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Wow that is beautiful and you are truly an inspiration to us all. congratulations on your awesome 50 lb loss, I wish you all the best.

Hi since you mentioned the word detox you may want to try juicing for one meal its very healthy for you and you have no docter requirements. I am going to try to incorporate one juice into my regimen post op when tolerated just for nutrients try the mean green shake. hope it helps a bit, good luck to you.

I love your posts they are inspirational yet hysterical.wear those jeans proud!! I would give 1/2 a pinky toe for a size 16 lol.

Funny I read your blog and it bought tears to my eyes as I sit back and realize just how much trouble im in. You are so lucky. I am married but by words only we have a torterous horrible existance of a marriage, my husband calls me every name in the book pertaining to fat he is in the works of brainwashing my 6 year old boy to go against me my son actually called me fatty tonight i cant tell you how awesome that felt, my husband is just sitting back waiting for me to fail at this as I did with my other attempts at weightloss. I loved your blog and wish I had your support system but unfortunayely im on my own. I know your life isnt easy the word twins is in the mix, lol my neices are twins 2 years old lord a handful !!! But you nailed it self worth is a huge word and powerful. I think I need to find some before I go in for my sugery. You are a lucky lady. Just remember when things get crazy and hectic and Im sure they do quite alot, there is one of your lines I loved, I got this. so just remember that you got this and hopefully so will I.

Funny I read your blog and it bought tears to my eyes as I sit back and realize just how much trouble im in. You are so lucky. I am married but by words only we have a torterous horrible existance of a marriage, my husband calls me every name in the book pertaining to fat he is in the works of brainwashing my 6 year old boy to go against me my son actually called me fatty tonight i cant tell you how awesome that felt, my husband is just sitting back waiting for me to fail at this as I did with my other attempts at weightloss. I loved your blog and wish I had your support system but unfortunayely im on my own. I know your life isnt easy the word twins is in the mix, lol my neices are twins 2 years old lord a handful !!! But you nailed it self worth is a huge word and powerful. I think I need to find some before I go in for my sugery. You are a lucky lady. Just remember when things get crazy and hectic and Im sure they do quite alot, there is one of your lines I loved, I got this. so just remember that you got this and hopefully so will I.

lmao you are hysterical, I look forward to reading your posts.

OMG I just aquired one of those horrendous machines and no I wont use it. I hate it and I cant sleep. omg its barbaric I feel like im drowning.

Congratulations on your surgery!! Glad to hear your doing ok.

I'm also 8 days out and have been trying different things too. Protein shakes have been hard to choke down so I started trying some soft foods (before my NUT's time) just to get my protein in and I've tolerated almost everything (except chicken as well). I have yet to have a full feeling, not sure I can actually feel my stomach. I don't do anything SF because it has the sugar alcohol in it and it does cause me stomach pains. I quick smoking, gave up my "occasional" glass of wine (or two), and can't eat...yes I'm really pleasant these days...hardly.

i am new to this site and i just read your entry from july 19 th. My god, you have been to hell and back. I admire your strength your a powerhouse. I am happy to see your getting stronger happy news. Good luck in your search for a cheap house with a pool, and have an awesome time!!!!!!!!!!!!

No my final appt with surgeon is may 1st then off to insurance company goes everything and I sit back and patiently wait. I recently got out of a relationship in dec. It killed me, self sabatoge ??? I put on about 25lbs since then. But im still so hurt over it. Dont hide yourself after you are done with your surgery and you are comfortable, you get out there and show the world who you are. You said your a leo, so your not supposed to be a backround person, you should be front and center!! I too someday soon want to be confident again. He just took so much out of me its still so hard , but I have mourned him enough. UGHH ssssssso ooooooo hard to get back on your feet. But I have to believe we can do this.

I am by far no expert on anything , but you bring up alot of legit questions , and your not alone. But one thing I have learned in my life is if you dont or cant love yourself , how do you expect someome else too? Example a decent man. Your scheduled for surgery so thats a major plus , you will be given a chance to improve yourself in many ways , take the opportunity and run with it!!! Dont waste it with thoughts of self sabatoge, you are worth this and you can do this!! Take it from a self sabbatoger im trying my hardest to get out of it , I am my own worst enemy. I am going to try to change my whole being with this surgery my thoughts my eating habbits , everything. For once I want to be a winner. If you ever need to talk I m around feel free.

I am by far no expert on anything , but you bring up alot of legit questions , and your not alone. But one thing I have learned in my life is if you dont or cant love yourself , how do you expect someome else too? Example a decent man. Your scheduled for surgery so thats a major plus , you will be given a chance to improve yourself in many ways , take the opportunity and run with it!!! Dont waste it with thoughts of self sabatoge, you are worth this and you can do this!! Take it from a self sabbatoger im trying my hardest to get out of it , I am my own worst enemy. I am going to try to change my whole being with this surgery my thoughts my eating habbits , everything. For once I want to be a winner. If you ever need to talk I m around feel free.

Oh crap - poor thing! Your libido is sky-rocketing and I'm taking you to a gay bar Friday night! LOL

LOL...I just did a blog this week about my NSV. I agree, we have to keep our eyes open for the little things we don't think about. Those things aren't as obvious as the scale but in the long run I think they are more important!
And you reminded me of 2 others that I didn't put in my blog. I can lean down to tie my shoes without being out of breath. And my libido is also at a whole new level....my "poor" hubby got attacked the other day (middle of the day with the kids home We got done and he was like "ummm...ok....this works for me LOL

I don't think you are being petty at all and sometimes it helps to vent. But remember that her reality is her reality--it actually would suck to have to get all new clothes from gaining weight, even if it is a size 2 to a size 6. I would try not to compare yourself to her (I know it's difficult!) and think of her as an ally. Remember that she may be trying to be supportive in her own way...and if not, you can distance yourself. But remember...keep your friends close, and your "enemies" closer! LOL. You never know, she may end up being a great part of your support system! If she is trying to be healthy too it will be nice to have someone else there who is eating healthy, and maybe you can even go on walks together at lunchtime--etc.