I started my journey in October with my consultation. My best friend went through LapBand 2 years ago and I saw her fabulous transformation. After my aunt died in August I decided this was a journey I needed to make, 30 years heavy was too many. I was initially told it would take six months for insurance approval but everyone that I knew had had their surgery scheduled in much less time. I was excitied and began to follow the rules...no soda, no drinking with meals, 1200 calories...but each subsequent visit I wasn't losing and I wasn't getting approved early. I'll be honest. I am an emotional eater and I turned back to my old nemesis. Anyway, it's 6 months later and I was approved the first time my case was submitted to the insurance. I should be excited but I am scared to death. I am 375lbs and 37 years old. I started gaining weight when I began grade school and it just continued from there. I was 250 lbs when I graduated high school. I don't want to be skinny...I just want to be not so big. I am just so afraid of failing yet another weight loss plan...this is life changing I know that. I want this, I really do. I am self-sabotaging, that I know. I don't want to be but I start following the rules and then before I know it I drink just one soda and it snowballs from there. Please tell me I am not alone in this...please tell me someone else out there has walked in these same shoes prior to your surgery. Oh, btw...no surgery date is set yet but my Pre-Op is Wednesday, May 30.