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I noticed that I've picked up my pre-surgery habit of snacking on junk, not exercising and drinking non Water drinks.
I've picked up 5 lbs. so today I'm committed to going back to basics. My goal is to lose 8 lbs this month.
Anyone want to join me?
Lots of Water
Exercise 5 days a week
Limited simple carbs
Eat Protein first
Eat slow/stop when full
Meditate and pray when stressed instead of eating

Stalls- in the beginning, during a stall I would get really frustrated and scared. I just went through such a dramatic surgery and I wanted immediate results! Now I know it's a part of the process and I don't expect to lose everyday! As a matter of fact, with the exception of one month, I've consistently lost 8-10 pounds a month. Those pounds come off over the period of a few days every month. The rest of the month I don't lose an ounce! The first 5 months were the hardest. I had a month long stall and was losing very slow (or at least I thought I was). After 5 months, things became more consistent.
What changed after the 5 month mark was I was able to eat more and began an exercise routine. I try not to go under 1200 calories and I work out 4-6 times a week. I have one day a week where I eat whatever I want. I believe it kicks up the metabolism. It's worked for me anyway. Don't be scared of stalls. Once you realize they are going to happen and you trust in what your body is doing, this process will go a lot smoother. This isn't another fad diet. If you follow the plan, you will lose......eventually.
Under 1200 calories doesn't work for me. Not mentally or physically. I don't lose weight and I'm extremely moody and fatigued.
I'm still fighting to build a healthy relationship with food. Like today, I'm hormonal and ate ice cream AND baklava! It made me more depressed. Food doesn't make me happy anymore yet my brain still thinks it does. I feel like that issue is improving though. Sure I have off days (usually around that time of month). I'm not giving up but I know realistically this will always be a struggle.
8 months out and I'm down 90 pounds. Gone from a size 24 pant to a 12/14. I've gained confidence and hope for the future. For those just starting out, this is an amazing journey. You'll have fears of failing. You'll have off days and fall off the wagon. Don't give up! I can't wait to be talking about my journey when I'm at goal and maintaining!
Good luck to everyone!

Today is my one year anniversary (June 28) of my weight loss surgery. Yes, I am a gastric sleeve weight loss patient and I have NO regrets. I needed to do something because I was dying. There was a sense of urgency due to Obstructive sleep apnea, high blood pressure and bad knees. I am happy to report that I no longer suffer from these illnesses that were brought on by obesity. My surgery, by one of the best surgeons in Houston, Dr. Ken Hollis was a blessing from God. I am so amazed how God used him and He certainly gets the glory. I walked almost daily after the surgery until recently when I joined 24 Hour Fitness June 1. I now have enough energy to workout everyday and I love it. I'm looking for a personal trainer to help me go where I've never gone before. Yes, I want to be softly ripped! I know some frown upon surgery and say it's cheating. Well, cheating saved my life! I did what worked for me at over 40. I hope my testimony is encouragement for someone else. We am still in the struggle but no longer struggling.

I am officially 6 months post op tomorrow and i am down 71 pounds.
Starting weight: 256
Current weight: 185
Goal weight: 140-150 (depending on how i look at 150)
I said i wanted to get into a bikini by 6 months.. and honey I did. Didn't say I would wear it... just wanted to get into it! At a terrible stall however. I've not recorded a lost in an entire month. I'm working out every single day (even see my abs starting to form) and the scale just won't move. At first I thought it was Water weight. Now I just have no clue! Anyone have any suggestions on how to jumpstart this weight loss again?!?!? If not, I'm going to have to try the pouch test.

Yeah. I'm in the 170s today. A couple pounds from being " overweight" instead of obese. I am losing just 2 lbs a week but only walking for exercise.
Almost a decade ago I lost 90 lbs but was exercising 2 hours per day. A shoulder and knee injury derailed that and gained it all back and then some. Decided this time I was going to lose it with a lifestyle I can maintain realistically. So been losing slowly but surely. No stalls more than a week.
Sleeved 12/17
Highest weight 254
Preop 244
Day of sx 233
Today 179

