I think we all go through this fear and anxiety. You are normal. I had all the same fear as well. But, I made my mind up that if I didn't do something my prediabetes would surely develop into diabetes, my blood pressure would kill my kidneys, my heart, and possibly lead to stroke , and my cholesterol was already causing plaque in my arteries which would make me at a huge risk of a heart attack..and when I looked into my hubby's and daughter's eyes, I knew they were not getting the best of me. So, on surgery day, I left my crying child at my mom's knowing I was making the right decision ..I just told her this was something I had to do to make me better...a better mom, a better wife, a better me....did I have complications ..yes..a hematoma that hurt like hell...was it difficult..yes...I became lactose intolerant after the procedure and had explosive diarrhea until we figured that out...would I do it again? You bet, because now I can dance with my daughter, play, go on walk, not hide in the house, my hubby is my boyfriend again, my house is a home..and I no longer think if I die some other woman could be raising my daughter because now I know I will be raising her because I will be around a lot longer than I would have been had I not made the decision to go ahead with the surgery. Take a deep breath, write down all the pros and cons ..you are a nurse ..what would you say to one of your patients that needed a heart bypass, an appendectomy, or an aneurysm repair? Would you tell them not to do it? You know the illnesses that are slowly killing you, and you know what statistics are for people who continue to be obese. Take another deep breath... Look at your list, surround yourself with your supporters and find comfort in your decision. Good luck!