Krystal

I have lost another 6 pounds..ive been doing really well...not overdoing it at all. Seems like everytime i get on lapband site it is lagging and takes forever for me to go from page to page....i just checked in today and its ten times better....so i will come back and start typin more! I miss all of you! How is everyone doing?

ok so i went today and got a fill......im at 7.4ccs lets see what it does....

Ok so im here I have been just really busy this weekend and I am going to be busy all week. I have tried to fill my days up with things to do.... I am going tomorrow to get a fill AGAIN....its once a month. I am going to ask the Dr for all my fill reports so i can keep track. It seems I still have NO restriction. My husband is going with the Dr tomorrow to tell him he needs to seriously add a lil more so i can get a decent fill. I live 5 min from the Dr so if its too much he can take some out. Im frustruated really! The way it looks to me, my Dr is doing the same thing to another patient and we have been going to the Dr at the same time......she brought up the fact that she thinks he is filling us too little because everytime we come back we have to fork out more and more money.... UGH I dont want to do too much to cause a problem...but come on! OK enough venting for tonight...... ill talk to you all soon.....Good Night!

Thank you!!! That page is a work in progress. Its just a for fun thing. I plan on journaling my weightloss in the blog section soon. I just need to get a little more organized over here.

So I was thinking about my statement about how hard it is to lose weight. I was thinking more on it and it occurred to me that BEING FAT IS HARDER than ANYTHING Can you fit in a bathroom stall with no problems? Wipe much?(for you bigger girls...you know what i mean) Can you fit at a booth comfortably? I cant. Can you buy clothes at ANY store in the mall? I cant. Can you take an entire day outing and ENJOY it? I cant. I can be out on my feet for like 3-4 hours and im DONE....ready to pass out. Does the thought of 95 degree weather totally freak you out? It does me! Does your kids beg you to do things that are physically impossible for a big person my size? Mine does. Now that I look into this...being fat is JUST as hard as losing weight. We just train our minds to except it. Well im done with that. Im not excepting it anymore!!!

So I was thinking about my statement about how hard it is to lose weight. I was thinking more on it and it occurred to me that BEING FAT IS HARDER than ANYTHING Can you fit in a bathroom stall with no problems? Wipe much?(for you bigger girls...you know what i mean) Can you fit at a booth comfortably? I cant. Can you buy clothes at ANY store in the mall? I cant. Can you take an entire day outing and ENJOY it? I cant. I can be out on my feet for like 3-4 hours and im DONE....ready to pass out. Does the thought of 95 degree weather totally freak you out? It does me! Does your kids beg you to do things that are physically impossible for a big person my size? Mine does. Now that I look into this...being fat is JUST as hard as losing weight. We just train our minds to except it. Well im done with that. Im not excepting it anymore!!!

Im here today!!! Gosh...do you ever have the feeling about exercise when you say to yourself... I JUST DONT WANT TO!!!! and then you dont... Thats what i been doing and i need to kick that habbit....this weightloss thing is soooo hard....

:(Im here, I have been kind of in hiding for the past 3 weeks. We have been really busy as a family and my husband went out of town for a week. Well while he was out of town for a week i ended up playing the "single mom" role and fell off of the exercise wagon for a bit. I realized how quick, if you give up for a day,....how a day turns into a week, and a week turns into weeks. It's kind of interesting how last night I was watching an episode called BIG MEDICINE on TLC. I realized what I originally started this post for.....so I would have strength to keep going. It seems not posting ONE day has started the ever famous trickle effect. I was crying last night, and called my husband while he was at work and ask him why he was so "lax" about everything. I mean for 3 weeks he was bustin my butt and on my tail about working out and eating good....and it was working. But all of the sudden it was like i was back to the old. :faint:About a week ago I told him on the phone i was craving some chips and dip. So he says "want me to pick some up on the way home" and i didnt turn it down. Why? He made it seem like it was ok....i knew it wasnt. But he wasnt there to tell me it wasnt. He enables me and i dont think he even realizes it. He is my rock and I am not sure how I wouldnt get through any of this without him. His strength in this is a BIG DEAL. I told him he needs to buckle down on me again and that i dont want to be like this forever. I asked him how much does he love me? He says "more than you'll ever know" I told him back.....well...."give me some tough love":help: I truly am lucky to have a husband. Someone who is there for me. I could be in a worse possition. It's crazy how I received a message this morning from this post when i was struggling last night with this situation. Every day i recover from a struggle i become a little bit stronger. I think I needed a RE-evaluation of why im still here and why God has put me here with a beautiful family. He has given me EVERYTHING I could ever want EXCEPT the body I want. That he is making me work for. And it isnt going to be easy. I think I am seeing and noticing how i allow myself to give up because giving up is easier. I am throwing a birthday party for my daughter in 30 days. Its a POOL PARTY.......I actually had to ask family members to make sure they rbought a swimsuit so they could be in the pool with chloe. (im not getting in that pool in front of ALL the family) It's pretty sad that something so simple is now so drawn out in my head. Next year I am going to throw her a pool party AND IM going to be the one swimmin with her!:clap2: NO ONE ever said this was going to be easy, but before surgery I think I THOUGHT it was going to be some kind of easy fix! Im going to watch my calories again and Im NOT going to have any more JUNK in this house. I think a lot of my problem is that I dont have full restriction yet. I have another Dr's appt June 5th. Hopefully i can get to a "sweet" spot soon.... Ok im off of here for now....but I WILL BE BACK.....im going to go face my life here...... THANK YOU ALL WHO ACTUALLY CARE. IT MEANS A LOT.

I really hope you guys are right. I am faced daily with the possibility of something going wrong. Maybe being able to eat all the wrong foods today has scared me. I have been really good in the past month but eating those foods and it not doing anything scares me. I need another fill......but my Dr makes me wait 4 weeks inbetween....grrrr

I understand that....but even before this fill i wasnt THAT UNrestricted....its like he took some out, not put some in....thats why im freakin out

I had a fill in April and now a month later May 8th I had another fill. He only put a small amount in. Heres my problem.... I did the liquids thing and mushies and all that fun stuff.......today I had some Pasta...i was thinking...this will get stuck but i just eat a small amount...well it never got stuck.......so i ended eating more than i should have. Then i was giving my daughter a SOMOAS GS Cookie and I ate FIVE of them(i know i shouldnt have).......and i had NO restriction....WEIRD..... So i was thinking just now how odd it was not to have any restriction...and its making me really nervous. I thought...well im going to test myself...i did the ultimate....i ate 2 pieces of bread dry by themselves......no drinking or anything NO RESTRICTION......i have 6.8cc's in a 10cc band....and im nervous as hell.......did my band slip? what has happened... I havn't had ANY restriction since the Dr added to my band. I may not have eaton good today but thats not my problem...it was mainly tests to see if there was ANY restriction... Any ideas? What this could be?:cry

Sorry I've been really busy. This past week has been really bad because I haven't worked out. I went to my Dr. Today and had a fill. Im at 6.8cc now. Haven't lost anything more than what Ive already reported....so its back to the treadmill. I kept up with my journaling and then slowly stopped. I was doing better when I was journaling because I was actually recording my success. Ill get back on it...tomorrow i am going to start my exercise again. Im making some concious efforts to eat less cals and make smarter decisions. Hopefully all will go well. We will see. Ill be checking in tomorrow im sure. Im making my own journaling section on my webpage www.krystalballard.com and if any of you would like to comment then come check it out.

Yea unjury told me i needed like 82grams.....sheesh.....

Ive been distant lately....a lot of things clouding my judgement. I will journal tonight. I am also creating my own webpage....not done with it yet but i will be keeping my journal on there as well. It will be www.krystalballard.com i am struggling right now. Im at my hardest point. I have made mistakes the past 2 days...why do I do that? Why cant i stay on track......ugh ill finish this later...im going to the park with my daughter...maybe she will change my spirits

I am creating my own webpage and i will have a section for the lapband... is there a banner i can post onto my site for this page? If so where can i find it? Thanks!

Amen.....to each their own

I've been talking to MANY people......nurses....Dr's, weightlifters....from what i gather that is a common denominator from MOST of them... Protein is ok as long as you dont do more than about 25g per serving. Your body can not digest much more. The couple of weight lifters say to lose weight and build muscle for beginners they always suggested around 60-80g a day. More serious weightlifters who have been weightlifting for years take in 1.5 grams of protein PER pound that they weigh. One of my friends is a professional weightlifter. He has done it all. I had about an hour conversation with him on the phone with him today. MOST of his best friends are personal trainers. He is currently working for a competition and is taking in about 260grams of protein a day. OBVIOUSLY we would never have a need for that much protein. He also drinks 12oz of Water ON THE HOUR...... Point being...there is a huge difference between weightlifting and losing weight and trying to build the muscle some of us NEVER had to begin with. Dr's are NOT personal trainers. They tell you what they know or what they have heard works best. But things are different for everyone. Some dr's say this others say that. Its all on the person and what their goal is. I think out of all the people ive seen ACTUAL before and after pictures MOST of them who have lost LOTS of weight were on some sort of protein shake. Look and bodyforlife.com for example....almost all of the people who are under the losing fat section were on myloplex (sp). This again is just my take on it...i have been doing ALOT of research as for as what really works....not what Dr's say. Not ALL dr's are right...they all have their own opinions. Amen....whew!:clap2:

This post was intended to show people a diff way to make lasagna without the noodles.... I know im not the only potato lover in the group. I think what it boils down to is that EVERYONE has their OWN idea of what will work for them. I dont know what works for me unless i try it. What i do know is that, if i dont eat SOMETHING that satisfies my cravings of what most of us big people call "big/fattening" food then regardless of my band or not i feel like i have not eaten anything and then eventually that will eat at me all day until i binge eat.....its safer for me to have one meal a day that has SOME of the foods i crave involved wether it be cheese or potato....in small quanities it will not hurt me. It would hurt me however, if i starved myself from my cravings and then finally gave into it and gorged myself as much as i could..... Im not on a diet....im on a life change. It is not reality to assume I will not eat things that are a little fattening or has some carbs in it. Thats just my take on things.

Good to hear from you. I think life is all about hard times. If we didnt have these problems or make mistakes we wouldnt be human right? It's the fact that we recognize when we make the mistakes....YOU have the motivation IN you it just has to be pushed out..... I think by comming here and letting us know it is DEFINATELY a good thing. In all rehab places...ADMITTING is the first step...right? Im here if you need me. I will help motivate ya....I have been working my butt off...trying my best to control my portions AND i been working out daily. Im not losing anything. Thats discouraging to me. It makes me sad. Seems like my almost 3 weeks of work has done nothing for me. (Except hurt me feet) we will stick together and get through the hard times. Im certainly not real religous but some said something to me one time that makes sense.... GOD DOESN'T GIVE US ANYTHING WE CANT HANDLE.:clap2: I believe that....and i use that saying everyday when something hard comes my way.

Things are going ok. I been kind of down lately because my scale is not moving......i been busint my butt on the treadmill and watching my food intake...but i STILL havnt lost much at all.... Check out my Journal...i been keeping some longs of my food and exercise on there. I dont know what im doing wrong. I am not fully restricted yet so maybe thats whats causing problems.

I had thought the same thing....

I went to SEMO...I know the drive well...LOL... Thank you for your words of encouragement...I am really trying hard THIS time....ive been true to myself for a little over 2 weeks now...LONGER THAN I EVER HAVE....so maybe THIS TIME it will be in my favor.

Wow you should be a writer. I really enjoy reading your journal. You have a good grasp on life. Good luck in your journey. I will be following your journal. I am on a rough road....banded for 2 years and cheated myself out of the pure gold i could have had...(weightloss).....i am not working my AZZ off literally...to make life what it needs to be. Good luck!

