A New Life - my 6 month anniversary

Today I am down to 230. I went in yesterday to get a fill. He have me .3ml so I am now up to 2.4ml total. I'm hoping that he didn't overfill me. I can drink liquids, but only a couple of bites of actual food. Not that I'm complaining. I really don't care how much I can eat. As long as I'm eating a bit and am losing weight, all is good!

I am officially down 60 pounds today. I have 50 to go to get to my goal weight. I am firmly in size 20s, and in a few 18s as well. MOST of my closet is now worthless. While my eating addiction is now under control, my spending addiction is not!

I find that I am now more excited about non-scale victories than I am about the scale itself. In the next couple of days, I will be in the 220s...a place I haven't been since high school. But I am WAY more excited about shopping at Old Navy and in the regular sections of Walmart and Target (for one or two items).

Things are more enjoyable for me. I never let my weight stop me from anything...I still went horseback riding, hiking, kayaking, etc. But now, it's SO much easier. I don't have to worry about looking stupid...or, more specifically, fat. I looked fat in the saddle. I looked fat going down the river. I was the fat girl struggling to keep up (but I DID keep up). Now, I look so much better...and it's all EASIER!

I have moments where I feel bad about this being so easy...guilty even. It's not all easy, but it's a LOT easier than my previous diets.

The hardships are such that I don't mind them. So WHAT if I can't eat more than three or four bites! So WHAT if it hurts when I eat too much! I had 32 YEARS of eating too much! So WHAT for ALL of it! The benefits are SO worth it! I'm not even talking about the health benefits. I KNOW there are so many of those. I didn't really have health problems beforehand. I wasn't depressed or anything like that. I know they would have some soon enough, but I was blessed. I'm totally talking about superficial benefits. I look better. I get attention from men. Even better than that, I get more attention from my HUSBAND. I feel better. I can DO more. It's just amazing. Better than I ever thought.

I know I have been so blessed for this to work out so well. I hope and pray that it continues to work out so well. This was one of the best things I have ever done. It's not easy...I have to do quite a bit different...but it's SO worth it.

Here's to the next 6 months and, hopefully my goal of 180 pounds!!!