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As of April 8th I have decided to change my life! This is my journey!

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Today is a good day!

4/25/07 Whew….totally out of breathe right now while im typing this. I did good today….im proud of myself. Today’s Meals: Breakfast: Total Cereal/Skim Milk 150 Cals Lunch: A serving size og Spaghetti O’s. (not the healthiest…but I was not going to waste what my daughter did not eat) About 240 Cals total for that meal. Snack- A piece of watermelon….literally just a piece…(wasn’t real hungry) A 25g protein shake…..worth about 175 cals after you add the skim milk Dinner- A chicken thigh in shake n bake…..and some corn. About 450 cals total) Snack before my 8pm cut off….. I had ONE fudgecicle….its NO SUGAR ADDED and only has 45 cals…MMMMMMMMM YUM I also had some baked cheetos…..they are lower cal…..but I shouldn’t have had them….so to make up for themi turned on some music and just did the electric slide with my 3 yr old to Sexy Back by JT. LOL….thats why im outta breathe…. I had to burn some extra cals…. Today’s Exercise I worked out around 1pm today…did 27 minutes on the treadmill….about ¾ a mile…I was really lagging so I went a little slower….. My friend of 18 years Nick came over and he did the bowflex and I walked another 15 minutes……YAY! So I made my mile mark today after all. So today my cals came in between 1200-1500 which im fine with. I was able to eat foods I liked and keep the cals low…… I know it seems like I had a lot of junk in my meals today but I think compared to what I used to eat and the lack of exercise ive had….i think I am doing great…and dang it…im going to give myself a pat on my back. Today I realized that this is going to the longest journey of my life. Probably one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. I also realized that after reading some of the posts about people having problems with their band even years after they have had it scares me. It makes me realize that I need to lose the weight while I can. I need to seize this moment and take it for all its worth because I never know when this band could be taken from me. I could wake up one morning and BAM it has to be removed. I need to get everything I can out of it first. I am going for a fill to give me REAL restriction (because I don’t have much) on May 8th. THIS IS WHAT I HAVE TO LIVE FOR….. MY FAMILY!!!!! I love them and I will succeed for them and for my own well being!!! Tata for now! Krystal
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4/20/07 Better Day

4/20/07 Today was better than most days. I woke up and started the day off with a bowl (3/4 cup) of Total like yesterday. I had some butterball turkey with a piece of Colby cheese on it for lunch…it was ok…but didn’t do much for me. For lunch I had 5 Chicken Nuggets…280 Calories for all 5. Not bad when it fills me up….(I still need another fill) Plus they taste really good. I walked 30minutes/1 mile. Then took a good nap! LOL So this evening I did not want to sit at home while my husband was at work so I decided I should go to the mall and let my daughter play on the playground. Before we went I checked the cals on some of the fast food places in the food court because I knew we were going to end up eating there. I went to SONIC and ordered a KIDS Cheese Burger PLAIN and took off the bun…just ate the burger and cheese…and ate like 6 tator tots. Not bad. I used to order a Double Cheese w/mayo, Large Tots, Mozz Sticks, and Popcorn Chicken…I would always order a lot and take the rest home to eat…NOT TODAY!!! Cool part about this too is that I saved SOOOO much money. My daughter had the same thing as me and our total for TWO kid meals was $4.36. NOT BAD!!! So after eating at the mall I walked the mall a couple of times and let my daughter play in the kids play area too. So im sure I did plenty of walking today. I went into a GNC and was talking to a guy about protein and he says I should DEFINITELY be having a high protein diet. I keep going back and forth with this. Dr. says to get it through food. Friends say through food. Some bandsters say have a shake too…and Dr. and Hubby says NO SHAKE. The guy who worked at GNC is a personal trainer and says he suggests a high protein diet to all his clients. He says “What harm can a protein shake do you?” True right? I drink a cholcolate Isopure that has 110 cal per serving and 25g of protein. Should I or shouldn’t I. I keep getting a lot of mixed reviews on this but then I keep coming back to what the Dr. said about it. I dunno. I just want to lose some weight. I’m working my but off but getting a very slow response. ANY SUGGESTIONS? Im posting this in the Foods section because I really need some advice on this. Ok im off to watch a movie and relax…I’ve had a long night. How is everyone else doing on their working out?
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4/19/07 My LEGS ARE TINGLING!

