Banding Eve

Oh my God, I never expected to be this nervous. I gave myself the mother of all migranes last night worrying about it.

I feel quite teary. I just want it to be over so I can get on with it. The anticipation is killing me.

I'm also still lacking confidence - what if I turn into a milkshake drinking, icecream monster!!!! What then!!! What if I becoem one of these crazy people who for whatever, deep rooted, reason want to stay fat and cheat the band. This is my last and best hope of living without a weight problem. God even writing that down....'life without a weight problem'..... seems so overwealming & exciting & scary & the impossible dream.

Soooo... here I go. What started out as a lightening bolt wake up call a couple of months ago is now a reality. Wish me luck.......

F