Shalon

After a wonderful family dinner last night at Cheesecake Factory, where I ate anything and everything I wanted for the very last time, I went to bed happy and joyful, and woke up with the Grouchies. I think the closer my September 12th surgery date gets, the more reality and questions start to creep in. I read on here how commonplace the feelings are, but I just cannot help it. I worry about having food issues, being in pain, being tired, regret, and the forbidden thought of NOT losing weight. I see people who after three months have only lost 20 pounds and that scares the crap out of me. This is a whole lot of work to "only" lose 20 pounds! I keep questioning whether I could "get real" about weight loss and do this on my own, albeit very slowly. I lost the 20 pounds they required to get scheduled with surgery, so why can't I just continue on that path? My bestie had RNY a year ago next week and says she has "buyer's remorse" almost every single day. There are no foods she enjoys anymore, she can only eat during certain hours of the day, and she is EXHAUSTED all the time. I have three kids under nine, including a 16 month old, and I work full time in a very stressful law firm. I can't really "afford" to be tired all the time. On the other hand, I also know I cant "afford" to die of a heart attack either. Although she has lost 93 pounds and looks amazing, her sense of regret sticks with me and I can't seem to shake it. I have even avoided seeing and talking to her in the last month because I am trying to focus on ME and MY decision for the first time in my life. I don't know what to think anymore, but I do know that I don't want to be scared any longer and I don't want to be grouchy! Maybe it's just because today is the first day of my pre-ope diet? Who knows.

I feel the same way. My surgery is on the 12th and I woke up this morning extremely grouchy and emotional. I worry about my kids, my husband, how to manage after surgery and going back to work. I worry I will miss eating in general, I will be too tired all the time, and in pain. I have a friend that had RNY and she regrets it almost daily, not a good role model for me. We have come this far and considered this option for a reason. That's what I keep telling myself.

Strange. My doctor said he is doing mostly only sleeves now. I told him I was concerned I wasn't choosing the right surgery and he said he absolutely wanted me to have the sleeve. I'm Kaiser Fresno

Kaiser Fresno, Dr. Alvarez

Hope u are well Joe! September 12h here with Dr Alvarez at Fresno Kaiser. Can't wait to hear how you are doing

September 12th here and sooooooo nervous!