4/19/07 Goodness!!! My legs are tingliing!! So today I tried to make up for the past two days on eating. I think I might have eaten more than I should have tho. For breakfast I had 1/2 cup Total Cereal with 1 cup of skim milk. ( i use the milk left over to take my medication)   For lunch I had 1 1/2 tacos from Taco Bell. Just meat and cheese only. My hubby and I were out and he wanted TB real bad....so i went and ordered a kids 2 taco meal. Gave my daughter one taco and one for me. She ate half her taco and i ate her other half. I also had a pintos and cheese. I probably consumed 400 calories in one sitting but i made up for it at dinner time.   For dinner I made a pork chop with my all fave SHAKE N BAKE...lol...I ate 3 bites of that.....yum......Then i attempted something that really shouldnt EVER be done again...   I tried to eat a baked potatoe with all my FAT FREE stuff..... NOTE TO SELF: NEVER put FAT FREE butter, FAT FREE sour cream, and cheese on a baked potatoe.....YUCK....i took 2 bites and it all went straight into the trash...i said screw this....id rather eat smaller portions and enjoy it than eat yucky fat free stuff that makes me want to puke when it touches my mouth....   At least I tried right?   So I tried to clean up the kitchen today and make a concious effort to clean up the house but i been DRAGGING all day. I kept telling myself I need to workout......FINALLY at 730 i said thats it go do it...and i did...   Why is it that lately...(past 4-5 days) my body is struggling to walk 30 minutes on a treadmill? I been trying my best to keep going. I turned on a movie and I been trying to get into one while i walk and for some reason after 10 minutes im extremely tired and feel like i cant go on. Well it was hard...but i made it 30 minutes....1 mile....not much to some of you...but to me it was extremely hard. My legs were tingling and everything...whats with that?   Im hoping my hard work Im putting into this really pays off. I think I will have a fat free no sugar added fudgcicle tonight....man....what a day.   So is it bad if i just sit on my butt the rest of the night? I guess I feel being 360 lbs right now, it would be asking a lot of me to do more than what im currently doing....am i wrong? Seriously.....do you guys think i should be pushing myself harder? I dunno   OK......im gonna go watch "Notes on a Scandal" I rented it today.....its break time.... (funny when i say its break time i end up sitting here for at least another 30 minutes)   Tata for now!
Krystal

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4/18/07 Entry

4/18/07 Today I got up and decided I was going to have some eggs.....with my FAT FREE butter and a little shredded cheese. Was feeling great......then my sister wooped my butt into shape.   She introduced me to some "circuit training" as she called it. 10 minutes of walking.....followed by some weight exercises....followed by 10 minutes of walking......more weight exercises....and then finally 10 more minutes of walking.....(and then cool down exercises)   I never realized how much this breaks up the work out. It really make all of it go faster(in a weird way)....instead doing 3 different sets of reps all together you can take breaks by walking....and getting the heart rate up and down like that is good....(or so i been told)   So we made PULLED PORK today.....did it in a slow cooker...mmmmmm....NOT....   Didnt care for it much....for some reason i felt guilty eating it....it wasnt BAD for me.....but it just seemed not right....besides....I like chicken and beef better.   My theme for todays journal is GETS HARDER BY THE MINUTE.....why?   Every freaking minute i do on that treadmill is sooooo hard for me. I didnt realize how bad I really am until i started trying to do a steady 30 minutes on the treadmill each day.....it's like my body says i need it but my legs cant keep up. It is what has in the past made me quit......but not anymore...   Im pushing myself as much as i can. Im trying to at least do 30minutes a day......   NO MORE EXCUSES....   Today I parked in the back of the parking lot on purpose.....that was a change...   I bought new shoes today as well.....new balance......my $20 walmart shoes were not cutting it on the treadmill. (soon i shouldnt need wide width anymore)   My journals are very random....not always grammatically correct or spell checked....but i try to mention important ports of my day.   OK...Next subject....... COOKBOOKS I went to Target today as well as walmart. I know these places are not the best sources for cookbooks but i am sooooooo frustruated with the selections i find anywhere.   I am a really picky eater. I like really simple meals. I dont like all the BS on my food and basically if there was a good way to describe my pickyness it would be like a 5yr old with a dab of adult every once in awhile. Please tell me Im not the only one here...   I try and force myself to eat better foods and different foods...but i was raised on junk...   Example of whats in my kitchen (BEFORE BAND) Ravioli (toasted and baked) Pizza Chicken Nuggets (these will never make it out of my fridge) Spaghetti Meatballs Mac & Cheese Ramen Noodles Burgers (pre-cooked for microwave) Cheese (just about every kind) Mayo (miricle whip light) Hot Dogs   This is just a sample.....and now ive replaced alot with the following:   Yogart Tuna Fat Free Butter Skim Milk Grapes Apples Turkey Chicken breasts pork chops BAKED Lay's grean beans peas potatoes Heres my point.....i need more ideas geared toward the picky eater. I will try things that are not so complex.....really simple meals...like easy quick to make things.....that SHAKE N BAKE I made the other night is a good exaple....very simple and 20 min to make. Easy. Simple. Tastes good. Doesnt have a lot of junk on it.   Every cookbook I open up has some weird dish made with all kinds of what i call "nasty" food.   HELP!!!!   Ok im going to bed ...enough of my rants and raves...thanks to anyone who had enough patiance to read my post.   Im pushing forward........keep it up guys!!!
Krystal

