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I was browsing around the net searching for "one month before sleeve diet" and thankfully this site came up, began reading all the wonderful post op and pre -op stories and quickly signed up to share my journey. I was thinking to myself, well since i have no support at home, minus well find some support online from people who are going through the same thing i have gone.. To start off , my name is Fina i am 21 years old and i am currently 236.2 my highest weight ever was 247.. and my lowest weight EVER was 197, which was around Jan-Feb of 2011.. yes i gained all my weight back... like most i have been over weight all my life, even when i was around 2-5, everyone even doctors said " it was just a phase", that i would lose it as i got older, but that never happened. I don't want to blame my parents for my fatness, but when your growing up in a house filled with Dominican people its pretty hard to be on a diet, and what the heck! what does a 9 year old knows about counting calories, or exercising?.. Well to make things short, i never was a big fan of playing sports, i was more of the science nerd, chess playing, novelist writer and Godly reader, it was around middles school that i really came out and started playing basket ball and volley ball, we even won district undefeated and went to the finals, but we lost the second round and went home.. but it was the best time ever, i played 7Th and 8TH grade.. i was around 176, and in nine grade without sports, my weight went uuuuuup!!! bouncing every summer from 205-220... n then never really weighing myself 237-247... My family, my father is very tall 6'5 n my brother was blessed with height, as well as my sister whom i should say stuck to my dad side, she is 14 and is taller than me 21.... she is around 5'6 and i am 5'4... she is around 135-140.. she is tall and thin.. flat belly.. i cant compare to her, so here comes mommy!!!... 5'4, weighing in guess what around my same weight shes probably less, 230-237, i feel shame every time we go out people think we are twins, she even looks younger than me!!!! Point, i am tired of being fat, not wearing pretty clothes, having hugeee "fat handles", and two big roles of fat on my sides, and omg my thighs are like big o elephant legs!! with fat arms.. i have tried everything, hcg, cabbage diet, grape fruit, diet n exercise, slim fat, special k, n loads of pills, fruta planta, jillian, omg a lot of weird eBay pills, i lost weight yes, but did not kept it off.. co-workers, and friends... i would kept this a secret from them because people are so judge mental, especially at my job whom i can say either ur fat or u just had a baby lol.. and then stayed with the baby weight n gained some more.. the minute i was losing weight last summer, everyone was on top of me, oh ur Hispanic u should be proud of being fat y are u trying to be someone else.. hello are u for reallll!!! lol.. just because i want to improve my health, not have high blood pressure, no diabetes, no cholesterol, you think i am trying to be someone else, that i don't like my own skin, or self?... oh Ur losing weight too fast, Ur too skinny 197 u were fine the way u were, wow 197 too skinny? imagine when i get down to my goal weight 130 Ur going to think i have some type of disease!.. So guess what, for my future, my future children, i am going to use the aid of the gastric sleeve to lose the weight for ever, and totally change my lifestyle for the better!!! my mother still eeffy about it, just talks about it like its the most nastiest thing ever... and always adds negatives for me to change my mind, my dad thinks i am Crazy!!!... and i pray to God that he approves it!... my best friends tottally support me.. everyone else its still a secret.. what will i do and tell them when i start losing the weight... well right now i was on the lemonade diet, brought it to work shared it with everyone, did 3 weeks lost 11 pounds got some butt, lol.. loads of exercise.. so they see i am losing.. i talk about about p90x n how good it is, they know it works since i did it last time around i lost weight.. so this time around, i dont want any drama, my goal my dream.. i don't want to be obese and pregnant!! with loads of health conditions.. i want to have abs and show off my sexy thighs lol.. for the last 5 month i have been struggling to lose the weight, gaining instead of losing, last check in with the nutritionist is on Jan 19, got my scans done, hoping everything will go fine, cant wait for this summer, i got my goal jeans ready size 8 hoping to wear them before April.. i would love to be a size 6.. right now i am a size 16-- lowest being a 10.. so ugh i have been bad this year.. everyone deserves a new start!!! Well this is it for now,, Blessings to all!!!! ooh, january goal weight is 220.. i am 236.2 right now so i am hoping to lose 5 pounds a week by 1200 cal n burning between 800-1000 cal... a day!!,... got my elliptical machine and my Zumba PS3 move game!!!.. awesome!

