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As far as my liquid diet things are moving great. My only problem is having to cook for everyone. It's one thing to smell the food, but to be there cooking/handling it brings on a great deal of pain at times. I so bad want to taste/sample like I always do when I am cooking. I have done real good about avoiding this. I run to my kids or hubby to taste to see what seasonings need to go into it yet. I keep asking myself what the crap I have done. Why did I commit myself to start the diet early. How could I have been so dumb. This is my moment of weakness. I don't crave the food so to speak, but I want to eat what everyone else is eating. Last night before I went to sleep I found myself crying. My husband really is a great guy when he's not crushing you in the middle of the night. He asked me what was wrong, and I really couldn't put it all into words. I warned him about the emotions that could come during this whole process after surgery, but I never expected those emotions to hit this soon before surgery. Not this hard anyway. I told him I felt so alone. I feel as my world is being turned upside down, in disaster mode while everyone else is going their merry little way. I told him I know I can do this but that I hate I am doing this alone that no one can understand or relate how it feels to have to keep up with the demands of everyone elses food preferences and watch them eat. Even though I don't feel hungry I sure could take a bite of what they are eating. Maybe this is the head hunger everyone talks about. Honestly I don't think about food, not hungry, the shakes do a good job, but when I see others eating REAL FOOD, hell yea I want some of that. Thankfully I have had the strength to stay away. I hope that continues. I don't know why I seem so A$$ backwards. Everyone says the first 3 days are the hardest, then it will get easier as it goes, and for me it seemed the first 3 days were a piece of cake and now is when the struggles begin. Tomorrow is my official diet date, so there is no turning back, I must continue on with what I am doing. Hubby has volunteered to take on some/most of the cooking for awhile to help ease my troubles, He is even going to do some of the shakes with me. I think that translated into him eating lunch while at work, and having a shake at dinner with me. On a good note. I am down 6lbs. I would love to lose another 16 in the next two weeks.

This must be a side effect of this surgery and its beginning process! So I have to admit that ever since I got my surgery date, my nights have, well been not so full of sleep. I find myself tossing, turning, dreaming, and wide awake at times. But I am not the only one going through the change. Something has come over my husband. We will be married for 17 years in december, and have always had your side, my side, with a common snuggle in the middle. Well let me tell you; he has apparently lost his boundaries since everything with the surgery is coming into place. The closer to my date, the worse my nights get, and not just cause of me, but from his actions as well. Last night for example, I went to bed around 11. I was tired and couldn't wait for him so I laid down. I have this problem though, when I am tired and go to bed, I get a little hyperness and want to talk or what not. Well needless to say once I was in bed, i grabbed my phone and found myself responding to emails, reading this forum, playing slots, etc. Before too much longer hubby was crawling in bed. We will just leave out the details and just say LIGHTS OUT!! lol I found myself trying to find that right comfy position to fall asleep. Just when I got comfortable and closed my eyes, my bladder said excuse me missy, I have other plans!! I really hate this liquid diet, it gives me an overactive bladder... lol Once back in bed, i eventually fall asleep, but I am plagued once more with the hot, no cold, no hot symptoms. My tossing and turning quiets down and I finally am resting good or so I think I was in the moment my husband rolls practically on top of me.. I am hissing, pushing him, trying to figure out why the hell I am practically laying on the bedside table. This is the 3rd or 4th time he has ended up on top of me, it is very unlike him to sleep this way. I am worried about after the surgery, I am not sure if I can handle the shock of being woken up in the middle of the night from pains of having your hubby roll onto you. Its scary. I am hoping he can get his sleeping habits straightened out, and if its because of the upcoming surgery I am hoping all will change once surgery is over and he don't have to worry anymore. I too am thinking about sleeping in the double recliners in the living room, but he won't sleep without me, so I am sure he will be joining me; or convince me to come back to bed. I hope things move smoothly, he was never like this for any of my other surgeries.

Yes it is, we will definitely have to stay in touch.

Aww thanks cegull for asking. Actually I am impressed/surprised/and worried that the liquid diet is actually moving very smoothly. I've had no problems other than the extra potty breaks from all the extra fluids. I am now day 3 into it, staying satisfied with the shakes (pre-made ones for now) I do find that I am easily tempered or my fuse is wired very short at times. My boys just give me hugs when I get that way, Tell me it will pass, suggest maybe a nap, etc. I've had no headaches, no food cravings, nothing. Thats whats worrying me. I expected this to be very difficult and hard, and since it is going so well, I find myself thinking on the what ifs. Even though I started my diet earlier than was requested there is an upside of things. I have been staying within the limits of the 800-1000 calorie diet, sometimes finding it hard to hit those numbers, but staying well hydrated , I have managed to drop a few pounds. I was not requested to lose weight for the surgery, but I would secretly hope to lose 20 lbs. If I can lose 17 more lbs I will go into surgery under 300. That would be awesome for me.

Thanks for sharing. I love collecting the recipes from here for future meals. It give me something to look forward to.. I may have to try some of those shakes out now since I am on my pre-op liquid diet.

Well I got email back from Susan this evening. It appears there is only one other person sharing my date with Dr. Alvarez.. She did give me her email, what are your thoughts about contacting her? Would it be viewed as rude? Ideas on how to break off into a conversation in an email to someone you don't know but that have so much in common with? UGH, i hate being the shy person sometimes.