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LONG DAY TODAY.......LEARNED HOW TO SHOP

So today my sister came in from Kansas City so she could teach me some things about cooking. We took my daughter to the park with our puppy and tried to do some walking. I didnt get very far because the puppy pooped out before I did.   I realized quickly that all the mothers up at the park gave me really bad looks. I was trying to walk fast and I ended up getting all red faced and sweaty...HOW EMBARRASSING.....I would walk in circles around the playground keeping my eye on my daughter......and i literally saw a mom whisper to one of her friends and her friend looked up right at me.....WTF!!!! Im walking aren't I!!?!?!?!   So after the Park we came back to the house and dug ourselves into a massive collection of cookbooks my sister brought along.   O-M-G IM SUCH A PICKY EATER!!!!! So my sister and I came up with some dinner ideas and good snacks that I could eat to keep on PLAN!   She wrote me a list of items to get from the grocery store and sent me by myself to the store. I went in....looking stupid as can be (b/c this time i was not going straight to the freezer section) and started looking for the random items.....chicken (boneless & skinless) who knew? Also....some TUNA and make sure its IN WATER......i grabbed some in oil on accident.....didnt think there was much difference...OOPS....   Items on my list included:   Bread (i did white...i cant stand wheat) Cereal (high fiber) I ended up with Total and Special K Bananas Yogart Apples FAT FREE Sour Cream (yuck.....but we all have to make sacrifices) Skim Milk (for my cereal & protein shake) Salad (not for me!!! I HATE SALAD.....it was for my hubby) Boneless/Skinless Chicken (I got breasts and thighs) Green Beans Beef Broth Pork Shoulder Roast (pulled pork) Veg oil Lemon Pepper Eggs OK GET THIS.......they have a I CANT BELIEVE ITS NOT BUTTER.......drumroll please......FAT FREE Turkey (lunch meat) Potatoes....(scalloped) Shake N Bake (these are amazingly ok to eat...not bad on cals or carbs)     So i had a pretty big list. I was pretty frustruated.....picking which kind out and what to get is so hard. They don't teach that in school.   We are having shake n bake chicken breast and thighs....and scalloped potatoes for dinner....NO BREAD ROLLS.....I think I will have milk tonight......i need something other than WATER   So hopefully I get back on my walking on the treadmill tomorrow...   OH OH OH OH.....AND I FORGOT TO SAY.....   When I got up this morning and put on my pair of capris the were LOOSE!!!! These are button up and have been tight for the past year. They are the kind that have to stretch a bit because they are so tight and they actually hurt my waste because they are so tight....   WELL NOT TODAY!!!!!!!   IM ANXIOUS TO SEE THE WEIGHTLOSS ON MAY 8TH.....   OK OVEN IS BEEPING......TATA FOR NOW :hungry:
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ROUGH EXERCISE DAY

So I didnt eat ALL that great yesterday.......i didnt do too bad...but i still didnt do that great.   :think Today I started off good but I had alot going on. I ended up doing alot around the house and also some homework for school. When I went down in the den to walk I was not wanting to walk at all.....I got on, set the timer for 30 min and started walking......then my legs were burning and i was ready to stop after 5 minutes!!! WHAT HAPPENED?   I had no umpff to walk....i pushed myself to get to 15min .52 miles. so only a half mile today....better than nothing i suppose.   I dont know what happened or why im so tired. I think it is because I didnt do it this morning. By mid day i was already tired.....so maybe ill try and do 15 more minutes tonight when i get home.   ugh:angry   I hope it isnt a struggle everyday like this...i was doing so good last week.   Dear God Please give me the strength to move on and push forward. Give me the will to do good for my body and cherish what i have done so far......and PLEASE God keep me away from that stupid candy my daughter got for Easter! A-MEN
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Sunday Morning Exercise FUN!

Whew! That was rough!! I just did 30 minutes on the treadmill.......jeeze...the last 10 minutes are the worst. Takes everything in me to keep going. I tried not even looking at the timer but when i did glance at it i was like...OMG i have like 7 more minutes....it lingered........whew I made it thought.....before in the past i would have said there was no way.....or i would have stopped at 15 minutes.......i want to at the very least be able to hit my 30 minute or 1 mile mark which ever comes first. walking 2mph is actually pretty steady and breaks me into a sweat....but in the beginning i try to do 2.4mph and then slowly reduce it down. My goal when i am down 75 or more lbs is 3-4mph. My hubby can run 4mph and has no problem. I would probably croke if i even tried that. Hopefully im conditioning my heart and at the very least making myself healthier! Lets see iF i can walk tonight.......I might just take a break tonight.....but who knows....im gonna jump in the shower and see what energy that treadmill just brought me.   Who else has worked out today? Are you all in this with me.....post your exercise routine for today!!!!!
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Todays adventure.......

4/14/06 9:40pm   Today I realized that yesterday, although i walked a lot I was slightly bad in my eating. I had a few bunny ears...(candy from easter) if you know what i mean. After posting my story on LBT I realized that it is so important to stay true to everyone and myself. I realized that if I don't take the extra step then i will not succeed. Today I ate better. One of the LBT girls called me and had words of inspiration....THANK YOU!!!! Feels good to know someone is here and is listening to me. Exercise: I walked this morning while my husband was working out on his new bowflex and I turned on the first season of Married with Children......I noticed it is alot easier to have something that keeps your mind off of the actual walking....AMEN... I walked 30 minutes and 1 FULL mile!!!! This morning. I decided this evening since i had sat around for most the day after this morning that I would walk some more....so i turned Married with children back on and started to it.....ended up walking 21 Minutes and .64 miles. A little over a mile and half today is a pretty big step. Im really proud of myself...and such little time it takes to do.....literally just takes a few minutes before you walk and the time you walk. I used to make excuses for going to my den to get on the treadmill. "Oh not today, I'll do it tomorrow" Somehow tomorrow never came. Now ive FORCED myself to do it 2 times a day....amazing. It's kind of weird how i get excited about posting my progress for all to see...maybe it's because I feel like I really need the attention....BUT DONT WE ALL DESERVE THAT LIL BIT OF ATTENTION? At my weight I am definately starved of attention. I do not get out much and when I do it's usually something quick. I have been embarrassed of my weight for over 3 years now. Thank God I have a husband that has stood by me through all of this. It really says something that he married me at my heaviest weight. Ok....im tired now...:notagree .....ready to get some sleep....my husband hid the scale on me because he knows the first thing i'll think about in the morning is if i had any weight change.... Im going to focus on the dress sizes I drop and not my weight...my goal dress size i would be totally content at would be a 16. Good night everyone! Happy exercising!!! Krystal
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My pre-op and post-op failure

