Adrienne21

I need to get in tune with my band. I suddenly had some type of epiphany. I think since I have been stressed for the last week that I have been having head hunger. I just ate a yogurt and now am getting little rumbles in my stomach. I am concluding that I should wait until I feel the rumbles in my stomach to eat that way I will know for sure if I am actually hungry or if it is just my head playing tricks on me. I can do that or simply eat and snack when I am hungry but I don't want to go over my caloric intake. I feel really bad because I didn't eat much today and the fact that I am still up at this hour and hungry is bad. I really should go to sleep. I know I will have to talk to my doctor about this on the 12th of this month. today I am going hardcore on my exercising. I forgot to do some yesterday. I have to pull myself together. I've made it this far and I have a long way to go.

I made the choice to stay overnight. It was really a good choice because it gave them time to run extra test and to do a screening just to make sure everything was ok and that I could tolerate liquids the following day. I do not think I would have wanted to go home right after surgery. But that's just me. As far as in fills, that solely depends on you. Some people do not need fills in order to be in the green zone. (The lucky people) Other people get them between 4-6 weeks. you need to allow your body the opportunity to adjust to the fills. I suggest if you are still not satisfied on 1 cup of food, 3 times a day for 3-4 hours to schedule and appointment. These are also good questions to ask your doctor since they will be the ones to operate on you.

So it literally has been two months since I have been banded. I know I haven't been exercising regularly and I take full accountability for it. I have been so stressed and busy with handling my personal affairs. I did have a cigarette and a couple drinks, which means I skipped two meals in two days to have those drinks. I know, i know... empty calories and sugar.. Those were my down moments but other than that I have not eaten anything bad. I do feel like if I get another fill I will not feel like I need to eat more than 1 cup of food. Even though I am eating 1000-1200 My portions are still bigger than normal. I really don't want to hurt my band or myself. Yesterday was the first time I have exercised in a couple days. I am low on energy and I think there might be a slight case of laziness. Hopefully in three days I will be back at another gym but for now I will make more time to get my daily exercise in. I would also like to say that I have been candy sober for 7 months. I can tell that the weight is coming off REALLY slow but I can tell the difference. I just want this to be a success and in order for that to happen I had to take accountability for my actions and remind myself that I have come far. I just have to keep on trucking.

I didn't fall off of my diet but I have been feeling a little sad bc I have been stressed and I have been skipping meals. I also haven't worked out yet due to my crazy hours and then a couple excuses and I take full responsibility for that. I finally have my step dad and my sister on board with dieting and wanting to work out. So I have a small support system. The only thing is that they don't want to start until september or october. It would be nice if I knew someone who lived in the same area to have as a workout buddy and support system. I mean this site is pretty awesome, but to have someone in person who understands what it is like being banded and to share experiences. on the other hand, I have lost another 2lbs. which is right on point with how many I am suppose to be loosing. so, I guess a yay is in order. idk my sister was looking at me and told me it looked like I had fake abs drawn on my stomach. lol I think by next year I am hoping to be 100lbs lighter. refocus and get on track. no more misbehaving(even though I haven't eaten anything bad).. This definitely not as easy as i thought it would be and my family isn't exactly being as supportive as I need them to be. So it makes it seem like I am all alone in this journey to weight loss. oh well, venting time is over and now it's time to go make my meals for the day.

the two bandages covered the two bruises and where she stuck me twice. I just didnt show the pic with the bruises because It had a bit of my boob poking through. its looking better.

@ angemc, I was eating 1200 cals but feeling slightly hungry quicker. 2-3 hours after depending on what i ate. I felt like i needed a fill because I was able to eat a full chicken breast and half a cup of veggies and still felt like I could eat more. but I am still learning the difference of being full and being satisfied because I associate being full with being satisfied. When I feel like its in my throat I just take two sips of water. wait five minutes and then try again. @ sol, HIIII SOOOLLLL. lol The needle was like four to five inches long. she was literally jabbing the heck out of me. I was laying down at first and then When I asked her to stop she had me stand up. I still have a little soreness to that area but it is tolerable. she is the only person who administers the shots.