9 months ago (Sept 4, 2012) I went in to have my surgery. This was my last attempt to get back the life I loved and missed so much and little did I know at the time that it would be the best decision I'd ever made for myself. I want to share this because I remember looking to these boards trying to find out what to expect and how to know if I was making the right choice. Only you can decide what's right for you, but after everything I'd do it again 100x without hesitation. I had a few small hurdles to overcome after my surgery, but they were small in comparison to the reward I feel now. I will be forever grateful for the decision I made. I couldn't walk without feeling miserable, going out made me feel terrible because I never felt good about the way I looked after gaining the weight and I just wasn't living life to the fullest. I wish I'd had the surgery years ago, but what's important is that I had it. 9 months ago I was in a tight size 20 jeans and XXL tops. Today I'm wearing a 9 in jeans which are super loose so I’ll probably be going down another size within the next couple of weeks and a small or medium in tops. Knowing I can walk into any store and buy clothes makes me jump for joy. Every time I pass Lane Bryant I say a quiet thank you that they were there when I needed them and then smile because I know I'll never need them again. I can go into any store I want and try on and wear nearly anything I want. Don't get me wrong, there are still things I see that I love and I'm not able to wear just yet, but I'm almost there and I could not say that a year ago. I'm going to touch on some of the things I had so many questions and curiosities about so that maybe I can help someone else with the same concerns.
First of all, my BIGGEST concern throughout this process was the possibility of hair loss. I had very fine hair to begin with and it has never been extremely thick. It was perfect for me, but I didn’t feel like I had any to spare. At pretty much exactly 3 months out the dreaded Hair loss started and my heart broke. I was terrified that this was happening to me. I was finally having success at losing weight and now I had to deal with something else that would make me feel bad. I was losing hair with a vengeance and I remember saying to myself, “it’s going to be okay, just roll with the punches and it’s going to stop before it gets too bad” until one day I realized I had thinned enough on top that it was noticeable and I broke down and cried. Listen up ladies; this is about 98% likely to happen to you so mentally prepare for it so when it comes you don’t lose your mind. I wasn’t happy, but I was prepared as much as I could be because I’d done the research. I had beautiful and long straight blonde hair. It was my staple and always had been. I held on for as long as I could and started getting weekly salon treatments to help with regrowth (which if you can afford worked AMAZING), but I did finally have to cut my long locks into a cute and sexy short style. I have NEVER had short hair and I was terrified, but because I was no longer “fat” it looked amazing on me and gave my hair the volume it was lacking since it was so long. It is still short (I have since cut it again bc I loved the way it looks so much) and all of the hair I lost is coming back in thanks to my treatments and the hair loss coming to a stop. I think it stopped falling out after about 3-4 months so it was a while before I noticed I was no longer losing fist fulls of hair. I kept my long hair in a cute braid to the side or French braided for a few months before I finally cut it because it was thin enough at that point that leaving it down just wasn’t an option anymore or everyone would have noticed.
Another concern I had was “what is my body going to look like after this surgery if I lose a lot of weight?” Well, I needed to lose a little over 100lbs and have lost 92 so far. I feel very lucky because it isn’t too bad. My arms underneath are a little flappy, but I also haven’t worked out like I should and am currently working on that and can tell it’s getting better. My tummy is pretty much what I expected. I do not have any loose skin there at this point (and don’t think I will), but it’s not my favorite to look at for a few reasons. I have a ton of stretch marks, particularly on my lower tummy area) and since losing weight they definitely make it hard for my lower tummy to not hang a little. Now, I have seen some bad pics of bellies and mine isn’t horrible at all, but I don’t love it. I also hate my surgery scars because I want to be able to eventually show my stomach in a swimsuit and they will keep me from feeling comfortable doing that. I want to get a Tummy Tuck, but that will have to wait for now. I did do a consult and the doctor wants me to wait until a year out and then of course I have to figure out financing. She did say, however, that I won’t need a full tuck because my muscles underneath are in great shape so technically I’ll only need the panniculectomy done. She is trying to get insurance to approve that, but I don’t think it will happen because it doesn’t look horrible or hang much at all and I can’t imagine they will cover it, but we’ll see. My breasts are another area that has been significantly affected. They are much smaller than they were (although still considered large and well-proportioned for my body size) and they are hanging down lower than they should now. This again seems to be because of the stretching (stretch marks). They could use a lift and the doctor thinks around 350cc’s implant to fill in where the skin is loose. I’m hoping to have this done at the same time as the tummy tuck. All that said about the surgeries I’m looking at, I could never do the surgery and I would still look great guys. So, if you’re concerned about not having the money for surgery later on, don’t let that be a deterrent. I still look pretty fabulous naked compared to a year ago. I have had a thousand compliments on my change in appearance since my surgery and the men I’m around are falling all over themselves and not just any men, but the hot and fit ones, so don’t let something like a few imperfections keep you from following through with your surgery because if I never get plastics done I will still be more than okay with the way my body looks