kkccmom

Hi all, boy it's been a rough year so far and I've been off my diet a lot. I have gained about 5 lbs I had a fill over a month ago and got very sick so had it removed at that time they removed all of it because I felt so horrible. Went back after getting over being sick and got fill back in but not much so now I'm eating way to much, hungry all the time and miserable. I go back tomorrow for another fill. I have got to get on track again and it's going to take a lot of will power which I feel I have lost, it doesn't help that I have a lot of emotional issues right now. I stay upset all the time and don't know what to do anymore Sorry to be such a downer
Kim, I know exactly what you are talking about I've been the same way so much so I could have written that.

You can do it Kim! If it makes you feel any better, I killed a whole box of vanilla wafers this past weekend. I hate my sweet tooth and wish I could just kill it somehow, so I totally relate to the sweet cravings. I'm getting a slight unfill tomorrow, I keep getting stuck every day and I'm tired of it, I love where I'm at satiety wise, but hate getting stuck. I'm still within my 2 years of fills, so I can always go back for more if need be if this unfill ends up not being good.
I hope all is well with everyone and we've got this and can do this!
Oh and Kim, you are a neighbor to me, I'm in Kentucky, Northern Kentucky, close to Cincinnati. I went to Dr. Curry for surgery.

Feeling so discouraged I have gained 2 pounds, I honestly don't know what I'm doing wrong but I just am going no where. I can not get a fill because I get stuck to often as it is.
Oh well in other Lindabug news my daughters wedding was amazing it was beautiful and hot in Savannah!!! I will post some pics if I can get this darn thing to work!
Hope everyone has a great week! Miss my lbpeeps

pizza anything... including taco bell because its dough doesn't normally go down... at least for me... and esp after a fill! anything with yeast swells when wet and therefore is more likely to get stuck... I know this isn't the case for everyone on this sight but im pretty sure its like this for majority of us on here... I would def go back to square 1 and do the liquids and then try softs again.... im not an expert but its just what I think I would do!

Well, had my esophagram today...making sure band is still where it belongs...all is well.
Since having Fluid removed back in June, I have had virtually NO restriction, eating anything (and everything) I want. And I gained about 4 pounds!
I did get a fill...and the surgeon has a theory that my GB has been acting up all along, possibly contributing to my troubles and sensitivity to my fills.
You probably don't recall that I had to have Fluid REMOVED about a week after surgery (ONE YEAR AGO TODAY)...then two or three minor fills, and then the most recently another "withdrawal". Doc says I am WELL below where most people are at this stage (well below band-fluid capacity).
So, with the gallbladder out, I am hoping this fill will get me back on track. I am trying very hard today to follow the rules that apply to the first 48after a fill. I AM kinda hungry, having eaten nothing all day, but I'm trying to follow the rules...tomorrow I can have my shakes...
I think Lucia said something about getting too comfortable where she is...I'm there, too...not SATISFIED but soooooooo much happier than I was a year ago!
So, hopefully this will be a step in the right direction and that I will see progress. I think my brain is ready to engage again, after a very lazy summer. I would love to see 20+ by Christmas...I know it can be done, but I do have to do my part. This includes getting my butt moving.
Anyway, that's that, girls. Here's to moving forward - and skinnier!
Kim

Oh wow Kim, I'm glad you were with them also. My cousin had the same issue and said it was excruciating. So glad you are doing well now and on the mend. I hear this is one of those things like my hernia that happens a lot in our situation. My doctor even thinks some of my back pain could be caused by gb problems but I honestly think it's my arthritis in my spine. I have had it for years and it seems to always get worse when it's cold or damp weather. I have been swimming a lot lately and that seems to help a lot. Take care of yourself and keep us updated on how you are doing.

