req lbs. to lose. i am in the morbid obese range. paperwork submitted to ins on 5/28 and approv 5/30.

I am 7 day post op. I have lost 14 lbs. this week! my gas pain went away about the 4th day. I had been walking 2-3 miles per day post op for the gas. sunday night after walking 2 miles I was depleted! no energy. completely zapped. I tried to eat some broth but just kept needing Water. a few sips into the broth my stomach got very upset and had to rush to restroom. I took shower to try and cool down. after I was still real weak and jittery. I went to er for dehydration. I have had to take it a little easier. I am having to learn to listen to my body more. we were only walking around 8pm, so sun was down. problem was I was sweating and release more fluids than I was taking in. still very glad for the loss this is the smallest I have been in over 10yrs.

p.s. i have decided i am going to begin life at 40. embrace the journey!!!

wow! the closest i can remember i have been overweight since about 8. i am now 39. i have never been someone to obsess over dieting. i have never believed i had will power. i have just accepted who i was. i have confidence in myself but i know deep down i am self conscious about my weight. i have watched biggest losser since day one and i know the biggest battle is finding out why you are overweight and fixing the problem. i have never been able to pinpoint the reason. i think the op hit the nail on the head and i am concerned about the inner me that i love. just today i was looking at pics of before and after on this site. i was thinking wow look at what they have become. i realized then i am excited to see what is under all of this. i may not believe that i have will power but i know i have determination. i have surgery 6/18/13. i am starting to calm the butterflies.

yesterday morning i was so scared. i was debating on just saying "nevermind" and walking out. i love my online support groups. i appreciate being able to see the journey to the surgery and also see experiences that happened to otherspost surgery. however this was all a very big part of my fears this morning. the flip side though i gave myself the pros and cons pep talk and the reasons i ever started this journey. so i sucked it up went into surgery. afterwards in recovery i was in sooooo much pain in my stomach. but after the morphine kicked in it was ALL good! i think i was so prepared, from everyones experiences, that the rest of the day has been awesome. today was so good. only had some dizziness. i have hardly had any pain. now up until about 3:30 i was faithfully taking the pain managment. after that i started to ween myself off the morphine. still very little pain. no problems getting into or outof the bed or going to the restroom. the dizzyness had gotten alot better. overall it has been a great experience. just did upper g.i. to make sure no leaks. taking 2 big gulps of the liquid has made my stomach cramp. i have also gotten a pain in my right shoulder. the nurse said it was gas pain. so now i am waiting for gas meds.
ps thanks all of you for pour previuos

yesterday morning i was so scared. i was debating on just saying "nevermind" and walking out. i love my online support groups. i appreciate being able to see the journey to the surgery and also see experiences that happened to otherspost surgery. however this was all a very big part of my fears this morning. the flip side though i gave myself the pros and cons pep talk and the reasons i ever started this journey. so i sucked it up went into surgery. afterwards in recovery i was in sooooo much pain in my stomach. but after the morphine kicked in it was ALL good! i think i was so prepared, from everyones experiences, that the rest of the day has been awesome. today was so good. only had some dizziness. i have hardly had any pain. now up until about 3:30 i was faithfully taking the pain managment. after that i started to ween myself off the morphine. still very little pain. no problems getting into or outof the bed or going to the restroom. the dizzyness had gotten alot better. overall it has been a great experience. just did upper g.i. to make sure no leaks. taking 2 big gulps of the liquid has made my stomach cramp. i have also gotten a pain in my right shoulder. the nurse said it was gas pain. so now i am waiting for gas meds.
ps thanks all of you for pour previuos

yesterday morning i was so scared. i was debating on just saying "nevermind" and walking out. i love my online support groups. i appreciate being able to see the journey to the surgery and also see experiences that happened to otherspost surgery. however this was all a very big part of my fears this morning. the flip side though i gave myself the pros and cons pep talk and the reasons i ever started this journey. so i sucked it up went into surgery. afterwards in recovery i was in sooooo much pain in my stomach. but after the morphine kicked in it was ALL good! i think i was so prepared, from everyones experiences, that the rest of the day has been awesome. today was so good. only had some dizziness. i have hardly had any pain. now up until about 3:30 i was faithfully taking the pain managment. after that i started to ween myself off the morphine. still very little pain. no problems getting into or outof the bed or going to the restroom. the dizzyness had gotten alot better. overall it has been a great experience. just did upper g.i. to make sure no leaks. taking 2 big gulps of the liquid has made my stomach cramp. i have also gotten a pain in my right shoulder. the nurse said it was gas pain. so now i am waiting for gas meds.
ps thanks all of you for pour previuos

