Tired of not feeling good enough

I'm tired of not feeling good enough. My whole life (I'm twenty two) I have in some way felt that I am not a "worthy" as someone else because I my size. I was always slightly bigger than my friends, but not overweight by anymeans. So why did I feel that way. Because I allowed people to make me feel that way. I was funny and I had lots of friends, but that was it. I was never the girl the guys wanted to date, just the girl that the guys wanted to talk to about other girls. My whole life people have made little comments that made me feel bad about myself but I just laughed them off. I just feel like I have been on the sidelines of a long time watching everyone else live their lives. I watch romantic comedy movies and think that will never be me, because I am not worth that kind of love...again because of my size. I need to get to the point where I am okay with me. I am not Ashley the fat girl. I am just Ashley. I feel like a thin person on the inside, but I just don't look like it on the outside so I feel conflicted. Why are we defined by our size? I want to be 140 pounds. That is a good size for my height. But if I'm not okay with the person I am at 240, then I'm not going to be okay with the person I am at 140. Our worth is not relative to our size. It's not the smaller we are the more worthy of happiness we are. It's time for me to realize that, or I will never get the weight off. I'm good enough, and so are you. You always have been, and you always will be. We need to start taking care of ourselves. Not for anyone but ourselves. We are worth it, and that's the bottom line.

AMEN Ashley! You said it! We are worth it! I'm quiet a few years older then you are, but I've been exactly where you are. I'm just so glad that you are discovering this at a young age. I didn't discover it until just about a year ago. I've lived my entire life for others and trying to find that "love". Truth is, we have to love ourselves (in a healthy way of course) before we can truly love others. And we have to take care of ourselves if we want to live life to the fullest and be there for our loved ones. I'm just now getting to that... but better late then never! At least it's not too late for me. I can have a better, healthier, fuller life then I've ever imagined. And so can you! My best to you and may God bless you!