Just because I can eat it doesn't mean I should!!!

I partied last night. For the first time in almost 5 months I really over did it in every way.

I drank (althought had as few of calories as possible doing it) and ate much more than I should have.

My husband's family had a "benefit" dinner for my son. We are sending him to Austria in July with an Ambassador program. We have been fund raising and so his aunt invitedthe whole family over and cooked mexican food and had everyone over for a donation dinner. The first round of supper I did a good job. I ate the the right amount of portions and was no longer full. I just had a fill 2 days ago and things were going good. But then with every drink my inhibitions lowered. I remember when me and my girlfriends would say don't let me do anything stupid when I am drunk. Then we were talking about guys....now I will be talking about food! I drank and ate and I be after 4 months of keeping my calories under 1200 a day (usually 800-1000/daily) I betI ate 3000 calories. My fingers are swollen, My face feels greasy. I don't feel good at all.

I have proven to myself that with the band I CAN eat anything (I kind of already knew that) but just because I can eat it doesn't mean I should. I didn't listen to my stomach that was satisfied I listened to my head that will always be happy to take in more food.

Here is the great thing. Today is a new day. We are 5 hours away from home, but I have packed my meals in case there aren't good choices around and so I am not worried about getting back on the program that is my life. I may have put myself back a week. I may not reach ONEderland by Aprill 1st. That is my fault and I will still get there.

No, the band isn't magic, It is a tool. I don't want to be so tight that I CAN"T eat anything. I just have to be good listen to my stomach and put that child that is my head hunger back in the box.

Today is a new day!

Good job forgiving yourself!

Question- I know about the PB thing, but when you overeat now, what does it feel like...do you feel fuller, like it hurts (you know, those times pre-band like Thanksgiving where you ate until it hurt), or does the band just slow down the food so much that either your loose enough for the food to wash through (especially if you're drinking too), or at some point you'll PB if the pouch is full? Until I can get my head around what is real nunger and what is head hunger I'm sure there will be times I eat too much...just wondering what 'too much' feels like post band (especially when you don't have much restriction at the beginning) and if it feels the same as pre-band? Thanks- BG

At first eating too much gave me chest pain. That was pretty obvious. Last night when i ate too much it was spread out over a period of about 6 hours so I didn't eat it all at one time. Now I just feel full. I've only had one episode of PBing and it was horrible! it really isn't like it sounds. Sliming means you have alot of extra thick slime to spit out. PBing is actually vomiting the thick slime. I think of bleching as voluntary I guess, like drinking soda and you can feel this blech coming and you let it out. PBing is like vomiting....it just comes out.

The funny thing is that I see what I eat and say I ate alot. (Not yesterday, but on a daily basis) then I start looking around and realize it is only a fraction of what I used to eat! Of what I wanted to eat! Of what I craved!

What a difference a band can make.

I thought about the fact that over eating has not given me chest pain. It is more subtle now. I'll just have to be more careful because I can't imagine finding out I stretched my band.

I have been thinking that my serving of chicken salad is too much for me to eat .It has really started to look like a lot to eat. I just measured it out and it is a little under a cup. Funny how perspectives change!

WOW! Thanks for all the detail; that really helped explain things. The day I say 1 C of food is a lot, is the day I do the happy dance! You give me hope JA. Thanks! -BG

thank you for sharing your vulnerabilities - may God Bless you and cause you to prosper on this journey :wink_smile: