3 Day Pre Op Starts Tomorrow (bit of a rant)

Its getting closer to the craziest thing that I doing to myself. I would of never imagined weightless surgery.

I was always a tiny thing, but once started high school it went all down hill from there. Even more once school and college was over. No forced to have gym every day. The cafe food was extremely fattening. The burgers, pizza, fries, poutine, chicken fingers. Anything deep fried. I don't think I remembered anything healthy.

I can't wait for this to be done.

I can't fit in any of my "big clothes anymore" I loved wearing jeans and tight fitted clothes. Now I resort to leggings and baggy shirts. I just want to burn it all.

And Im tired of eating too much food, even more then I need. and I feel frustrated with myself. Its so depressing that all my old clothes are to small; the clothes I want to wear. I couldn't wear shorts all this summer they were all small, size 31 waist was even too small for me!

I had no motivation the past 6 months. Its a New Year and a New me, cliche I know but it really is going to stick this time. Im sick of tired feeling huge, out of breath, sweats, eating junk, etc.

Happy New Year!