Frustration Nation

What the freaking f*ck is up with my appetite? TOM came and all of a sudden I am RAVENOUS! I mean like a starving animal. I know some of it is head hunger having to do with some minor stuff in my RL but sheesh.

Brownies, cake, Oreos (I used to HATE Oreos), pancakes, honey glazed chicken, fried chicken (used to LOATH fried chix). Furthermore where is my restriction? It is all but gone. I can put away a full plate of food. EASILY.

So with that said, here is my plan from now on. I am making a fill appointment and am gonna request a band placement check for a month from now. In that time I will really closely assess my hunger and appetite.

I want to be logical about this an not jump to being super tight because TOM is making me a beast. But TOM was also preceded by almost 2 straight weeks of partying and very little exercise. I am not going let myself get dismayed about being stuck in the 250's. I refuse to fail. I refuse to stop now.

Admittedly I feel leaps and bounds better than I have EVER felt in my whole life and in the past few weeks especially my confidence has just begun to soar. I will accept these last few weeks as major NonScale progress. My weight may have been still and my eating not so grand but my soul and mind have been working overtime. Okay. Im okay.