...ooops! Not there quite yet...
Bra is loosey-goosey, too, and that's not comfortable...Have to keep hiking up the straps. DRIVES ME NUTS! lol
Anyway, struggling to get back on the straight and narrow and get moving forward again...KUDOS to you, Marie...its just terrific!
Hang in there, gals...we will win!! Eventually -- and I keep telling myself "THIS IS NOT A RACE"!!!
Kim

One year anniversary of my lap band. Oh how I felt that day! I thought what have I got myself into this time! Little did I know it was the best decision of my life. I have lost 55 lbs but I have "gained" so much more, confidence, my health, more energy. I have been taken off 2 of my meds also. I have more to lose & I am working on that.
MARIE

I have a new motivation!!! Over the weekend my daughter got engaged to a wonderful guy. He is a police man in Ga where she lives. I can honestly say I have never seen her happier, she has been through a lot of crap in the past 3 years now she has a good job in the field she went to college for and a good man in her life. They haven't set a date yet but are thinking 4/12/14 because she is a math geek and likes that this date is the same backward and forward! Anyway here is more motivation for me this time I want to look good in the pictures so she can look at them and be proud of her mom not kringe!

Kim, I swear I was reading this and thinking I could write pretty much the same exact thing!

Kim, I see your fb business page so I "liked" it

Hi Ladies!
I've been stuck in the same weight for almost 4 months; I was getting depressed so I started looking through some pictures, so here is what I found...
Maybe we don't see it every day but we have come a long way
Happy Weekend everyone!!!

Marie...
the last adjustment I had, in March, really took me to the next 'level' with my capacity. I have to eat SO SLOWLY...by the time I get even 1/2 of it down, its cold. That pretty much does it with most things.
I'm down an even 40...slow loss, but then, like you, I do find that certain things ARE way too easy...esp sweets!! I can let a bite of cake just "simmer" in my mouth before swallowing...then another and another....or ice cream.
This week I have had TWO episodes of full-out vomiting. Don't know if I just ate too fast or what, but it was not pretty. I know this should be avoided at all costs b/c of the stress it puts on the band, but there was just no stopping it. Once I got it all out, I felt fine. Actually, the one evening I did finish my meal ( 1 slice of pizza)...tho it took me a good 30+ minutes to do so.
I need to also focus on the Protein first...hard to do esp when it gets stuck...still, after my visit w/ my surgeon this week, he said it WOULD come off faster if I'd keep myself clear of the carbs and sweets. Well....yeah. Ha...
Feeling pretty good....still haven't pushed myself to get walking again. I know that'll make some difference, too.
Have a good day and a good weekend, everyone!
Kim

I too am too comfortable with my eating. I am able to manipulate my food. Soft foods go down way too easy! I am trying to go back to the way I was told to eat, Protein first, & if there's room for veg & a fruit second. That worked for me. I have lost 2 more lbs.

