tracey1964

Six day out and Im kinda feeling worst. I feel as I did the day I got out of surgery with not being able or at least feeling as I cant or am having trouble breathing. Is this normal? Ive thought about calling my dr but....
 
Today is the first day to be taking care of my daughter all alone since I was banded so maybe thats why I feel so bad????
 
On a happier note I did get on the scale this morning and im down 8lbs. Goodness if only I had the will power to be on a iquid diet maybe I wouldnt have had to get this done??? LOL JK I know I needed to get this. I needed to get this done so that I could have a long happy healthy life with my family. So that I could chase my daughter around the play ground when she starts walking. So that I could fianlly for once in my life be happy with myself. But this is no piece of cake. It is hard and I am just so thankful for all my family and friends who have helped out and I so happy that I have the site. It has really helped me.
 
Tomorrow I go in to have the staples removed so praying that will help with a little bit of the pain. And on to a soft food diet. Kinda scared about that though. This gas is killing me. LOL no really it is.

today makes 7 weeks banded for me...what a journey already!
 
THE NUMBERS & NSVs
jan 23-241-before pre-op diet
feb 15-233 surgery day
apr 4-212
 
i completed 30 minutes on the elliptical yesterday!!! it was my first time on that evil machine! it works the hell outta you! my pants are really baggy especially in the crouch and thigh areas:) tightly wearing a stretchy cotton XL shirt!
 
THE SCALE-so i decided that i'd weigh in weekly because i was driving myself crazy with the scale. i was banded on a wednesday so my weigh in days are wednesdays. i joined the april weight loss challenge and the weigh in days are sundays so twice a week it is for april! this has been difficult for me because i was weighing multiple times daily! pure torture!
 
FILL-i had my first fill last Friday and i am not sure how i feel about it (see previous post for details on the fill). there are times when i feel hungrier (real hunger) than i did before my fill...weird. i don't think i really needed a fill to begin with as i was not really feeling hungry and was still losing weight. i could only take an additional 2 cc's on top of the one that was added at surgery. i think i was expecting the fill to be some magical thing that would take over my body and create some type of change...and maybe that's what it's supposed to do, not sure yet. and maybe that's what it did, also not sure yet! i do know that the fill has made me think more about the way i am eating and i have been slowed down at least three times by my body telling me "you are eating too fast" and "that's enough". so the fill is working...i just don't understand why i feel physical hunger more now...any ideas? going to see my surgeon next week for my 2 month check-up...i'll see what he has to say about this...
 
FOOD-i have been super consumed with thoughts of food ever since i was given the green light to be on step 4...which is basically the step where you can eat like a normal person...but i feel that i can't really because i don't know what that is. i talked with a fellow band mate that was banded a year ago and she suggested that i go back to eating the way i did before the band as she had. you know, eat regular like we all did before the band!!! NOW WAY! my eating habits pre-band were horrible and there is no way i'm doing that again i don't care how little i can eat...there will be no fried anything, no pizza, no chips, no sweets, and no "bad carbs"...these are all my downfall...as an overweight person i KNOW what to eat, but as an overweight person in recovery i feel lost. i crave the flavor that is crammed into all the bad stuff and i am not much of cook so this has been difficult. i am also one of those folks that eats rather simply, meaning i eat the same stuff over and over and don't do much to expand my menus:/ this is a major goal for me...MAJOR...
 
YUM-i went to starbucks for the first time since january and ordered a skinny decaf vanilla latte--120 cals...can't become a habit, but it was good:)
 
PUPPY-hubby and i were walking with our 2 year old black lab miles and a family was moving and asked us of we wanted another lab...we were like "noooo". they said they couldn't take her to their new place and were going to take her to the pound...they said she was current on her shots and was house broken...so we looked at her and the next thing i know we are walking home with two dogs! she is six months and we named her daisy!!
 
happy spring all...until next week...in weight loss and beyond

During my psychological evaluation the psychologist and I were talking about exercise. She was very helpful and said the best way to start is just do something. Something. Don't set out thinking you're going to do an hour on the elliptical the first day. You'll get too tired and be too sore the next day and get discouraged. Do 3 minutes. The next day, do 5 minutes. Or do 3 again. Just get your body and mind used to doing something, everyday. Mark it off on a calendar and train your brain to dislike seeing an unchecked box.
 
I always thought of myself as busy. We have a 3 story house and I'm up and down all day after work (where I'm up and down all day!). I've exercised tons before (the Insanity workout, jogging, etc) but I do so much for a few weeks then I'm done. My body is tired and I'm done.
 
So I thought....you know, I can do something every day. And now I've started

YAY for today! I got to start mushies today. So I woke up, did 32 minutes of Zumba and ate the awesomest scrambled eggs ever. It was really hard not to drink with my meal. I tried to practice this pre surgery, and it did not go well. I told myself it would be easier when I was only eating a 1/4 cup of food. No, not easier. However, I am not going to dwell on this because this morning has been sooo great. I feel fantastic. It felt so good to work up a sweat with the Zumba. I have been so cravin, shakin my booty. I did the low intensity. I was not able to add my own steez or Shakira it out, as this hurt a little.
 
I'm planning to eat some cottage cheese for lunch and some beans for dinner. I'm also going to go on a walk later. I am soo happy to be on mushies. We are leaving on a trip tomorrow and it will be much easier to be able to eat a little something.

ok so i finally hit onederland and then BAM..stupid TOM and i'm back in the 200's. I know it should go away when tom leaves, but i was so pissed. anyway. i went to the mall today to get a pair of size 12 jeans to prayerfully get in on may 20th my one year anniversary. i just wanted to try them on and see how close i was to puttn those suckers on. well once i got home i realized they were skinny jeans, which means they are even tighter. so i tried and tried and i layed across the bed, AND GOT THEM SUCKAS ZIPPED, now when i stood up i had this huge roll of fat sitting on top, but i got them zipped. now would i wear them like that. ummmm no, but i was just happy i got them zipped. it's gonna be a lot of hard work for about a month and a half to get in them comfortably, but we shall see. if i can find another pair of 12 jeans on sale that are not skinny jeans i'll be totally content with that.

My surgery date is April 6th. I have lost 5lbs on my pre op diet but I have had some slip ups. I am worried about so many things right now. Two biggies are, if I can't handle the pre op diet am I really gonna be ok with this life change and the biggest is.... am I going to make it through surgery ok? It is surgery and things go wrong. I will feel so much better when surgery is over.

Went yesterday for first fill and I admit I was nervous and scared. It took three attempts to locate port. The first attempt did not hurt, 2nd attempt was worst than the first. Wow the needle is so long. After the second attempt I went to xray to locate exactly where the port is and my goosh she got it. I had 5.2 cc in my band and she added 1.0 cc now I'm at 6.2 cc in my 10cc band. Passed the swallowing test without a problem. I was on liquids yesterday, will have soft foods today and regular diet tomorrow. My tummy is a little sore around the port area. I marked my port area, so they can get it the first time next time. Overall I feel great woke up not hungry. Yesterday had a half of protein shake and a 1/2 cup cream of wheat and a sugar free pudding and I was full. Let's see how long this last lol. Today I have only had a 1/2 cup of coffee so far gonna try and get a protein shake in. Gonna start setting goals for myself and see how it goes from there. Good luck to all.
 
Total weight loss to date 30 lbs.