I had my first fill today and it wasn't fun. I have two bruises and two bandages over my port. I had to get them standing up. I am going to try to work with the fill i received so that I can stay away from being prodded with that big darn needle. I was livid when I saw that I only lost 3.2 pounds but now that I think about it. I dont feel bad about it. I look great in my old clothes and I can go down stairs without sweating. I was told to stop with the bread, rice and pasta.. I had my hand slapped for that one. I was also told to exercise five days a week for at least an hour. so starting next week that is my new goal.

That's what I think this site is about. Helping other by telling our personal experiences with the band. Everyone is different but sometimes it can be helpful.

Okay, here are a few things I want to do once I reach my weight goal. wear a bikini. walk in high heels comfortably. do a marathon run/walk for a charity. to be able to run around and play with my little sister without being out of breath or lack of energy. be more confident. to stop hiding behind my laptop and enjoy life. to look and the mirror and be happy with what I see. to go to my high school reunion as the new me. to go back to school and be able to fit in those awful desk. to do a cycling class to be healthy I've got a long way to go before I reach any of those goals but for right now I have smaller goals that are achievable for right now. Refer to my blog before this blog. I think a list of goals can be helpful especially if you are serious about reaching them.

I am 39 days into being banded and today I struggled. I am on a low carb/ no sugar diet plan and I had two slices of bread with my chicken. I kind of feel like I am getting hungrier a lot often. every 2-3 hours. I don't want to keep shoveling food into my mouth esp since I am only working out once a day three times a week. I feel like I am battling with food addiction. I mean I have never had any issues with food thus far. I am just genuinely worried that if I eat again tonight I might eat too much. I am looking forward to having my first fill in five days. I am hoping that I will get the restriction I need and to be able to get satisfied and start making my mark. I didnt want to get into the habit of weighing myself but I am flirting with the idea of buying a scale. Idk what I am doing wrong. I eat my 60g of protein. I eat my protein first. I am making healthy choices minus the bread. Maybe I am just obsessing right now. I need to breathe and relax. I think I will be much better once I see my doctor and dietician. I am hoping I make it to my first goal of reaching 299 by my appointment. I would be sad if I dont reach my goal. I love seeing them happy when I show up and surpass their expectations. So, Ive been thinking about my goal list I previously had. I think some of it is unrealistic. Goal 1- is to go from 310 to 299. by the first of september. I've been working on it since July first. Goal 2- work out starting in one week four times a week for an hour. Goal 3- Avoid bread, pasta and rice. Goal 4- Have fun more. Goal 5- take more pictures to have as a guide on how much I have loss. the rest will be updated at a later date.

Thank you!

Today is my one month anniversary for being banded. I don't know if I reached my goal of being 299. I won't know until I go to the doctors office. which is on the 13th of august. I don't care what the scale says. I know I have lost weight because I can fit my 30/32 pants and they are a bit loose. so yay to me. lol I am going to start exercising more and start shedding these pounds so I can start feeling better. I need to boost my energy level. I still feel like I have a lack of energy. I have to go now because my lunch is finally here. good day everyone.

I am anxious to know what I have lost since my last weight was recorded. I have to wait 14 days before I find out my weight and to get my fill. I haven't been working out as much as i used to but i am working on that now. My gym doesnt offer a pool. i LOVE SWIMMING. I just don't want to spend 200 down and 30-80 bucks a month on gym memberships. I am not made of money. So I guess I will stick with them and walk. three times I have made bad food choices and I feel bad about it now because I thought I would never do it and I have. I am not going to beat myself up over it. I have to make better decisions. So i went shopping and got my food for the week. healthy choices and great snacks. another thing that is annoying me or rather was annoying me is comments. I love hearing other peoples advice on certain things. I also like to add my two cents to certain conversations where someone might ask for help. just remember your band issues/ results will not be the same for everyone. oh, I also want to add a 5k marathon to my list of goals.