Hi girls....Lucy, I do feel your "pain" in this. Thankfully, I've not gained, but it sure is easy to eat the crap and not focus on either avoiding it altogether or just making better choices.
One of the LIBERTIES of this, FOR ME, has been not having to weigh, measure or count every bite. I AM, however, learning to LISTEN to my body...and if I'm not hungry, I DO NOT EAT. NOW, having said that....do I NEVER eat when I'm not hungry, or do I NEVER eat crap? NO. Of course not! I'm not dead!!! LOL
But, I will say that I am getting better and better about just saying NO, I DON'T REALLY WANT THAT. Like walking out of the grocery store, when I'm alone (because we all know we'll eat all kinds of things when no one is watching!!), and not buying a candy bar....I've done it several times now...and it feels really REALLY good to be able to KNOW that I don't want it or certainly don't need it.
I'm losing SO slowly...but I was visiting my parents this past weekend, in my hometown, and saw lots of friends I hadn't seen in several months. They all RAVED about how good I look, how proud of me they are -- including my uncle, whom I'm very close to. He said, "You're lookin' good, Kimmie!!" That's just to name a few....so it was VERY rewarding to be recognized for HARD WORK -- even tho I am not counting stuff....it's working!
So, just QUIT BUYING THE JUNK, stay out of the kitchen...have some PERSONAL integrity...you know what they say, "Your true character is revealed when you will do the right thing when no one is watching!" -- I'm speaking to me, too, here...so don't think I'm preaching and not listening to my own words. I'm a sugar-holic...I love LOVE sweets, but I love my thinner me more! I have about 25-30 more to go, and a package of Cookies just isn't going to get me there! (Lately I've been addicted to the 'sugar wafer' cookies...they are slim, narrow, flat flaky wafers, with a sugary creamy filling....store brand, name-brand -- doesn't matter...LOVE.LOVE.LOVE them! haha....and if I don't pay attention, I can have an ENTIRE package GONE in no time!!! YIKES!)
I do think we often get comfortable at a certain stage/weight/size. Honestly, I think I 'could' be happy'ish right where I am....but I'm really trying to listen to what my body is saying, and I think it will get me to where IT wants/needs to be...might be another 6 months, but that's okay. Some experts call that a "set point" - your body will settle into a certain weight and stay there. Of course that's providing one doesn't just start eating the house....so that's what I'm counting on...that "set point" that my body will cruise into and I will stay there for the rest of my life.
I am hoping to get myself out the door this evening to start walking again. Its finally warming up here in IN, and I'm ready to get outside. If I could get in 2 miles tonight, I'll be very happy. I have a busy day, but maybe by evening I can take an hour and hit the street.
I still have days when I can barely get anything down, Linda. The next day, it seems all right. Not sure why that is, but again, I just have to listen and OBEY or I'm in big trouble. I'm meeting a friend for lunch today...praying today is a GOOD food day, and that I can enjoy it and her w/o having to run to the bathroom to try and take care of it. Yesterday was NOT a good day for solids, so maybe today will be! I also had a bad day on Saturday, eating out w/ my folks and my brother/family...had to excuse myself from the table, go to the bathroom, then outside. NOT GOOD. I hated missing out on the good food, but most of all, just being with them. But I got in too big a hurry and it was not working.
I don't plan on another adjustment this month...found out that our insurance doesn't pay for them!! So, my choice to be conservative about it is even smarter....can't just run in there willy-nilly and get a fill. $$$ So, we'll go w/o again this month (last fill was Feb I think), and then see, in June, where I've gotten to. If I can average 1lb a week, I'm pretty happy w/ that. So far, I think that's where I am.
Anyway, sermon done!! LOL Hang in there, ladies. Its SLOW, learning new ways and means, setting boundaries for ourselves and finding new ways to reward our accomplishments. My mom gave me some clothes when I was there....they are REALLY cute and the smallest size I've seen in a LONG LONG time. Feels great. And I feel like look stylish and confident. I don't want to look 25 (I'm 51 in June), but I don't want to settle into wearing Alfred Dunner yet either. (I HAVE worn Alfred Dunner...the styles were pretty, but made me look WAY older than I was)
Enjoy today...give yourself the BEST for yourself today!!
Kim

I am having the same type problem, to comfortable but at the same time I get stuck really easy so don't want another fill at this point. My husband says it's to tight and me getting sick is not good for me but sometimes I can eat anything at other times nothing. I don't know what to do at this point. It's scary because I know I backtrack way to easy.

Hi Ladies! I'm having such a hard time, I'm eating all the bad stuff I shouldn't be eating, I'm sure I've gained like 5 lbs in the last month, I don't think I need a fill 'cause I still get stuck sometimes, I need motivation, I'm just too comfortable the way I look right now, I really wanted to reach my goal weight by July, but it seems so difficult at this moment, I'm tired all the time and just want to eat cupcakes, chips, and all the bad foods.
Even my husband said that I look fat again he's not trying to be mean, he is trying to get me moving again, but it's not working
Sorry for venting, any tips to start over?

