I don't know why I am such a weak person!

I used to be so strong, both physically and metally. I don't know why all of that has changed, but it has. I have started a new job working lots of O.T. Driving 45 minutes each way and sitting all day staring at a computer. I have made myself stop eating at my desk. Which is helping. I ONLY take the stairs. I sleep with my C-PAP every night. I take my thyroid meds and vitamins everyday. I try to get in at least my 60 grams of protien. I am getting about 6-8 hours sleep on average per night. I just can't make myself have energy for anything. I hear my daughter say she goes to the gym and is spending 1-2 hours there each night and loving every minute of it and I just can't get motivated. She was 290 lbs. and still doing better than me. I want to give up pop, but I find I just don't. I go in for what will probably be my last fill since I am losing my Tricare ins in the middle of March. I will pray that my fill will inspire me to lose. Goodness know that the Lap-Band isn't MAKING me lose. It is only a tool and I know that. I think that if I could get my bowels to work correctly, I would probably feel good enough to move and exercise. I am so hyperexteded in my stomach. I am miserable. The dr. has given me lactalose. I hope it helps soon. I have done very well getting in my water, so that shouldn't be the reason for the constipation. I just want to do as well as others I see here. I have the want, will I ever have the drive? Please pray for me. My short term goal is to lose 5 lbs by 2-1-09. That will put me where I was before I gained 12 for the holidays. God Bless!

So sorry to hear that you are struggling. The fact that you are even writing this means you are not giving up. am sure everyone struggled at the holidays, Lord knows I tried at least one of every cookie I baked. Thankfully I didn't gain nything by it. I made myself exercise even more because of the sweets. Good Luck with the 5 pounds and hang in there.