I had always been big...all through school..always size 16+....senior year 2001 i was a good size 22....2003 i was a size 24 and by 2005 i was a size 32......I was always made fun of.....i gained almost 100 pounds in 3 years from being on the depo shot(birth control)so i got off of that...... and then getting pregnant. By 2005 I was at my worst.   I walked into the Dr's office thinking I was only 360 back in April of 2005. When I got on the scale it read 380...I almost died. I cried in his office because I was so ashamed. Ashamed over 20lbs!!!! I had researched the band and felt because I had a daughter it would be the safest surgery for me. I am only 24 and was 22 at the time. I thought this was going to be the FIX.....the thing to change my life. I thought that there was no way anyone or anything could stop me from losing weight after I had surgery.   I went through all the tests....and got all the required medical paperwork and convinced some family members to pitch in for my surgery. I set the date and started my pre-op diet!   From that point on I should have known I was going to be a mess. I was supposed to be on a liquid diet for 2 weeks because my liver needed to shrink for surgery. So i ate everything they told me to for the first 3 days and BAM....the feeling set in.....I WANTED AN ULTIMATE CHEESEBURGER FROM JACK N THE BOX AND I WANTED IT NOW! I couldn't get it off my mind....i was thinking about it allllllll day.....i went to bed thinking about it...and the next morning i went and got one. I figured...what could ONE double cheese burger with double cheese and mayo possibly do......well...it did nothing to the surgery process but it really broke the frame of mind. Before the 2 weeks was up i had eatin 2 not one but TWO ultimate cheeseburgers and a few chicken nuggets. Why? Why couldn't I just do the PRE SURGERY diet?   June 8th 2005------So surgery day came....and went.....all went well no complications.....i was on soft food in the beginning and I started to eat Eggs for breakfast....but my eggs HAD to have cheese and butter in them....HELLO!!! What was I thinking.....I remember getting my first fill and at this point I had almost lost 40lbs. 20pre-op and 20 post-op. It was amazing.......   About 3 months out(2 months after my 1st fill) I started to become familiar with my band and how much I could and could not eat. I realized that when i would eat too much, i drank a little bit, and it would make the food pass and then i would feel sooooo much better. I never exercised...keep in mind...(maybe got into the pool like 10 times the whole summer) and i was preparing for my wedding which was September 17th 2005. I was so stressed because my weightloss had pretty much STOPPED......I was craving foods like never before and started to eat and drink at the same time...BIG MISTAKE......i was eating at least double what I should have. So I went and had ANOTHER fill. This slowed me down...but still I was not losing ANY weight. I remember eating my first fried chicken after my fill and like trying to manipulate my band into letting me eat more by taking one bite and then drinking....it was the worst thing in the world i could have EVER done.   A year after my band was put in I was only 20lbs total lost (which means i gained 20 back) and I was so angry...I promised myself I was going to try and fix things and make it better....So much had happened that year....2006....we bought a house, my husbands dad died of cancer, my husband was leaving for weeks at a time for work...and i was home ALONE with my daughter. I had no energy to keep the house clean(and i still dont) but i would sit and mope.....and EAT.....I would make excuses to people who asked me WHY i hadn't lost any weight. I told them all that it was a slow process and that i had lost 40 pounds(lied to them).   This year, Jan 2007...I was just sitting at dinner with my husband and looked down and noticed i had a 12oz strip steak, baked potato loaded....and mashed potatos loaded on my plate. I ate all of it. my band was NOT going to stop me. I also ate bread before that.......and drank sweat tea....   in Feb07 I was online playing around and saw an ad for a weightloss show. Primetime...suppose to be JUST like the Biggest Loser....I thought...hmmmm I'll just fill out the app for shits and giggles.....well they responded and wanted me to send them a tape....so i did.   Then in march they had me get my band completely UNFILLED and then flew me out to LA and put me through med tests and interviews,THEY BOUGHT ME 2 PLANE SEATS because i was too big to fit in the plane chairs on my own....pretty sad huh,(cant say much more because they made me sign all kinds of disclosures) They told me it was a show that will be on ABC and told me i would be away from my family for 10 weeks. I thought....this is the chance i have been waiting for.   They made me think i was going....for weeks after the interview I was getting called and asked follow up questions and told i was in the top 4....then on March 31 i was called and told the network did not choose me. I was DEVISTATED.............like someone should have just shot me right there. I was so upset...i cried the whole way home(we were out to eat of course) and my husband looked at me and said...why dont you just do it on your own?   Ummmmm DUH right...? So about a week went by and I had done a real examination of what i have done wrong and how i have basically cheated myself out of my life! On Easter i saw my family and noticed how no one said i looked good anymore...that's because i didnt.....i looked worse...heavy as can be....and that night i sent an email to my family and decide that enough is enough.   Im exercising daily...NO EXCUSES...i posted before/after pictures on my walls in my house of other people who have had the band. I put sayings all over the house saying "whats ur excuse now" and i told my husband that enough is enough. So we decided to start our weightloss exercise on the 9th.....on the 10th I went and had my band RE-filled and since the 10th I have lost 10lbs......unbelievable huh!!!   So hopefully all this will inspire SOMEONE before it happens to them. Let my "GAIN" be your "LOSS".   Good luck everyone! Krystal
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10lbs in 4 days!!!