To 2012 This has not been a "movtiation" issue for me at all! I eat what I can and let the rest go...I'm not tempted to over-eat because when the pipe is full, there ain't room for anything else! And I do have to give you KUDOS for 92 lbs lost!! WOW! I know the rest of us will be so happy to see our goals get closer. I figure I'm more than 1/2 way there...you are doing AWESOME! Do whatever it takes to get to your goal. Just keep reminding yourself how much has changed for you since 92 lbs ago, and how much better it will be when you are where you want to be!
NOW, I will say that I can really put away the ice cream!! So what I cannot eat in VOLUME, I can make up for in CALORIES!! Suffice it to say, THAT is where any "motivation" comes from -- staying away from the freezer!
I do really love sherbet, tho, so I eat that w/ little remorse. Its FF, and one cone will do the trick.
Marie...I think my Dr told me I was at about 1.5cc!! I have trouble enough with that...I can't imagine trying to eat w/ a tighter band.
Linda...that's exactly where I was before this last adjustment. I "think" I might be in the Green Zone I've heard about. I am losing - which is what we want, right??? -- and there are things I simply avoid altogether. The risk of it getting stuck is just not worth it, esp if I am in a group setting. I did have a couple episodes of that last week when the Hub and I were in Maui...Had to excuse myself and almost RUN to the restroom to try and get it taken care of.
Once I do - either get it down or out - I am fine, and can eat a bit more. I am pretty sure I did lose another 2 lbs, so it is working.
The weather is FINALLY warming up here in Indy, so I am closer to getting outside to walk. I know that'll help things, too.
I am motivated - but this "brick wall boundary" has done that for me. I am rarely hungry, and I find that very little will do the trick.
One thing I have noticed is the reality of having to let go of certain things - or at least how I ate them in the past. For instance, I can no longer take a big bite of a hamburger, and savor the taste of it. The risk is that too much will want to slide down the hatch and it will NOT go all the way down.
Most foods I love can no longer really be "enjoyed" - I do miss that. And by the time I do get it all down, (IF I get it all down = rarely), its stone-cold. That's been a kill-joy in the pleasure of eating. Eating has just lost its "fun" - does that make sense? Oh well...its worth it.
Hang in there everyone. Best wishes for continued success and feeling better than ever!
K.

To 2012 This has not been a "movtiation" issue for me at all! I eat what I can and let the rest go...I'm not tempted to over-eat because when the pipe is full, there ain't room for anything else! And I do have to give you KUDOS for 92 lbs lost!! WOW! I know the rest of us will be so happy to see our goals get closer. I figure I'm more than 1/2 way there...you are doing AWESOME! Do whatever it takes to get to your goal. Just keep reminding yourself how much has changed for you since 92 lbs ago, and how much better it will be when you are where you want to be!
NOW, I will say that I can really put away the ice cream!! So what I cannot eat in VOLUME, I can make up for in CALORIES!! Suffice it to say, THAT is where any "motivation" comes from -- staying away from the freezer!
I do really love sherbet, tho, so I eat that w/ little remorse. Its FF, and one cone will do the trick.
Marie...I think my Dr told me I was at about 1.5cc!! I have trouble enough with that...I can't imagine trying to eat w/ a tighter band.
Linda...that's exactly where I was before this last adjustment. I "think" I might be in the Green Zone I've heard about. I am losing - which is what we want, right??? -- and there are things I simply avoid altogether. The risk of it getting stuck is just not worth it, esp if I am in a group setting. I did have a couple episodes of that last week when the Hub and I were in Maui...Had to excuse myself and almost RUN to the restroom to try and get it taken care of.
Once I do - either get it down or out - I am fine, and can eat a bit more. I am pretty sure I did lose another 2 lbs, so it is working.
The weather is FINALLY warming up here in Indy, so I am closer to getting outside to walk. I know that'll help things, too.
I am motivated - but this "brick wall boundary" has done that for me. I am rarely hungry, and I find that very little will do the trick.
One thing I have noticed is the reality of having to let go of certain things - or at least how I ate them in the past. For instance, I can no longer take a big bite of a hamburger, and savor the taste of it. The risk is that too much will want to slide down the hatch and it will NOT go all the way down.
Most foods I love can no longer really be "enjoyed" - I do miss that. And by the time I do get it all down, (IF I get it all down = rarely), its stone-cold. That's been a kill-joy in the pleasure of eating. Eating has just lost its "fun" - does that make sense? Oh well...its worth it.
Hang in there everyone. Best wishes for continued success and feeling better than ever!
K.

