I do not know you but I do know what it is to be a human being.. YOU ARE A HUMAN BEING TOO!!! with that said, you must love yourself before you can expect anyone else to love you. Forgive me for the directness because I surely do not aim to upset you, but he doesnt truly love you. Contary to belief, love does have conditions. It called respect, loyalty, faithfullness and much more. My husband loves them chunky and I was somewhat worried. Then one day I wake up to a beautiful coversation from him reassuring that his love for me is too profound to worry about the outside and that my health was very important to him.. It was a little more beautiful than those words but you get what I am saying.. He is my bestfriend.. YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY AND SHOULD NEVER HAVE TO SETTLE REGARDLESS OF WEIGHT!!!! we can all give you advise but at the end of the day, you must want to be happy to be happy.. Wishing you the best!!!