SATURDAY 4/14/07 So this morning I woke up and thought.....hmmmm...maybe every Saturday or every other saturday i'll weigh myself. So I pulled out the DUSTY scale and got on....it said 360............NO WAY...........so I did it again....and again.....and again..... ok at this point i decided to get my DH out of bed and weigh him....he is consistantly 230-235 and i weighed my 2 1/2 yr old who came in at 30.4.....which is normal too....so i must have really lost 10llbs in 4 days!!! HOW COOL IS THAT!!!! THIS IS ACTUALLY THE FIRST TIME IVE MADE IT A POINT TO WORK OUT....AND IM GETTING REALLY EXCITED!!!! 10LBS A WEEK IN THE FIRST COUPLE WEEKS WOULD BE GREAT.....I HAVE A LOT OF WEIGHT TO LOSE...SO ITS DEFINATELY POSSIBLE......   YAY ME!!!!!:clap2:
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30min before bed

Ok....So its 915pm my time and i decided i was definately going to try and walk more tonight. This is more than Ive ever walked on the treadmill in one day...YAY me!   I got on the treadmill and walked for 20min and then the lil string popped off and the treadmill did an emergency stop...i was like "oh no you dont! im going 10 more minutes!" So i did....   So its been 1 mile and and 30 minutes later.....and i feel so good....the sucky part is that i keep thinking to myself..."how long will this last?" GAWD....I hope I can keep going....   Im finding it difficult to imagine myself thin...since Ive been big for so long...im also finding it difficult to actually keep up with a exercise routine...but hopefully my husbands will to get buff will be enough motivation for me to go down there with him.   So total today i walked 55 minutes and 1.93 miles.....that is like a HUGE milestone....   I will definately keep everyone updated either everyother day...or daily...who knows...   its funny how i assume people are reading this...when chances are no one is reading this.....but humor me!   Krystal
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Progress in my first week.

Today is FRIDAY the April 13, 2007 Although I can see myself purposely try and sabbatage my body, I am aware of it now and I am taking the steps to prevent any and all BS that comes into my mind. The first two days were rough. My husband and I set up the Bowflex we bought for him and I. We had our "Final Meal" Monday night.......the funny thing about this final meal is that....ive had a bazillion final meals.....but for some reason this one was different. I didnt go "all out". I still had steak dinner...and I still ate the mashed potatoes with EVERYTHING on them.....but it was different....i didnt finish it all. My band was unfilled about 4 weeks ago because of personal reasons....i was required to get it unfilled. So for the past 4 weeks I had basically been eating like a pig. I never really lost weight from the band...but i cheated the system. I drank when I ate and I only had 2 fills the entire time I have been banded...which is not a good thing. On Tuesday I went to my Dr. and had my lapband refilled. I told him this was it....I was really going to do it....Im sure he has heard this all before so in a sense I felt really stupid....2 years have gone by and I have nothing to show for it.....same clothes...same size....same miserable self. I had started a job in September 06 and it was a work from home job. A DREAM JOB FOR A FAT GIRL. I was making $500 a week to answer the phone lines as a customer service rep. The job was completely legit and was great....except I sat at my computer for HOURS on end. The girl I worked with was absolutely nuts! She was the owners sister and she was 50+ and thought she knew everything...NOT. After making a new discovery in my life that my health was #1 and my job was making me SICK that B%$#H e-mailed me a nasty lwork re-lated email for the last time. I quit immediately putting her and her sister(the owner) in a nasty spot with no one to cover my shifts. SERVES THEM RIGHT! I'm tired of people taking over my life and making me miserable....but then I thought...thats exactly what I have been doing for YEARS!! :clap2: DUH So i'm sitting here thinking to myself....what can I do to make sure I don't for lack of better terms (fall off the wagon) and I remembered lapbandtalk.com. I am going to try and stick to this...hopefully a year from now I will have an entire journal and tons a weight down!   Today I walked 25 min and .93 miles....which is a huge leap from yesterday...(at least to me it is)   Yesterday i walked 20 min .64 miles   I broke a sweat both days...YIPPEE (kyle(my husband) is working out with me...so this makes it a lot easier)   Right now im eating liquid things(because my band was just filled)....i was told by my lapband dr that i should NOT be drinking protein shakes because they are "empty" calories. So i've ditched that idea   I have been told to eat 5-6 meals a day......that's hard for me because my meal selection is slim....any ideas? Right now it has to be soft foods but in a couple of days i can go back to normal.   Just an update!   I will be shooting for 25-30 minutes tomorrow...and possible start holding some weights while i walk...   Thanks for all the encouragement!!!   Kyle says i should be walking at night tonight.....so maybe i will hop on for 15 min......   tata for now Krystal
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The e-mail I sent all my friends and family.

