Fear and Optifast

Doc ordered 2 weeks of optifast pre-op. In my zest to begin the process of being banded, I orderd the optifast right away, and it was delivered at lightning spped. Unfortunately I was not home, and hod to go to purolator to pick it up. This was not a big deal because it was literally a few minutes (like 3) up the street by car. However when I got there and the uniformed lady handed me the box, I was horrified to see that it said optifast weight loss such and such in huge writing all over the box. I mean I know it is not secret that I am fat, but I really hated the fact that the contents were explicitly described on the outside.

That was friday July 27th. I decided not to wait until August 01, but to try the optifast sooner. THe thought of quitting food, (my friend, lover and constant companion) cold turkey terrified me to death. It should be stated here that I quit smoking cold turkey back in April of this year. Letting go of the food is so different.

My plan was, and still is to ease into optifast, and actually to cheat. There I said it. I am going to cheat, I am not going to give up food for 14 consecutive days in exchange for a packet of powder.