My Thoughts as my Journey moves forward...

I can't seem to stop thinking about FOOD. I keep thinking what is wrong with me. Now that Im on my pre-op diet I have a lot of time to reflect. It controls my life..it really does. I think about what i have in my cabinets and what i can eat when I put my son down for a nap. And now I'm sitting here and thinking to my self WTF is wrong with me. Why can't I just be normal and not think about food all the time.:cursing: It really frustrates me to know now how much food revolves around my life. I hate it. I hate it I hate it. I can't wait to have the surgery and be done with it. I know it will be hard but I really dont wanna live like this anymore. I wanted a peanut butter and jelly sandwhich today soo bad. ANd I almost made me one. And then I stopped and thought Am I really gonna let a pb & j keep me from having my surgery?? Ohhh it's so much harder then i thouhgt. So so much!

I know the one thing that always grabs my attention here is when someone says "I hardly even think about food anymore"..."it's just fuel and I have a normal relationship with it now". Those kinds of comments always give me hope, as I know head hunger is going to be my hardest challenge.

Re-directing (like we do with our kids) and finding something else to replace the food, seems to be a common suggestion here..."Feel like binging...knit a scarf"...LOL..."it keeps your mind and hands busy". I'll have to take on a LOT of new hobbies! Let me know when you find the answer, and you're doing the right thing (self-talk). Good luck. -BG