:help: This is the email I sent all my friends and family the day I decided that ENOUGH IS ENOUGH   I need support from my family around me. Dated 4/8/07 This is what it said: Tomorrow is the day I have decide to start the rest of my life.   All of you know I am overweight...um DUH ALL OR MOST OF YOU KNOW I HAD WEIGHT LOSS SURGERY ALMOST 2 YRS AGO...AND I HAVE CHEATED MYSELF.....................................THIS IS EMBARRASSING......BUT I HAVE TOTALLY F'D UP(FOR LACK OF BETTER TERMS)   FROM THIS POINT FORWARD I AM ASKING ALL OF YOU TO TAKE A STAND FOR MY ACTIONS....MEANING...     DO NOT LET ME PUT ONE MORE ONCE OF FAST FOOD IN MY MOUTH   IF YOU SEE ME EATING ANYTHING I SHOULDNT BE....MAKE IT LOUD AND OBVIOUS TO EVERYONE AROUND ME THAT MY BIG ASS SHOULD NOT BE EATING THAT...   ASK ME IF I WORKED OUT TODAY.....(I HATE THIS QUESTION MORE THAN ANYTHING.....IT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL GOOD TO BE ABLE TO TELL SOMEONE YES)   IF I GET AN ATTITUDE WITH YOU....TELL ME TO LOOK IN THE MIRROR.......   IM NOT KIDDING....I KNOW I HAVE GOTTON AWAY WITH CHOMPIN ON SOME MAJOR STEAK DINNERS IN FRONT OF ALL MY FRIENDS AND THEY HAVE KEPT QUIET....   DONT KEEP QUIET ANYMORE...PLEASE DONT   I KNOW IT IS MY FAULT FOR WHERE I AM TODAY.....FOR ME TO FIX THIS I NEED SOME ENCOURAGEMENT...   KYLE IS STANDING BEHIND ME 100% AND WILL ENFORCE THE HOUSE FOOD RULES...   EVERYONE ELSE NEEDS TO BE ON MY ASS LIKE NEVER BEFORE....   THIS IS NOT A JOKE....MY RECENT EMOTIONAL EXAM OF MYSELF OVER THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS HAS MADE ME THINK AND I WANT SOOOOOOO MUCH MORE OUT OF LIFE.   SERIOUSLY.....IF I SLIP AND TALK MYSELF INTO EATING SOMETHING THAT YOU KNOW IS A NONO... TAKE THAT SHIT OUT OF MY HANDS AND TOSS IT IN THE TRASH...I GIVE U PERMISSION...   DO NOT ASK ME OUT TO DINNER...   ASK ME TO WORK OUT   I LOVE ALL OF YOU AND IF YOU LOVE ME BACK YOU WILL HELP ME   THIS IS EXTREMELY EMBARRASSING AND I AM REALLY STEPPING OUT ON A LINE TO ASK THIS OF EVERYONE I KNOW....EVEN IF I DONT SEE YOU OFTEN..   THANKS KRYSTAL
Krystal

Krystal

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