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Thank you all sooooo very much guys~ You rock!!! Last night was a bit hard for going to bed. My little one asked me to go home a bunch of times. Of course I laid in bed with him and told him that we were home and that we would watch Scoobie Doo after school....I told him he could have breakfast with Mame...(my mother) and once he started to settle, I started to cry~ I hate for him to be confused....Im expecting some of the same tonight....but tonight is also bath night~~~ My son loves his bathtime...One small problem with that....My mothers house only has a shower stall~~~ YIKES~~~ I may have to put my bathing suit on and get in there with him........ Im a patient person.....Im a patient person with a broken heart. I think if he asked for a pony right now, he would get it. Believe it or not, Im broken hearted for my son......not so much for the marriage and all that....but for my son.....we will be okay.......I will make sure of it......You all will be the first ones to know either way~ Thank you all so much for listening~~~

Thanks aaamom.....Lets just say the situation could have been a ton worse...but it wasn't ideal. I am just tired of the ups and downs and this whole rollar coaster ride.

Hey guys. I have had a day and I need to vent a bit. I got fed up with the situation at home and sat thinking all night last night and most of this morning, what the hell am I waiting for to move outta here? It was not a fun night at my house last night lets just say....and well, once I got the thought in my head, I took apart my sons bed and lumped it out to my van! I moved almost all of our stuff out today, with the help of my mother....thank GOD for my mother!!! Tonight is going to be our first night in her house.....My sons bed is here and all most all his toys...so he has familur things around....Just nervous about bed time....which is quickly approaching...YIKES. I am sure that he will be fine. I dunno how Im going to sleep!!! I should sleep like a baby given all the exercise that I did today~~~~ Im going to change my email addy....hopefully its set up right, but I wont delete my old account with my ISP so I can get my mail during the transition... Thanks for listening...

Okay, I feel panic mode starting up here.... I got a call last week from my soon to be new boss and she said I know your supose to start on Monday, but can you start on Tuesday because thats when our pay cycle starts? So, I say fine.....I get everything set for the weeks schedule to start on Tuesday which would be tomorrow. Now this morning, I get a call from the soon to be my boss lady, saying, We are having a lot of problems with our phone lines and we dont need you to start tomorrow, I will call you later in the week....OH WHAT THE HELL!!?? I know, they just moved into this building and all sorts of screwy things can happen...but Christmas is coming, my sons birthday is coming, and I gotta get the hell out of this apartment!! I dunno, maybe its a blessing in disguise? Maybe this is the time i need to move out mine and my sons stuff?? I dunno...but my nerves are SHOT today!!!

Im very fortunate that I am loosing about 1-1.5 pounds per week.....approx 4 pounds per month. I dont exercise much other than running after and keeping up with my son. I am planning on going back to Curves after I start working again, if I have the time and energy... I figure once I start work, that will help up the weight loss as I will be running around an office.....and getting on a schedule.

I have been thinking alot about this too lately...Am I eatting too much at one time?......I dont measure my food.. I dont know if thats a good thing or a bad thing....but I eat until I feel full and then I throw out or wrap up what ever is left over. Then again, thinking back to what I could eat pre banded days makes me sick~ I am typically not hungry...I stay full for hours...My restriction level is awesome....I get some things stuck, but my fault....I dont chew well, or I take HUGE bites of something. I work on that every day to make that better...that has ALWAYS been my downfall since getting this band...and I have done the toddler forks and stuff, but somehow....someway.....Old habits are hard to break I guess. Typically what I eat is Breakfast: Yogurt and cup of coffee w/Equal and FF Amaretto Cream Lunch: Sometimes a protein shake or left overs from dinner (meat and veggie) Dinner: Sesame Chicken with a veggie I drink all day long....water or other sugar free liquid or coffee I may snack on a second yogurt or some cheese and crackers or nuts or FF pudding.. Once in a very very very blue moon I may have some ice cream with my son I am going to try and log everything I eat for a week....just because now I am curious. I haven't been very sucessful at doing this before only because I get busy and forget to write things down....but I am really gonna try cause I have been thinking alot, probably too much, about the possiblity of streaching out my pouch~~ Parinoid delusions more than likely.....

from what i understand its like they make a belt loop with your stomach to hold the band in its place.. but just like a tiny pinch of the stomach~not enough to stitch the whole band...hope that helps

Cindy...Sorry can't help you there... All I know is that I got the band and its supose to hold 4cc's.....The drs office knows what kind it is and how much its supose to hold and all that stuff.......The only reason I know that it holds 4 cc's is because when I got filled to 2cc's the doctor said, ut, half way there..... I didn't make it my business to know. Its a good thing to know I guess....but really what would I do with the information other wise?? It would just be in there cloggin up my head Cant wait for the party on the 4th~~~~~ We are going to have a good time.

Cindy....I would imagin it was just the wrong food choice. And I would assume its gas so try the Nexium....But going back to liquids isn't a bad idea just even for a day or so.

I haven't gone so far as to actually get a weight out and see what it was like....but I do imagin the pounds in food....Like 10 pounds of potatoes....or 10 pounds of butter.....theres what, four sticks of butter in a pound. Right now I have lost 54 pounds. Soooo 54 X 4 is 216 sticks of butter~~~ Thats a real good idea though to break out the weights and carry it around! It is amazing huh???

