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So my surgery went well yesterday.... Still in the hospital resting.. My tummy is pretty sore and extremely swollen. Walking around has been pretty easy, the worst part is trying to sit down or get back up.... Luckily the hospital beds make it easier to lift you up. I have not administered pain medicine very often and they turned my auto med thing off so if I need pain meds they will brig them to me. I did take a shower on my own.. It's just a little difficult getting dressed without any assistance. Good luck to everyone else doing their surgery... Remember don't over drink your liquids cause you will feel miserable.

RN here, for the past 5 years. Been in solid organ transplant, med/surg, cardiopulmonary stepdown/tele, and long term care. I've decided I'm kind of worn out on the bedside care and am finishing my BSN with an eye towards nurse practitioner, probably adult/geriatric care but I could change my mind about that. I had no previous experience in medical when I went into nursing, I was a graphic artist! I've always been interested in science and the body, though, so I am now 44 because I came into it all late.
I've spent my entire life heavy. ALL of it. I was a rolly polly little girl and never stopped aside from brief times that I starved myself. I have PCOS as well. I've gained and lost the same 50-75 pounds so many times I don't even want to think about it anymore. I don't want to be "the fat one" in the room or on the staff anymore. I don't want to have dementia patients asking me when my baby is due anymore. I don't want to be tired, sweating, and having my screaming joints fighting me while I'm running up and down halls to care for 30 patients anymore. Nope. I want to have a lean, healthy body, do things I've never done before because I never had the energy, become a nurse practitioner and deal more with pathophysiology, and finally enjoy some things I never have been able to. I know it will be plenty of work, but at least I will feel that I'm getting somewhere with it rather than it being temporarily lost and will come back with more fat buddies in a few months.
I'm scared about the surgery...I'm still in the paper-processing stage. And I know I will probably be a crying mess the morning of the surgery. But I do know this is my last chance of making a real, sustainable change in my health. Otherwise, here comes diabetes, arthritis, hip replacement, cardiac issues...you name it. I mean, I know we all die of something one day, but I'd like to have lived first!!
I'm currently at 268 pounds, 5 foot 4 inches. My highest has been 281. Here's hoping for a much healthier and happier future fpr all of us.

My surgeons nurse called a little while ago to tell me what time to be at the hospital in the morning...6:30 a.m.!!! I was so excited when I told my husband and was talking so fast that he didn't understand me and asked "are you sure she didn't say 10:30"...soooo I had to call back just to make sure. It is officially 6:30 a.m. in the morning! YAY...I keep thinking to myself that I should really be nervous or SOMETHING but I'm not yet. I bet I will be in the morning though! :D

Home & in my own bed. In my own clothes!
I already feel even better just being here. Plus I can sleep the way I want. Hope everyone else has a good recovery. I have to give tons of gratitude to my Surgeon & Surgical team.

Heading to the hospital now... Check in time is in 15 minutes.... Wish me luck! Will write more tomorrow

Well here I go guys checking into the hospital as we speak. Good luck to everyone that is getting sleeved today. See you on the other side!

UGH...Tomorrow is my day and I am so nervous I feel like I don't want to do this!! I remember a few weeks ago I was so macho and I kept saying how it wasn't a big deal but here I am today questioning my decision. UGH!! There is no turning back now. I will do this I just need to get over this emotional crap. I also think it may be because I am hungry. Damn stomach!

Officially sleeved can hardly wait to see what my future holds!

15 months sleeved anniversary!
June 07,2012 230 pounds
September 07, 2013 128 pounds.
Best decision ever!!! Loving life❤

Finally! Surgery done! Went great and so excited!

Thinking of those that are being sleeved today. Here's to wishing for a speedy no complications recovery.

I think I might have convinced myself mentally that I've already had surgery or something. I seem to be having the opposite problem as most on my pre-op diet. I don't think I am eating enough. I was never a Water drinker except when trying to diet so I am really working on making sure I get at least 64 oz in a day. I was also a smoker for 25+ years who had tried to quit many times. Once I made the decision to move forward and scheduled surgery, I quit cold turkey without a problem!!! I have quit so many times over the years and it is always HARD, so I'm not sure why it was so easy this time. Now I'm not smoking (1 month now), I'm drinking my water, I gave up my Dr. Pepper addiction (3 weeks now) and instead of the 1 week full liquid diet my doctor requires I decided to do 2 weeks. I am 1 week in and getting about 400-650 calories a day and I'm not hungry. In fact between the water and the food I feel like I am always having something and I'm full. My typical day is 2 Protein Shakes, a can of Soup or some broth for dinner and sometimes a sugar free popsicle. I am going to try and make sure I have 3 shakes a day to try and up my calories. Now obviously this isn't the way I always eat or I wouldn't be where I am at now. And typically when I am dieting I am tremendously hungry all the time so this is all very odd to me. I guess I'm taking this to mean that I really am ready. I know I was feeling like I "cheated" on the process since I haven't been through the counseling and visits with nuturitionists and all. I already know I don't qualify through my insurance so I didn't even bother going that route. I did my research, searched my soul and decided this is what I wanted and scheduled it in Mexico. So maybe this is my body's way of telling me that I really am ready for all of this.

My lunch hours at work consist of my few minutes of getting in my couple of ounces of Protein then I either take a long walk, read a book in my car, go shopping for cute clothes that I can wear now, crochet, get my nails done, etc. I have lots more time for all the things I love to do. Thats just when Im at work. When Im at home, I have a studio that I make stuff in and get lost in there for hours. Even in front of the tv I try to keep my hands busy so I dont snack out of habit or boredom. My husband and I recently went on vacation and we occupied our time hiking, snorkeling, zip lining, etc. food wasnt a priority, making memories were.

I never really took a lunch, have always eaten at my desk. So that stays the same.
At home, I cook for the kids, then go on a cleaning frenzy. My laundry baskets are ALWAYS empty, my house is spotless. I've rearranged almost every room/closet.
I decided just today I need to clean out my desk at work. It's filled with Snacks (mostly healthy), but I just don't touch them. I'm looking at my desk now..and I have 1/2 a sandwhich I took 2 bites out of, half a Protein Bar I nibbled on and a few grapes. food just doesn't matter. I LOVE IT! I no longer spend all my time wondering what I'm going to eat.
Now I have to figure out what to feed the kids!!

I am in the process of clearing out every drawer and cupboard - this will culminate in tackling the attic before Christmas! I just didn't have the energy to spend long periods doing this before but I am finding it very therapeutic now that I have more time....

I got the call from the surgery scheduler a little bit ago. I am scheduled for Halloween!!! I have my all day nutrition class on Sept 26 and then 2 weeks before surgery I will have my physical and preop testing!! I'm so excited and I can't wait! I won't start my preop diet until Oct 17 but I've already started to implement the changes I'm going to need. Can't wait to be on the loser's bench!!

Highest weight: 277 Cw: 160 GW: 150

I am scheduled for Sept. 24th! I'm sooo nervous and excited all at the same time! I can't wait to see myself transform into something that I can finally be proud of seeing on the mirror or pictures!

Down 86 pounds as of today

Well today is my surgery date with Dr Alvarez. I will post back as soon as I am able.