and I have done virtually no physical exercise up until recently. I saved this for last because it is for me the one place I do have some loose skin. It is very little, but trust me, I hate it and it’s something I can’t help but notice and it’s my inner thighs. I’m very short so for me my fat distributed more to my backside and thighs than anywhere else. I was fat all over, don’t get me wrong, but this area took a lot of what the rest of my body couldn’t hold so when I lost weight, that area became very flabby because it’s such a fatty area. Again, I have not worked out like I should so I KNOW I can improve this by leaps and bounds which is what I’m working on now. I will try to update you on that progress later on for those who are interested. I am hoping to eventually get it to a point where it’s virtually unnoticeable and think it’s possible aside from the stretch marks which I could care less about for the most part since even the skinniest people I know have those.
As far as my body, that is all I can think of that were huge concerns of mine going into this last year. I really do look amazing and feel like I’ve won such an amazing prize by getting my life back. It’s been so long since I was smaller I hadn’t realized how much differently I was treated from before I gained the weight. It isn’t right, I will agree, but there is a definite difference and I was even extremely confident for someone who was overweight. I always thought people treated me the same, but now I’m realizing they didn’t. I am called sweetheart and darling all of the time now where I didn’t get that as often before. I’m constantly complimented on my clothing, hair, smile, face, jewelry, etc. I have always been very fashion conscious so I did get compliments when I was bigger, but nothing to the magnitude that I am now. It really does make you feel amazing and I can’t stop smiling. I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of walking into a room or up to someone and having them call me “skinny”. Some people take offense to that from what I’ve read on these boards, but I think everyone is also entitled to their opinion. For me, it makes me feel like all of the effort I’ve put into making healthy eating choices and watching my portions to aid my sleeve are just being complimented every time someone says “Oh my God, you look amazing”.
And, this post has gone so long that I’m just going to briefly touch on food and stalls because I read a lot about that before and after my surgery too. I think everyone is different and should treat this surgery in such a way that will benefit their weight loss goals. While I was definitely addicted to food for a period of time after gaining weight, I have not always been big so for me, after the surgery, I did not miss food at all and I know everyone isn’t so lucky. So, I have been able to possibly indulge a little more than someone who would never be able to stay on the wagon if they did. My diet is pretty lax compared to most I see on here, but I also do not eat much at all even almost a year out. Up until recently I was still only eating 3-4 bites before becoming full. I think that is different for everyone. I usually do something small in the mornings (egg or oatmeal) and then eat pretty normal the rest of the day. I try to make healthy choices such as choosing a lean Protein, but if I have a bite or two of a side it’s usually what everyone else is having. The beauty for me is that I only eat a bite or two and if you can’t do that then stay away from the carbs because it isn’t worth damaging your weight loss for. I look at it like this, I spent 8 years eating myself to death so I’m going to skip the pie or cake because I ate enough of that for a lifetime. If there is cake, I’ll take a bite of my husbands if I just really want to try it, but usually it doesn’t appeal to me at all. I have stalled a few times throughout, but unlike some, I don’t worry about it because I know I’m eating small portions. I was stuck at the 150 mark for probably longer than any other stall (a complete month with not losing even a pound) so I went back to Protein shakes for Breakfast and then made sure I was only eating lean Protein for lunch and dinner with minimal carbs and I’m now down to 145 so that proves to me that if I’m stalling I can break through with a little effort on my part. Another thing that I know is controversial is sodas. I used to drink Dr. Pepper like crazy and since surgery I will admit that I do have the occasional Dr. Pepper. Now, that said, by occasional I may do this once every three to four weeks and when I do it’s one of the tiny 90 calorie cans. Again, I am not easily persuaded back into old habits so if you are DON’T do it! I just want one occasionally and I don’t deprive myself of it. Some people can’t even tolerate it anyways so it’s not an issue. I tend to be able to tolerate most anything. The only things that have changed pretty drastically are that I don’t like the taste of milk anymore so I don’t drink it at all where I used to drink a glass every couple of days. I can’t stand it now. I also can’t really eat anything super spicy anymore which makes me a little sad. I love jalapenos and used to eat them with everything and I just can’t handle it. It doesn’t hurt my belly, but gives me horrible acid reflux/indigestion so I just don’t go there. I have eaten ice-cream a couple of times and it was bad. I had symptoms similar to dumping and that will make you stay away forever because it’s no fun. I think it was because it was liquid and ran straight through so quickly because if I eat something sweet that’s solid such as a small brownie or cookie (which is rare, but does happen once in a blue moon) it doesn’t have the same affect. Again, I just think everyone is different. I was never one to eat a lot of sweets or snack so it is pretty much a non-issue for me.
I really hope there is some useful information in this post for those of you who are new or thinking about surgery. I just know I would scour the boards for hours trying to find info and compare notes and find people that were close to me in size and stature. It always gives you something to look forward to. If you have a specific question about something I didn't talk about here, feel free to ask me. I'd be happy to answer it for you.