i love P90x, last summer of 2010 i was on p90x like crazy n it helped me lose most of my weight, from 247 to the lowest of 197.. it slimmed down n toned up my arms, thighs and omg my roles were gone from my back n front n i could see stomach definition i had the ab line and all i was so happy. its hard yes but like he says if u can do 1 or 2 push ups today u can try for one more tomorrow until u can do all reps. so just pause n hit play, don't hit stop until Ur done, and drink lots of water!.. i had a great experience with this program, just this past January i gained most of my weight back, but that was my fault got stressed, working and going to school, family death n loads of problems.. but the program is awesome i love it, and i am currently back on it, trying to lose 15 pounds before Jan 19 which is my last weight in before surgery!..

i wanted to get a breast lift put does that effect breast feeding in the future? i don't have kids now but when i have them in the future i want to breast feed.. so i guess i will have to wait?..

my last apt with my nutritionist is on Jan 19 so i am hoping everything gets submitted fast because i cant wait!!! so excited

Same here mines is lose weight, trying to get 15 pounds off before surgery, also get more into my spiritual persona, i feel a little bit drifted away.. Exercise throughout my entire journey..

Lovely story Susan I cant wait!!! Thank you for sharing!!!! Lisa pastelitos is a masa (kind of like a dough) made out of green plaintains, pumpkin, n the small plaintains.. you have to grin it until its all mushy.. u wrap it in plaintain leaves n add ur favorite meat in the middle.. http://www.food.com/recipe/Pasteles-En-Hoja-Dominican-Republic-Version-273156 this is one website that has the nutritional facts and servings.. on the other hand this is another website that i love to cook from http://www.dominicancooking.com/41-recipe-pasteles-en-hoja-ground-roots-pockets.html soo good..

you look amazing!!

man i hope my aunt flow doesnt come around the surgery date... or on it

wow you look gorgeous!! a agree even in the 290's you looked good, and you look skinny no,w you will look amazing when u reach 160!

My first meeting with the doctor, i got to meet the surgeon, which i had heard that it was rare to see him the first visit.. he personally examined me, the usual, breathing, pressure, and my abdomen.. at first he was like u don't look like u need this procedure, but when i let my stomach out omg lol.. i died of embarrassment lol.. n my jumbo thighs lol.. but like Lisa said, they asked why you want to do the surgery, which one and past attempts to lose weight, and they also asked me my goal weight.. i said 150 at first, n then i said no 135 n he smiled and said hey why not, and he put 135 as my goal weight...so exited!!! well good luck on all your visits!

Thank you guys for all the support, i am literally tearing up right now!!! I can truthfully say i love you guys already! Yes i cant wait to finally be able to go shopping n fit into the "Junior size" lol no more 1x, 2x lol... "One day at a time" i need to remember to breath lol... Thank You All!!!

Thank you so much, i see thus far that this will be my second family!!! yes i also believe that its a personal choice, and u are totally right about being the gossip topic lol.. even in church girl lol.. i choose not to to tell my pastor because i feel that he slips out a lot about talking to other members about someone else's personal problems.. prayer is everywhere, and with God, family and close friends is enough.. i have not told my brother because his gf is too nosy lol,, n my sister would tell everyone in church when i am gone, because she "doesn't like to lie to church members" lol soo hoping this will be my secret to them, n a surprise for the future ..

i have a big sign on my door, GET Up And JUST Do It, with the exercises and rep counts i should do for 15 mins, its really hard to get up, its sooo easy to be lazy.. but one things for sure, when u get up n do it and finish u feel much more better and really motivated, just take it a day at a time, follow Ur plan, do something at least 30 mins.. right now its my last month before the surgery or any approval, but i am trying to get down to 220 before surgery, so i am like 15 pounds away.. so trying to do 5 pounds a day, exercising 2 hours a day, since i work i split the time in between.. 5am. 3 pm n 45 mins before bedtime.. that way my body stays burning the whole day.. I am so happy for you and everyone who already had the surgery, reading all your stories and updates inspires me and mentally prepares me for whats to come, so Thank you sooo much!!!

Congrats i cant wait til that day!!! GodBless, dont worry time is on ur side!!!!!!