4/25/07 Whew….totally out of breathe right now while im typing this. I did good today….im proud of myself. Today’s Meals: Breakfast: Total Cereal/Skim Milk 150 Cals Lunch: A serving size og Spaghetti O’s. (not the healthiest…but I was not going to waste what my daughter did not eat) About 240 Cals total for that meal. Snack- A piece of watermelon….literally just a piece…(wasn’t real hungry) A 25g Protein shake…..worth about 175 cals after you add the skim milk Dinner- A chicken thigh in shake n bake…..and some corn. About 450 cals total) Snack before my 8pm cut off….. I had ONE fudgecicle….its NO SUGAR ADDED and only has 45 cals…MMMMMMMMM YUM I also had some baked cheetos…..they are lower cal…..but I shouldn’t have had them….so to make up for themi turned on some music and just did the electric slide with my 3 yr old to Sexy Back by JT. LOL….thats why im outta breathe…. I had to burn some extra cals…. Today’s Exercise I worked out around 1pm today…did 27 minutes on the treadmill….about ¾ a mile…I was really lagging so I went a little slower….. My friend of 18 years Nick came over and he did the bowflex and I walked another 15 minutes……YAY! So I made my mile mark today after all. So today my cals came in between 1200-1500 which im fine with. I was able to eat foods I liked and keep the cals low…… I know it seems like I had a lot of junk in my meals today but I think compared to what I used to eat and the lack of exercise ive had….i think I am doing great…and dang it…im going to give myself a pat on my back. Today I realized that this is going to the longest journey of my life. Probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I also realized that after reading some of the posts about people having problems with their band even years after they have had it scares me. It makes me realize that I need to lose the weight while I can. I need to seize this moment and take it for all its worth because I never know when this band could be taken from me. I could wake up one morning and BAM it has to be removed. I need to get everything I can out of it first. I am going for a fill to give me REAL restriction (because I don’t have much) on May 8th. THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO LIVE FOR….. MY FAMILY!!!!! I love them and I will succeed for them and for my own well being!!! Tata for now! Krystal

4/25/07 Whew….totally out of breathe right now while im typing this. I did good today….im proud of myself. Today’s Meals: Breakfast: Total Cereal/Skim Milk 150 Cals Lunch: A serving size og Spaghetti O’s. (not the healthiest…but I was not going to waste what my daughter did not eat) About 240 Cals total for that meal. Snack- A piece of watermelon….literally just a piece…(wasn’t real hungry) A 25g protein shake…..worth about 175 cals after you add the skim milk Dinner- A chicken thigh in shake n bake…..and some corn. About 450 cals total) Snack before my 8pm cut off….. I had ONE fudgecicle….its NO SUGAR ADDED and only has 45 cals…MMMMMMMMM YUM I also had some baked cheetos…..they are lower cal…..but I shouldn’t have had them….so to make up for themi turned on some music and just did the electric slide with my 3 yr old to Sexy Back by JT. LOL….thats why im outta breathe…. I had to burn some extra cals…. Today’s Exercise I worked out around 1pm today…did 27 minutes on the treadmill….about ¾ a mile…I was really lagging so I went a little slower….. My friend of 18 years Nick came over and he did the bowflex and I walked another 15 minutes……YAY! So I made my mile mark today after all. So today my cals came in between 1200-1500 which im fine with. I was able to eat foods I liked and keep the cals low…… I know it seems like I had a lot of junk in my meals today but I think compared to what I used to eat and the lack of exercise ive had….i think I am doing great…and dang it…im going to give myself a pat on my back. Today I realized that this is going to the longest journey of my life. Probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I also realized that after reading some of the posts about people having problems with their band even years after they have had it scares me. It makes me realize that I need to lose the weight while I can. I need to seize this moment and take it for all its worth because I never know when this band could be taken from me. I could wake up one morning and BAM it has to be removed. I need to get everything I can out of it first. I am going for a fill to give me REAL restriction (because I don’t have much) on May 8th. THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO LIVE FOR….. MY FAMILY!!!!! I love them and I will succeed for them and for my own well being!!! Tata for now! Krystal