Hi! I always(I say always lightly. since I have had the band) use whey powder in my oatmeal. I also started using a couple of raisins too. eating has gotten better. In fact I feel as thought I haven't been banded. hopefully in 13 more days I go to get my first fill.

no, I have not checked into the ymca. I will look into it and see if they have anything available. Thank you for the suggestion

I was told that you will always have to sip your liquids. its very hard esp if you are not used to it. I try to sip it but sometimes I get more than a sip. I cant drink it like i normally do because i get a pain on my port side so I have to be careful and sip like i am drinking hot tea.

Thank you!! I am very happy about the weight loss. I am very anal about making food charts for the week and making sure each meal has 60-80g of protein. I fell off when I did the liquid diet but now I am getting back on track. It was horrible not eating and then having those issues with my secondary meal choices. I just have to make sure I grab my lunch.

So today I noticed I have another heat rash.. It's my underarm.. Its extremely painful but not as intense as the one under my belly and thighs. I felt like a baby was ripping through every single pore in all of the regions. lol literally burning and swelling all over the place. It is worrying me because I think I might be losing weight too fast. I mean I am still fairly new to the band. I regret letting myself get this far before I decided I needed help... weight wise. I watched some body sculpting surgeries and it honestly freaked me out. I know for sure I am going to need the following: arm lift, boob lift, corset trunkplasty, thigh lift, ankle lipo, my calves might need a little lipo, a but lift/transfer of fat to reshape my bottom. I don't think I will be able to get around having most of that done. I am still early in the game to think about it, but it is something I am going to have to face. I am still not eating enough protein.. I know, I know... 60-80grams a day. pffff I can't even get to 600 cals still. I had half of 1/2 cup of oatmeal for breakfast. for lunch I had one salmon patty. and for dinner I had One chicken tamale(I peeled off most of the "shell".) Tomorrow I am going to the store to by my meals for the week. That way I can make healthier choices and buy more protein induced foods. Anyone tried asparagus ? I want to try it but I don't know how to cook it or how it taste. does it taste like broccoli or string beans?? I think I am still drinking too fast. I haven't puked or felt like something got stuck. I am just so damn thirsty. My job doesn't have air right now and its been 98-104 degrees. So I have been trying to sip but I know im not getting 64oz of water per day. Even my sleep is jacked up. I know that my band and I will start to work together and things will be better but for now things are not going so smooth. it could be worse, I could still be 380lbs. I can't wait to weight myself. First goal is to get to 299. It looks like I might end up losing over 100lbs in one year.. im more than half way there already and I still have five months left. I just have to keep telling myself that I am fighting for my life and that I can do this.

SO I went to see my mom and my nana today. She looked at me and said I looked great. I got up to pull the couch cover up a bit and she said my bum is getting bigger. like the fat from my stomach is going to my butt. lol I laughed and I later looked in the mirror and it is true.. I might have a bum. lol anywho, My hunger is starting to come. I ate 1/4 cup of oatmeal for breakfast. and dinner I had Steak and a few grapes. That's all I could process for the day. I am happy because that's more than what I have been doing. Newly single so I guess that' s a plus. At a time like this I guess its better to be single. I have all the support I need to get me by. Tomorrow I am going to focus on getting my protein in or at least getting more of it in. I read on here that someone was taking in more than 100 protein per day. I researched it and it stated too much protein is bad for you. So that's one negative that I saw on here. Another thing that happened today that kind of made me think, its okay to share your success or journey with other people but just know its only your opinion so don't be pushy. Doctors wouldn't tell you anything to hurt you on purpose. At least I hope not. lol . I am so ready to start back working out. I wish I had some sort of connection with someone who works at a gym with a pool. I went to lifetime fitness in chicago and it was 160 down and 80 a month. The good thing was that it had an outdoor pool and two big indoor pools. three hot tubs and it was 24hours. But holy cow I couldnt imagine paying that much and I can't even bring a guess but 3 times a year. I feel really lonely working out alone. I wish I had a workout partner that was serious about working out. I really want one that has a pool because I love swimming and aqua classes. my new goal is to be at 299 by the middle of August, and then to be 250 the end of the year. I dont want to lose weight to fast. I want to do it smart and healthy. I am so ready to finally start living after so many years of making myself a prisoner . Maybe this will also help me be less shy. Well I've said too much and I want to take a break from this laptop.. SO until LATER!!!

