No matter how skinny I ever get I will always be a fat lady inside.. I like eating pastries,cake chocolate, bacon and other porcine yummies.. Not necessarily in that order, but i can still eat all that just a little bit at a time which is good for me.. Having a small tummy didn't change my mentality just my capacity. Initially it was a mindf u c k but I got over it and now it's life..

Hi to my inner fat lady friend! I am me and and me? I'm still kinda fat on the outside but I have a big fat lady on the inside too. She is me

I'm so there with you. It's like I've been fat for too long for me to suddenly start thinking like a skinny person (although I don't ever think I'll be skinny but you get me..right)

One of the things I thought about was how would I relate to my friends. Some of them are fat (most are fit though) and we had our own little inside jokes, you know the ones fat chicks make about themselves, each other and every other fat person..it's gonna be so awkward when they start telling the fat chick jokes and I can't chime in anymore......lame, I know but it is a valid concern..

I can so relate. I have been seriously overweight pretty much my entire life, minus early chidhood and a few minutes in my early 20s. Being fat is/was who I am. Makes me wonder if that's why I subconciously ate so much- too afraid of the newness of being thin.

I'm glad that y'all can relate

Not only can I relate, but I was eating a spoon of peanut butter (and no it wasn't pb2 it was real but no added sugar ) as I was responding

I'm sitting under my parasol in the bleachers at my sons baseball game diet coke on ice in hand life's good right about now

I'm sitting under my parasol in the bleachers at my sons baseball game diet coke on ice in hand life's good right about now

I've always wanted a parasol. The lacy girly kind.

I wanna see a picture of her under the parasol!

(Yes I have a girl crush)

Here ya go

Here ya go

Hehehe..

**** blushing and giggling*****

Well I want matching gloves too! :-D

Well I want matching gloves too! :-D

It's too hot to be sitting up under one of those lacy things

It's too hot to be sitting up under one of those lacy things

Lol! Not in Ohio.

Back on topic. I totally agree about always being fat on the inside. In my brain.

It has shaped and developed who I am today. It's ingrained in my cells.

I think I'm okay with that too.

Lol! Not in Ohio.

Back on topic. I totally agree about always being fat on the inside. In my brain.

It has shaped and developed who I am today. It's ingrained in my cells.

I think I'm okay with that too.

That's the gist of it I know where I come from I'm a reformed fattykins!!!

I agree, no matter how much I lose, I will always be the fat girl inside to, and its me. I will embrace her tho, as she has been with me for many, many of my adult years.