I too had a fill yesterday, up to 4 3/4 - 5cc, not sure. I do have that full feeling & I am glad with it!
Glad everyone is doing so good.

Hello everyone! Today is my first full day back at work, I've been doing about 4-5 hours at a time. I am doing better, I still have a little soreness but compared to the way the hernia felt it's so much better! I have not been able to exercise and did not have a fill during my 6 weeks so things were getting a little loose. I wasn't losing any and the other day I got on the scale and was back to 192 I flipped. I didn't fill I needed the fill until I went to the beach with my daughter Easter weekend and realized I could pretty much eat anything I just had to eat it slow this being said I went ahead and got a fill last week, this one is tight tight. I have problems with most anything if I don't chew enough or eat slow, I've also found I can not drink much at all at one time and before I could. All that being said I am learning to not get stuck so much it's so hard to do but as soon as I feel it might be happening no matter how much I want that bite I stop. Sun I was at my moms and she was concerned because I got what my daughter calls the stuck look. I just stopped and said mom I'm okay just got to go slow, she worries way to much! I eventually finished my meal about 30 minutes after everyone else! It's so frustrating sometime but then this morning I got on the scale and it read 186.6 so I am pumped and ready to continue! I will start my walking more back today Kim I could not have describe how I'm feeling any better than you did it's the exact same for me. Amy I'm really envious of you, I've went to Australia in 2007 and fell in love, I have always said if I could move anywhere in the world it would be there or Aruba! Good luck!

Kim, that tightness is just what I need! I have an appt. April 16th. I hope i get the fill I need. I am having a hard time right now.
Keep up the good work.
Marie

Hello everyone
I have been very lazy in reading and posting here....I haven't had a fill for quite some time as I too have issues alot of days with things getting stuck....I try to follow what I have learned I take small bites but I have had yogurt get stuck which is crazy but mornings and later nites are the worst for me....I generally don't eat bread but yesterday I was able to have a small grilled cheese sandwich....strange...being stuck really sucks but hubby is used to it now...and understands thankfully
I plan on having another fill in 2 weeks....just because if I eat soft food....I can eat more then a cup...
Have a great weekend

Hey Kim, it's looking okay over here in Kentucky and I'm doing good. Sorry to hear about your stuck episodes, sounds like you may need a little removed. I hit the green zone and hope to stay there for awhile, but I go to the doc in a week, so I watch closely this week to see how I'm doing. I'm also moving to Australia in about 2 months, so I'm going to question if I need to do anything special for that long of a plane ride, I hope not, but in case I need an unfill, I fortunately met someone on here to help me with a doc over there. Hope everyone else is doing good! I would love to lose 40 more, but not sure if that's really feasible . And have a great time in Florida and then Maui, that is awesome!

Linda...glad to hear you are feeling stronger! Good for you...I know the exercise will come - maybe later than you want, but it will come!
Yes, I know all about the flabby belly! I've had 4 babies - my boys (my last two), were each almost 11 lbs, and then c-sections to boot! I'm stretched all over kingdom-come! Its just so awful looking...good thing the hub is the only one who sees it...he's got his own issues, so he is VERY kind to me...and it just works! Still, "I" would love to have this "drape" sucked and tucked! LOL...probably won't happen, so like I said, I'll just keep everything tucked up w/ a Spanx or something and keep it covered!!
I purged my closet last week, probably getting rid of 2/3 of the big stuff! That felt really liberating! Everything is going to the AmVets today...hopefully all the nice things will do someone else some good.
All my rings are too big, so eventually I'll need to get them sized. I have some very nice 'fine' jewelry so it'll all be worth the $ to get them fitted properly so they don't just fall off somewhere. I'd be sick!!
Feeling REALLY draggy today. Need to get out and run a couple errands but just don't know if I have the gumption. Its been over-cast and rainy here in IN for DAYS....starts getting to me, I think...and there is little sun in the forecast for the next 10 days!!
Anyway, Linda, glad you are on the mend. Take it as slow as you need to...listen to your body. It rarely lies!!
K.