yesterday morning i was so scared. i was debating on just saying "nevermind" and walking out. i love my online support groups. i appreciate being able to see the journey to the surgery and also see experiences that happened to otherspost surgery. however this was all a very big part of my fears this morning. the flip side though i gave myself the pros and cons pep talk and the reasons i ever started this journey. so i sucked it up went into surgery. afterwards in recovery i was in sooooo much pain in my stomach. but after the morphine kicked in it was ALL good! i think i was so prepared, from everyones experiences, that the rest of the day has been awesome. today was so good. only had some dizziness. i have hardly had any pain. now up until about 3:30 i was faithfully taking the pain managment. after that i started to ween myself off the morphine. still very little pain. no problems getting into or outof the bed or going to the restroom. the dizzyness had gotten alot better. overall it has been a great experience. just did upper g.i. to make sure no leaks. taking 2 big gulps of the liquid has made my stomach cramp. i have also gotten a pain in my right shoulder. the nurse said it was gas pain. so now i am waiting for gas meds.
ps thanks all of you for pour previuos

i am the 18th. at times nervous and at times anxious. i mixed my Protein Powder in sugar free Jello. it tastes alot better. excited about that discovery.

My favorite clear liquid is the seasoning packet from a package of Ramen noodles in 2 cups of hot Water. I add a scoop of non-flavered Protein and I'm ready to go! I also love this because when everyone else is eating I feel as though I'm getting real food also.

i am the 18th. at times nervous and at times anxious. i mixed my Protein Powder in sugar free Jello. it tastes alot better. excited about that discovery.

6/12 i had my pre-op appt w/the dr. went over everything. on day 7 of the pre-op diet. my blood pressure was 125/71!!! that is the lowest i have ever seen it. i was nervous going in, now i think it has really started to sink in. i am calming down for now. i made it through vacation on my pre-op diet. that was a crash course! now my husband is starting to get nervous. he looked at me awhile ago and said "wait a min, next week....like 6 days....." i just nodded and said thats right. poor thing. i am on the home stretch!!! surgery the 18th.

6/12 i had my pre-op appt w/the dr. went over everything. on day 7 of the pre-op diet. my blood pressure was 125/71!!! that is the lowest i have ever seen it. i was nervous going in, now i think it has really started to sink in. i am calming down for now. i made it through vacation on my pre-op diet. that was a crash course! now my husband is starting to get nervous. he looked at me awhile ago and said "wait a min, next week....like 6 days....." i just nodded and said thats right. poor thing. i am on the home stretch!!! surgery the 18th.

You've learned many things. Those lessons will not leave you with the fat. They are stored in your mind and heart. The real you is not the fat. Fat is excess storage. It contains no personality.
You may have relied on your big size to give you space in social circumstances. I used mine to intimidate at times. You will have to find your power in the force of your personality. Your empathy remains, your compassion as well. The fat did not give it to you. Your heart did. Now you will have a greater capacity to express your love with your new vibrancy. You can do more for more people because you are free from the drag down that fat was, you are stronger.
Your self image will change but your identity will remain the same. You will adjust to the sleek version.

Nope.. not weird at all.... Being a fat girl is part of WHO I AM.. I have been fat for 40 years. I actually never agonized over being fat and it wasn't until I started being concerned with the health aspect and certain things that I felt limited by.. that I seriously considered this surgery. Fat IS part of my identity.. just like ethnicity, or height might be for many people, it's just what I have always been and it has shaped me. I have absolutely NO idea what it will feel like to be normal weight or who I will be then... It's scary.. but kind of exciting too.

I started gaining weight around 12, before that I was thin. I don't remember what it felt like not to be fat. I feel like all of my mannerism, my personality, my understanding of people, my empathy, who i am as a person is because I am fat and had to learn how to exist in a skinny world. I feel like I am me, because i am fat. So now i am worry about not being fat, that as the pounds leave me, other pieces of who i am will to. that i will wake up and be different and that scares me the most. Don't get me wrong i know my quality of life will improve 100 times over when i lose weight, i will be able to do things i can't do now because i am to big to slow, and i get to tired to fast. I know my health will get better, health is the biggest reason i am doing this. but I am just scare of not being fat.....

6/12 i had my pre-op appt w/the dr. went over everything. on day 7 of the pre-op diet. my blood pressure was 125/71!!! that is the lowest i have ever seen it. i was nervous going in, now i think it has really started to sink in. i am calming down for now. i made it through vacation on my pre-op diet. that was a crash course! now my husband is starting to get nervous. he looked at me awhile ago and said "wait a min, next week....like 6 days....." i just nodded and said thats right. poor thing. i am on the home stretch!!! surgery the 18th.

my husband will drop off and come up after i awake up. we have 3 kids 4-8. i hate recovery b/c my legs get restless. in the past my husband has been there to rub my feet and legs during recovery. i never seem to be able to talk during this time. the upside though my dr. is doing a one incision surgey, bellybutton. my recovery will be alot easier.

pls add me i am 6/18

i have fed bcbs basic. 3 mo wait, 3 mo dr. visits, 3 mo nutritionist visits (no covered if not diabetic), 1 visit from each per month. psych eval. no mention of req lbs. to lose. i am in the morbid obese range. paperwork submitted to ins on 5/28 and approv 5/30.

pls add me i am 6/18

i am scheduled for 6/18!!!