two months post op

So it literally has been two months since I have been banded. I know I haven't been exercising regularly and I take full accountability for it. I have been so stressed and busy with handling my personal affairs. I did have a cigarette and a couple drinks, which means I skipped two meals in two days to have those drinks. I know, i know... empty calories and sugar.. Those were my down moments but other than that I have not eaten anything bad.

I do feel like if I get another fill I will not feel like I need to eat more than 1 cup of food. Even though I am eating 1000-1200 My portions are still bigger than normal. I really don't want to hurt my band or myself. Yesterday was the first time I have exercised in a couple days. I am low on energy and I think there might be a slight case of laziness. Hopefully in three days I will be back at another gym but for now I will make more time to get my daily exercise in. I would also like to say that I have been candy sober for 7 months. I can tell that the weight is coming off REALLY slow but I can tell the difference. I just want this to be a success and in order for that to happen I had to take accountability for my actions and remind myself that I have come far. I just have to keep on trucking.