relaxing and sad too!

I guess after cooking for my family and watching the food network allday i wanted soooooooooo bad to eat something...so i just slowly ate some crackers along with my broth...it was somewhat satisfying but i still want to eat more...I won't dare do it though...

My husband was upset because i did eat a cracker, but oh well...I won't get on a scale yet because I want to be surprised after a week long of doing this again...

I am kinda of sad because of what my life will be like w/o eating but i will atleast get to taste samples so i am getting over it.

What i must learn is to eat things of quality that satisfy me and i will be just fine...

Not much pain today but along side my port...hard to raise up out of bed with the pain,getting better..

I do better at night,not wanting to eat,afternoons are my hardest....I think it will get better,once i go back to work..