Hey sol!! I hope you feel better. Those incisions look like they are opened still. Im surprise they didnt liquid glue them closed. Also, welcome to blogging!!!!

I ate breakfast fine today. I had 1/2 a cup of oatmeal with whey. I made lunch and dinner and guess what I did?? I left it at home. I get to work and I have nothing healthy to eat so I go the whole day with just sipping water and chewing sf gum. I get off work and order a steak sope (its like a small round taco but not really a taco). I didnt eat the shelling because I am scared of stretching my band. SO I am taking small bites and chewing well. I was so hungry that I kept eating until I started getting a little pain my stomach. literally right below my boobs. I was amazed at the small amount of food that I consumed sent me over the edge. now I feel like i have a food baby. my band only has 1cc in it so idk what I did wrong. I wonder if that was a sign that i was close to being full or if it was a sign that i was full. it was my bad day at work that led to my stress and the fact thAT I DID NOT TAKE A BREAK TODAY. in other news i find it amazing that everyone is noticing my weight loss. My friend said it looked like i had lost 100 lbs when i really only lost about 66. that makes me happy and gives me the strenght to continue. I know i can do this. since I am still new to this and learning how to work with my band I take this day as a lesson. double check my purse for my lunch. lol or always keep a protein shake in my purse.

the nutritionist told me that the pureed phase has been know to make patients gain a couple pounds. which is why they only like us to do a week if that stage. I have decided Not to constantly weigh myself. I will limit it to doctors visits or once a month.

I know I am suppose to be eating mushy food but honestly how am I going to eat 1200 cals in mushy food? Also, its high in cals and I dont want to gain some of the weight I lost back.. i haven't been eating over 600 calories in one day. So I had oatmeal with whey powder for breakfast. for lunch I had half a protein shake and for dinner I had a cup of ground turkey with sour cream and 1/4 cup of low fat cheese. I broke down and had a soft shell tortilla. I tore it in half and only ate one piece to see if I could tolerate it. I did, but that doesn't mean I will try to see what I can get away with eating. I mean, my doctor did say not bread, pasta and rice. out of all of them pasta will be the hardest because baked mostaccioli is my best dish. thanks to another band member, I have a recipe for noodle-less lasagna that I am dying to try.. I just hope that I like zucchini. the only issues I am having at the moment is drinking water or crystal lite. I know what a gulp is and that's not what I am doing. I am taking small bits of water and swallowing it. by it being really hot(90-98) I get the feeling of extreme thirst. So usually I down a 16 oz water bottle down in five ten mins top. I am sipping but I never move my lips from the bottle. MAYBE SOMEONE SHOULD DO A YOUTUBE VIDEO SHOWING THE PROPER WAY TO SIP WATER WHILE HAVING THE LAPBAND. I'm obsessing over sipping water. I know my doctor said just don't gulp it down and I haven't been. Some positive things that happened today was my friend whom I haven't seen in 3 weeks said I looked good. he had no idea what that did to my ego lol. jk but it did feel nice. another things is that I have a job interview this wednesday. I am excited. I hope I get it and like it. anything really is an upgrade from where I am at right now. well I am getting sleepy and I have to be up soon ..