TracyK

Oh Laura you had this problem before, huh? Ugh, poor thing! We used one of those glue things at work once and the mouse got its tail caught on it and I saw him running down the hallway dragging it behind him! lol My mom goes to like a feed store place and buys some really good stuff....I will ask her what it is and let you know. She has not had a problem since. Hope Carson is feeling better!

Cool...I have been deleted. I just hope everyone got to read it first...if someone wants to know what it said...let me know and I will e-mail you. It is OK Terry, you are just doing what you think is right... :frown:

Jenn-When I was at 1.5 I could not eat an egg to save my soul! Especially in the morning! Did it have trouble going down?

Suzie & Jenn...I am with you for making September a great weight loss month!

I wonder if carson won? I am gonna go see if I can tell if he won or not....

This is really the last I am going to say on this subject... There are a handful of things that I have done in my life that I am sorry for and you know what? This is NOT one of them. The only thing I might be sorry for is if I offended anyone personally (other than the one intended). Had it been someone else that said it, it would have more than likely rolled off like water off a ducks back, but hearing it come out of her high and mighty, better than the rest, self righteous mouth on the day I am supposed to start my period was a little more than I could take. So, this is where I stand. I am not here to make anyone choose sides. if someone talks to me, fine, if not, that is fine too even though I would miss the friendships because it does mean alot to me. But I have to pretend about alot of crap in my life and I can not pretend in here. I just do not have the energy anymore. I want REAL friends, not fake ones. I talk to people I care about and I ask the same from you all. I feel better this morning than I have felt in a really long time. I am in the process of weeding out the BS that I deal with, and this was just the start. It will be interesting to see how it all works out. The scale was down again this morning. It is amazing how well I can follow the rules now that I can actually consume healthy food!

Pamela-congrats on completion of your first day! What grade do you teach?

Jane...when you get your phone back will you call and sing to me? :biggrin:

To all violets that still care about me...(I think this is everyone but michelle) Sorry for the BS, but sometimes I just have to say what is on my mind and she has been asking for it since San Antonio....you all remember...I wanted to shove her in at the riverwalk.... (((love ya'll))))

Um... ok... then don't come to a place designed specifically to provide encouragement. (how does the lack of your cat being able to shit encouraging?)& if you do, & all you want to do is vent, (all I said this morning is I did not have anything positive to say...but at least I checked in, told you all to have a good day and wished pamela luck with her first day back) then say so... provide a disclaimer, so to speak. & if you don't do that, & -- heaven forbid -- someone tries to encourage you (its not what you say... it is the condescending way you say it) to look on the bright side... then don't get all Reality TV Show on her ass and ruin her day, (mission accomplished)... just leave it alone. (this one will be a peice of cake) Common sense, folks. (Common sense this :blushing: ) Laura-love the pic!! :biggrin:

:biggrin: We need to do lunch again soon. Catch you up on my latest drama and talk about your wedding!

Haydee c'mon now, you know I love ya sista but what was uncalled for? Speaking my mind? Hey, at least I worded it somewhat diplomatically. You should have seen what I was gonna put. Talk about self restraint to the 10th power! I changed a very ugly, R rated post into a PG post. lol, you should be proud of me! :biggrin: And as far as the PM...uh, whatever.....(once again I am being nice) Laura-Thank you!now that you put it that way...that IS alot of hamburger meat! :blushing:

Be careful Jane, you may be accused of being too negative and ordered/challenged to say something positive. Never fear, I know where you are coming from and we all have a right to have our down days. I guess we just arent supposed to voice them here. I thought we could. I thought that is what it was all about. It's all good though...(((hugs)))

Send me the funny texts...I love (and need) a good laugh.

OK, I was down another .5 this morning. :blushing: Jenn-thank you for letting me talk your ear off this morning! I really appreciate it....I needed that! :biggrin: So, who did you text? lol

Nothing positive to say today so... Pamela-enjoy your first day back to work. Have a great day everyone.

Thank you...you do the same, ok?

:ohmy: OH OH...let me answer this one.... OH, HELL NO they can't! :wink2:

how exciting :wub:

Kat-yep...IN the joint :wub:

