I'm so out of control....

I'm still unfilled. Wow, I can't believe what a difference my appetite is between having some saline in my band and having NO saline in my band. My eating...God help me....I am really having a hard time. I'm eating too much.

I wish I could just have gotten the band, gotten a couple - a few fills and went on with my life. I mean, that is how I thought it would be. Well, I am very discouraged with my choice of weight loss surgery. Sometimes I think I should have just stayed morbidly obese, I'd have less worry.

I don't know if I made the right choice in the clinic I chose. I wish I could go somewhere else sometimes. I more or less have to go to them for life now. Sometimes I feel like they don't care about me. I mean, I know they don't care about me, but that they don't care if I ever come in again after surgery. That hurts. I wonder if other people feel that way about their clinics that they went to? It's almost like they never ever want to see me again after surgery.