I am smiling today...I was sleeved the day after Christmas and have lost over a hundred pounds .....never have regretted it....best thing ever ....my BMI was always in obesed scale but now ....my BMI is over weight scale....30 more pounds and I will be in the normal BMI ....yea never thought I would be normal
Patty

Finally broke out of the 180's. Weighed in at 179lbs this morning!

Yes. We ALL struggle!
The biggest struggle of all is what you are experiencing right now. The MENTAL game.
This surgery is a tool to help you change your habits, your lifestyle and your mindset. If you don't "get in the game" from that perspective, you won't succeed long term and you will not be the healthy person you want to be.
The fact that you are posting about this struggle means you are aware of it. That's great news! If you know it, and admit it to yourself, you can change it for the better!
From a nutritional perspective, the reason you are probably not feeling energetic enough to exercise is because you are not eating the right food to fuel your body. You are losing weight, but you may not be losing fat! It is much easier for your body to break down muscle tissue to scavange energy than fat. So if you don't provide your metabolism enough Protein to maintain and build muscle (which is built using protein), you will lose baseline muscle.
We already lose muscle just by aging. Don't rob yourself of your strength, stability and future core health by eating junk instead of Protein now!
The rules are:
1. Protein first
2. Vegetables next
3. Carbs if (and only if) there is room left in your stomach and your daily nutritional alottment
You need to make a realistic daily nutritional guideline for yourself (see a NUT if you can, or talk to your surgeon's office for some guidelines). Then start tracking everything you put in your body (and I mean every bite, every sip). Are you meeting your baseline requirements? They are often something like this:
60+ g of protein daily
600-800 calories per day (this will climb as time goes on - I currently eat appox. 1100 cal/day, and I'm 1 yr post-op)
carbs <60 g per day
min. of 64 oz of Water per day

These numbers will vary greatly from surgeon to surgeon and NUT to NUT. But the baseline is similar and the most important part is to know what you're eating and have a goal you reach for EVERY DAY.
That doesn't mean you can't treat yourself to a bit here and there (no one is perfect and we need to be human about this). But if you allow something outside of the plan, do it consciously, "earn" it with extra exercise, and don't make it a habit!
You must do this EVERY DAY for months at a time (I'm 1 year post-op and I log everything, every day). It will become normal, and you will find you don't slip off-track very often when you hold yourself accountable for every bite.
Lastly, you must find a way to incorporate exercise into your daily routine. Start with walking. After a while, as you get better at it, you will want to push yourself more and perhaps run, or do organized sports, or ride a bike, or hike. There are thousands of ways to push your body to a better athletic condition, and it makes you feel GOOD. Believe me.
It's about changing your lifestyle so that it becomes your "new normal".
Then you can truly say you did everything you could to succeed, and feel good about the effort AND the results. And about your fantastic, healthy, energetic body.

Have agree with Lynda, in the respect that while right now - - being early out from surgery - - your body is still trying to heal and what you gave it was too much and it objected. However, going forward as your new tummy heals and relaxes, it will be totally UP TO YOU to resist the temptation of food. What the sleeve DOES help with long-term is being full on less, but I've found that only with dense Protein. I am 2.5 years post-op and max out at 4oz of Protein. I usually do 3 to 3.5 oz per meal of protein. Things like crackers, chips, ice cream, pie, cake, Cookies, and YES even caramel corn will slide right down your sleeve without resistance. So start tackling those food demons now, and start working on developing long-term habits that you can live with for the rest of your life.