Thanks for the update Susie. I've been meaning to message and check on ya again, but I seem to have my hours screwed up. I try to wait for hubby but it plays with my sleep schedule at times. Glad to hear you are doing so well. I hope your fatigue disappears real soon. Keep up all your great work!!

Congrats on your date. The time may seem like it's dragging sometimes, but before you know it, it will be just round the corner. I am anxiously waiting for the 6th. I want to wish you all the best on the journey you are pursuing. I hope it brings great things.

Thanks for the invite Mom. Sorry if it took awhile to get over here, I kinda slept in today. Thanks Dooter for starting the thread. The other August Thread is great but it is very long if you are just starting out. I am currently on my liquid pre-op diet now. I was to officially start on the 23rd but I figured few extra days would not kill me. And they haven't so far even though I am only on day 2 this has been a piece of cake for me. I did mess up yesterday when I added banana to skim milk and blended. NO FRUIT ALLOWED!! I am scheduled for surgery with Dr. Alvarez on August 6th. And you can call me Jennifer or Jenn for short if you don't want to call me Storm.

Congratulations on your date. I know how excited you are. I will keep you in my thoughts and hope nothing changes for you. Best of luck. Keep us updated on your outcome,.

Welcome to the boards BigSleeve. Congratulations on your journey thus far. I hope you hear great news soon. As Mokee stated, this is a wonderful and great forum. The people are all too welcome in helping with questions and advice. They have become extended family. You can count on support here if you are lacking support from your friends and family. We lean on each other. I would not know what to do if I did't have this outlet to run to. I wish you all the best and please keep us updated on your outcomes. Keep your head up.

This sounds delicious. I am a big spinach lover. Thanks for sharing.

I wish you all the best in this journey, but especially the best to quit smoking. I know first hand that task is not an easy one. Hope you get great news from the doctors. Keep us updated.

Wishing you the best of luck. Hope to hear from you as soon as you are able. Hope your surgery was an easy one, and your recovery is speedy.

Welcome to the boards Mensch!! Congratulations on submitting to insurance. I hope you hear good news real soon. Keep us updated.

Yes I am going to Dr. Alvarez on the 6th of August. Sent from my iPhone using VST

Great work. I think you are doing and awesome job and well on your way to greatness. Thanks for updating us.

Hi erose22 and welcome to the boards. Congratulations on having your surgery. I am glad to hear you are doing so well. Awesome job on working so hard and excellent work on losing 26lbs so far. You are going to go a very long way with your new sleeve. Keep up everythinng you are doing; its working for you. As the others would say, welcome to the losers bench. (Please save me a seat) This is a great group of people, so if you have any questions never hesitate to ask, and I am sure you will get a response quickly. Best of luck in the future. Keep us updated.

Welcome Jesser. I wish I could tell you those feelings subside and maybe they do after the surgery, but before hand, nope they stick with you. When I first made a final decision towards the surgery, I didn't sleep for days. Not out of fear or worry, but out of anticipation. I would lay awake at night staring at the ceiling and I could see flashes of my soon to be new life. I could not wait to get started. Now I am 18 days away from surgery, and my anticipation is only heightening even more. I want to wish you the very best in your journey. Don't give up. I too am a self pay, and it may take awhile for you to reach your goal, but once you do, its like winning the race, crossing the finish line. It is so worth it. Try not to get discouraged or down during the saving process cause it can become worrisome. I can't tell you how many times I sat in the bathroom thinking there is just now way to come up with that much money. I was fortunate to have a very supportive husband that made sure to make it happen. Again, stay focused, relax and it will happen. In the mean time, search the forum here, you will find tons of helpful information, and the people around here are the best. I could not have found a better place or better people to consider as my wls family.

Not trying to sound degrading here but there are tons if positions available but after all the previous abdominal surgeries I found that hands and knees with a pillow propped under tummy helps. Able to control tummy movements better than laying on back and on top positions can be stressful cause you forget about having surgery and eventually your hips move with motions which pulls on abdominal muscles. Sent from my iPhone using VST

I kinda disagree about the guys part. I would imagine a guy would feel worse pain/discomfort/pinching compared to a woman. After all the guys are the ones who have to use abdominal muscles constantly for the thrusting. Prob too vague on the picture, but isn't that the truth? I think depending on who is having the surgery male/female you work around positions. However despite how successful you are on finding a position that will work for both parties, a woman may feel some discomfort during an orgasm as her abdominal muscles may contract. Again not anything that would prevent having sex, but is why they say "When you feel comfortable in doing so"

I haven't even had the surgery yet, and I was given all the do's and don'ts for after surgery from nutrition (including ideas of what to have for each phase and when to start each phase), exercise, activities, lifting restrictions,. Its a whole book worth prob 60 pages.

Congratulations!! It's always exciting to see a loss on the scale, and just think, this is the last time you will ever see those numbers again. Good luck on your upcoming surgery. I wish you all the best, and hope your surgery and recovery move smoothly. Keep us updated when your able.

I think every doctor is different. I have asked my doctor and he also has a youtube video about it, but he says as soon as we feel comfortable in doing so. But again I know all doctors are different.

So i was finally on Facebook this evening and I came across this picture. It really spoke volumes to me and I thought I would share it with everyone. It reminds me to follow my inner voices and disregard negative feedback.. It expresses some of the very reasons as to why I am on the journey I am. Hope you enjoy.