I used to be a self inflicted guilty mess after my SO committed suicide the morning of my sleeve surgery. It's taken me 5 years to get to the point in my life where I can stand strong again. I'm almost to where I want to be---almost.
You are a true inspiration. You've overcome so much and have come out the other side a very caring person. I love it that God never really finishes with us......we are all still "works in progress."