Hey guys! Took some pictures this past weekend and noticed a lot of progress so I wanted to share!!!
My stats:
-starting weight: 296
-surgery date: November 19,2012
Current weight: 180
30 MORE POUNDS TO GOAL
Me on the right:

Before and current:

Today is my 6 month surgiversary! I am down 75 pounds. Slowed down significantly since January. HW 255 CW 180 and still losing VERY slowly. I have lupus so exercise is minimal. So, I'm pretty proud of getting here. Only 30-40 more to go! Blessings and best wishes to all!

Oh HELL no! I hope they incinerated that thing!
Evil! Evill! Stomach... Ewww I just shuddered at the idea of that thing finding its way back!

Yep... HELL NO! I know me very well. I've been at goal a million times and guess what? The sleeve is going to work permanently for many reasons. A few are, I want to be healthy, I want to eat right, I hate being fat and it's cost me 100 grand just getting to the VSG , so by God.. It's going to work! I hope my wicked stomach rots a slow ugly death.. Good riddance!

No matter how skinny I ever get I will always be a fat lady inside.. I like eating pastries,cake chocolate, bacon and other porcine yummies.. Not necessarily in that order, but i can still eat all that just a little bit at a time which is good for me.. Having a small tummy didn't change my mentality just my capacity. Initially it was a mindf u c k but I got over it and now it's life..

Personally I believe there is some good information here but please take each point as a grain of salt. What I mean is everything does not work for everyone. I am at goal and do follow a healthy eating plan, exercise, lots of Water, low carb and track what I eat. Ithink that it is important to weigh your self frequently, you need to keep abreast of where your weight is, a gain can come very easily and if you are not aware of it you may start on a slippery slope in the wrong direction. I weigh daily or every other day and may tweek what I eat that day to compensate(less sodium filled foods, different carbs etc). Remember that it is a life long journey that we are on so experimentation is what it is all about.

Hey everyone. I wrote this to help a sleever with some advice and felt that we can all benefit from each others advice ( which is mostly what the site is about) however let's make it happen here right now. For stalls, for gains, for recipes, for exercise, for Protein, for love, etc Etc... Tmi advices are also welcomed lol]
Step one. Most Important part is protein and Water.< /p>
60-80 grams of protein per day
64 oz of water per day ( most docs say its okay to count coffee, tea, Protein shakes, etc win the 64 oz)
Protein you can get from food, Protein Bars, or shakes.
Some shakes have too much sugar so keep and eye in that.
Step two. Calories up up up carbs low low low
We need the calories to burn fat and lose the weight depending on what your nut/ doc say and how much you want to lose. I aim for 900-1200 per day. If you don't eat calories your body will go into starvation mode and you will not lose weight.
Carbs like Pasta, rice and bread are not good. They will fill you up and make you bloated because it makes you retain water and not give you nutrition. Some carbs can be good like yams and plantains. Google it.
Step three. Sugar
It's hard to avoid sugar when watching everything else a good way to avoid it is to buy sugar free everything and using Splenda when you want to add sugar to something.
fruit has a lot of sugar so try to limit yourself to at least the fruits with least sugar. Don't know what they are? Thank God for Google!!! Lol
Step four. Measurements
Buy measuring cups. (Tsp-1 cup)
Buy a bottle that holds a large amount of water like: 32 oz---- if you buy a Poland spring water it will say 32 Fl Oz
Step five. Plan ahead
Plan what your going to eat in advance especially if you have to work or are going out.
Grab a calendar or and itinerary and write down what you plan to eat for the whole week for Breakfast lunch and dinner and include Snacks in between each.
This way you you've already calculated the Proteins and calories for each day and you don't have to worry about it.
Step six. Exercise
Choose what makes you happy. I LOVE to dance. Dancing is a workout so I'm starting dance classes in may.
Incorporate walking into your life. Park the car far from stores, go window shopping at the mall, walk the dog or catch up with a friend or loved one while walking.
Step seven. Change it up
Routines are boring. Planning ahead will help change up the recipe everyday.
This includes exercise. Ex: Monday salsa class, Tuesday 30-45 minute walk, Wednesday break, Thursday pop in a workout DVD or look for videos on YouTube , Friday swimming, Saturday break, Sunday boxing.
Step eight. Enjoy
Don't go crazy. (Which you will the first few days) but then it will be natural. Don't deprive yourself but at the same time makes smart decisions.
My bf ordered take out. It smelled so good. Went straight for a peace of broccoli chewed it and divorced it well and swallowed didn't look at the rice at all.
Step nine. Keep track
Track your food intake. there are apps like myfitmesspal.com not to mention FREE where you can login in everything you eat and drink. again, Google Is your best friend. Use it as a tool.
Step ten. The scale is still not your friend
Step away from your scale. Hide it if possible. Weigh yourself only once every 2 weeks or once a month. You have not lost a pound in a few week but have you taken your measurements. Because you are losing inches. Notice your bra strap slipping down your arm and your fave pants .... You need a belt now.
The most essential part of weight loss are the non scale victories. I crossed my legs, went up five flights without getting tired, bumped into my ex. Wore a dress I haven't worn in 3 years, did have a heart track while tying my shoes laces.
Overall have fun and don't think about it too much. I'm not a doctor or a nut. I'm not here to judge you I am here like everyone ewe to get help and answer others. This all came from a sleeved just like you. Good luck and I wish you the best.
Sleepers best food.... What you should have on your grocery list
Cottage cheese
Skim milk
Soy milk
Greek yogurt
Shredded cheese
Cheese (American, Munster, Swiss, etc)
Cheese sticks
Sugar free Popsicles
Granola
Jello
chicken
eggs
Yogurt
oatmeal
Nuts
Peanut Butter
tuna
Salmon
Shrimp
Keep this post going with ideas and advice. Thanks guys.