Happy Happy Birthday~ Happy Happy Birthday~ Happy Happy Birthday~ Happy Birthday Toooo Youuuuu

~Happy Thanksgiving All~ We all have a lot to be thankful for....Even though my life is a little topsy turvey right now, I am very thankful that I have my health, my son, my family (including this bandland family BTW), my friends, free will, courage, and strength.

You have just inspired me to work harder!!! I haven't exercised in I can't tell you how long and I KNOW that is what is missing from this whole equasion. I am loosing, but not what I could be......100+ pounds....what a difference it makes!!

Happy Birthday to you~~ Best wishes for a happy and healthy new year in your life!!

Oh man, Jon I am so sorry. I hope things work out for you. I wonder why the swearing off of BCBS covered patients? Thats sorta strange. Wishing you all the best!!!

Hey guys. I went to see my doctor today. I was scared because I have been doing a lot of stress eatting because of whats going on in my life. And I got a pleasant surprize! I actually lost 4 pounds!! Thank God! I know I probably could have done better if I didn't make so many bad decisions diet wise in these last few weeks but its still four pounds less!! wahhooo Its four pounds MORE than what I expected to lose.

ITS GOING TO BE AWESOME AND THE TIME OFF FOR MY SON WILL WORK OUT TOO~~ Thank you all so very much for listening!! Jorjet,,,your right, I am strong. Its amazing how strong we can be when we HAVE to be. I went from my house with my parents to being married. I have never been alone...It will be a definate change, but I will be okay! Please lemme know how you make out with Dr Kwon ~ Hay, wait, I go to the office tomorrow too around 1:20...wonder if we will run into each other!!!

NICE TO KNOW WE AREN'T ALONE IN THAT GUTTER HUH!!!!! And NJChick, common.....girl ~ thats easy...With a pair of teeny tiny tweezers:)

OHHH thank you for asking Kathy, cause i was gonn ask the same thing...ehehehehe that is the funniest thing i think i have heard all day, if it meanss what i think it means!!! I am soooo sorry (in advance) if I misinterpreted the meaning of it, but gosh, sure sounds funny in my head~~~ As far as the weight loss...everyone is going to do it at different times...and different rates. I did real good for the first five months and now things are starting to slow down for me. I know why, Im not exercising....but your DOWN 33 pounds....Thats a lot of potatoes~~~ Your going in the right direction~ better to be down 33 than up 33....YOUR UNDER 200 POUNDS~~ THATS AWESOME!!!!

Thanks for all the well wishes guys~ I can't wait to start, and learn something new! Its been quite a while since I worked full time, and I am going to miss the hell outta my littel boy, but things are very different now~~ I have to do this...and things will work out!! I will letchas all know how it goes on Monday. I have a little problem though. I just looked at my calendar and I have an appointment in West Chester with my son on Dec 2nd to see a specialist that takes about a month to get an appointment with!! How can I ask for time off all ready?? I start on Monday and would need that Friday off. Anthony could always just go with his father, but I HATE to miss the appointment. Its for Anthony's ears. He has tubes in there, and its almost time for them to be removed/replaced.....I dunno what to do....

I dunno about that yet...But Ill letcha know~~~ ehehehehe

1. What does your handle mean? I collected Porclin Dolls at one time, they ment a lot to me. 2. What book are you currently reading, or did you last read? Complete works of Edgar Allen Poe 3. What do you do for a living? Clerical work, start MONDAY 4. For what in your life are you most grateful? My son~ 5. What's one thing about you that you think would surprise other people? Im a published author. Had a short story published in a book of inspiring essays by parents of children with disablities. 6. One word to describe yourself? Determined 7. One word others use to describe you? Dependable 8. Would you rather play a game with someone better or worse at it than you? Better, good opportunity to learn~ 9. Favorite movie? Favorite show? Queen of The Damned, Lost Boys, Sopranos 10. Something unusual about yourself? I had half of my middle finger cut off when I was a baby. The doctors left the first joint in there and the nail bed, so a sharp pokey thing hangs out of the top of it. I call it my "Goofy Finger" cause it looks Goofy!!

Hey guys~ I gotta job!!!! I am going to start on Monday!! Its doing clerical work for a company that manufactures parts for Harley Davidson motors!!! Thats right up my alley!!! I can't wait I can't wait I can't wait~ One step closer to total independence! The hours are from 9-5:30...My mother is going to help me with my son, and the place is only like 20 minutes from home. I haven't worked a full time job in I dont know how long...but I will make the best of it. I cant even tell you all how many things this changes for me, but I am soo happy!!!

Girl, you and I have had a couple of conversations about this. I have half of my stuff packed and out the door as we speak. My husband just stopped coming home from work one night.. Now he comes and goes as he pleases, I dont know when hes coming and when he isn't but we have agreed that this is over and my son and I are moving out. I turned to food too. I ate and ate and ate, making some really bad decisions diet wise. I actually gained two pounds this week, and Im not going to let him do it to me!! I have to turn this stress around and turn it into something constructive. I have spent a lot of time on this computer. I am reconnecting with old friends...I am going to bed earlier!!! And I got me on some meds to help me with the stress. We have been married 10 1/2 years...we have been together 15 years!! We have one son, and we just couldn't see eye to eye. You will be okay~ Your kids will be okay~ You are stronger than you think~ Im stronger than I think~

Hey Jorjet...Im going~ Can't wait to get all dressed up fancy like! Cant wait to see you!!