Me again. A few days ago at 230.5 now at 227.5. I need to post on my blog more because it really is theraputic for me. I had stopped for a while because it is bad enough knowing I am failing at this band thing much less letting everyone else know I am failing but I decided I am going to my best not to fail anymore. I had done very well since the last blog and lost 15 pounds then regained all 15 plus 5 so here I am again. Since the beginning of summer I have been beyond stressed. And you veteran bandsters know what stress does to your band...tightens it. Well, needless to say absolutely everything I would try to eat would ot go down so in turn, feeling even more depressed would turn to the one thing that I could eat AND it would make me happy (or so I thought)...ice cream. Ice cream is my drug of choice.For the past couple of months that is what I have survived on, ice cream and oatmeal. Then the other day (after countless episodes like this) myself and my family went out to eat dinner and once again after the first few bites I was stuck. I started to cry sitting right there in the booth. I had been contemplating an unfill and at this moment I realized I had to take control of my life. I picked up my cell phone and called my dr and asked when I could come in for an unfill and lucky me...I went right then. Just being in that office again after a little over a year made me feel better, saner, safer. Gave me a new resolve. The nurse held me as I cried and told me that this happens to more people than you can imagine and together we will 'fix it'. I had gained 46 pounds since I was there in March of '08. BUT I am still not smoking and that is huge considering that here lately I have thought about it alot. But I am not going to start again just to lose weight. With my luck I would end up just being a fat smoker again. The first salad I got to eat after my unfill had to be the best tasting thing I had ever eaten in my life! No Joke! Now I am able to actually eat small portions of food and keep it down and not have to depend on junk. Yesterday I went to subway and got a 6" turkey sandwich and I swear that was the best sandwich ever! :thumbup: I am going to probably get a fill again the first part of November, you know, right before the holidays :blushing:. If my stress level is still high, I will just get a small fill. If you are reading this, please pray for me that I continue to make good choices. I believe in the power of prayer. I am going to continue to blog. It really is helpful to me. Admitting things and putting them in black and white makes it more real. So, once again, here I go. :biggrin:

Me again. A few days ago at 230.5 now at 227.5. I need to post on my blog more because it really is theraputic for me. I had stopped for a while because it is bad enough knowing I am failing at this band thing much less letting everyone else know I am failing but I decided I am going to my best not to fail anymore. I had done very well since the last blog and lost 15 pounds then regained all 15 plus 5 so here I am again. Since the beginning of summer I have been beyond stressed. And you veteran bandsters know what stress does to your band...tightens it. Well, needless to say absolutely everything I would try to eat would ot go down so in turn, feeling even more depressed would turn to the one thing that I could eat AND it would make me happy (or so I thought)...ice cream. Ice cream is my drug of choice.For the past couple of months that is what I have survived on, ice cream and oatmeal. Then the other day (after countless episodes like this) myself and my family went out to eat dinner and once again after the first few bites I was stuck. I started to cry sitting right there in the booth. I had been contemplating an unfill and at this moment I realized I had to take control of my life. I picked up my cell phone and called my dr and asked when I could come in for an unfill and lucky me...I went right then. Just being in that office again after a little over a year made me feel better, saner, safer. Gave me a new resolve. The nurse held me as I cried and told me that this happens to more people than you can imagine and together we will 'fix it'. I had gained 46 pounds since I was there in March of '08. BUT I am still not smoking and that is huge considering that here lately I have thought about it alot. But I am not going to start again just to lose weight. With my luck I would end up just being a fat smoker again. The first salad I got to eat after my unfill had to be the best tasting thing I had ever eaten in my life! No Joke! Now I am able to actually eat small portions of food and keep it down and not have to depend on junk. Yesterday I went to subway and got a 6" turkey sandwich and I swear that was the best sandwich ever! :cryin: I am going to probably get a fill again the first part of November, you know, right before the holidays :smile2:. If my stress level is still high, I will just get a small fill. If you are reading this, please pray for me that I continue to make good choices. I believe in the power of prayer. I am going to continue to blog. It really is helpful to me. Admitting things and putting them in black and white makes it more real. So, once again, here I go. :crying:

Good morning everyone~ Nothing really special planned for the day. Gotta go get Macy from my sister later this afternoon. My neck, left shoulder and arm have been killing me for the past couple of days. It is strange...for about a year off and on my shoulder would hurt in the joint. For the past few months it has hurt every day at least once a day. But the past couple of days it has hurt and been accompanied by neck and arm pain. Makes me wonder if the whole problem stems from my neck. All I know is I am out of vicodin (i have had the script for 6 months and now its gone) and I only have a few darvocet left. Drs are expensive and I do not know what I am gonna do....ice packs & massages help so I will get doing that. On the bright side I am still doing what I should food wise. Being unfilled for a while seems to be ust what the dr ordered. I can actually eat and therefore am not resorting to junk. :wub: I will get a fill around the begining of November. I am anxious to see how much I can lose on my own efore then. IF by then my stress level has not gone down, I will just leave it unfilled for a tad longer. OR When I go in I will just have them put in like .75 or 1.0 and see how it goes. Have a great day everyone!

Good to see ya Tracy :wub:

I wanted Jeff to win too but now that I think his days are numbered I am rooting for #1 Natalie, #2. Kevin #3 Jordan and #4 Michelle