I am 6months post-op and recently diagnosed with psoriatic arthritis. I give myself weekly shots of methotrexate and seems to be helping. I still have some joint pain and it makes exercising challenging BUT I canNOT imagine how much worse I would feel if I still had those 65lbs. I feel so much better in my skin. I no longer have sleep apnea which is HUGE. Here is the challenging part, I HAVE to make sure I get all the Protein and fluids in (vitamins daily and B12 shots monthly) or I have low energy. Its difficult for all of us but I think its even more crucial when dealing with autoimmune issues. Please keep that in mind. I had a problem taking Rx pills for psoriatic arthritis with my little tummy. Thats why i do injections and its the best choice i made. Very, very small needles. Easy to do and only once a week vs 2 pills a day. Life is truly sweeter now. I really wish I had surgery years ago. You all are going to be sooo happy! Its not every day you turn your life around. Enjoy the journey.

Today is my 6 month surgiversary! I am down 75 pounds. Slowed down significantly since January. HW 255 CW 180 and still losing VERY slowly. I have lupus so exercise is minimal. So, I'm pretty proud of getting here. Only 30-40 more to go! Blessings and best wishes to all!

Today is my 6 month surgiversary! I am down 75 pounds. Slowed down significantly since January. HW 255 CW 180 and still losing VERY slowly. I have lupus so exercise is minimal. So, I'm pretty proud of getting here. Only 30-40 more to go! Blessings and best wishes to all!

Today is my 6 month surgiversary! I am down 75 pounds. Slowed down significantly since January. HW 255 CW 180 and still losing VERY slowly. I have lupus so exercise is minimal. So, I'm pretty proud of getting here. Only 30-40 more to go! Blessings and best wishes to all!

You are not pathetic, you are human. We addict ourselves to things because of needs we have emotionally. Unless we find some other less destructive ways to meet those needs we continue on paths that we are familiar with, however detrimental.
Now you have chosen to step off of that old path. You must find fulfillment in life apart from stuffing. For whatever reason we overeat we must find ways to cope with life's challenges. Mine was nerves, and wanting to eat myself into dullness to escape the pain of life, food as a drug. We must face reality and make it a friend and not something to escape.
I think I have discovered the root of my over-indulgence in food; frustration with how my life was going. There were dreams I had that were never fulfilled, some that I wrecked by my own stupidity. It created a self-hatred and subsequently a careless attitude about how I took care of myself.
By prayer and meditation I have found peace with myself and with God. I no longer despise myself, the dreams that I had were great but other great things happened while I was dreaming. Life happened, love happened, I was blessed and was a blessing. I have finally made myself my friend.
I like living in this loose skin.

Start weight: 246lbs
Current weight: 196lbs
I have a long way to go but I'm feeling good today. I bought this dress to Celebrate being in the 80kg range woohoo

I just had my 9 month checkup, I have lost 116 lbs since June 18, 2012, I'm 5'11" and started out at 334.9 lbs, I am so excited about getting to onderland!


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