Cheers To Me!

Well, as I sit here sipping my first liquid of my many liquids for the next month, I feel as though this will be the toughest part of this journey. I mean if I can get through absolutely no food for a month, I can get through anything. Last night was Jason's 7th birthday and we had pizza, salad, and goodies. At my "Last Meal" it was what I would have wanted, but what did I actually have 2 pieces of pizza, a little salad, and a piece of cake. Minimal compared to how much pizza I would usually go through. Yes, I did give in to my last carbonated beverages, but thats ok too, I didn't go overboard. I had cake, but no ice cream. Right now I feel its time to let go of my dying friend. I am at compete peace with my decision to go through with surgery. I am on warning mode to my husband and children. I don't know what type of person I am going to be during this liquid stage. I may be fine, but I also might be an emotional wreck. I am prepared as I can be for now.