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Things I Miss

CrazyCatLady

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Something that's been nagging at me since surgery....

 

I miss being able to chug water. Badly.

 

I'm almost 5 weeks out from surgery, and still can barely hit 40oz of fluid intake a day. That being said - that amount is double my intake from the week before, when I discovered how wonderful straws truly are. I thought all liquids gave me the burps; instead, I can drink pretty much everything now burp-free, provided it's through a straw.

 

I had pre-employment paperwork today for a new job, and while I was filling out the mountain of legal stuff, the woman casually asks for me to give a urine sample for drug tox testing....and I secretly panicked! I had been sip sip sipping along on my water all morning, but I was no where near prepared to give 50ml of urine on the spot! Heck, I'm lucky to pass 200ml total on any given day! Yes, I'm chronically dehydrated since surgery, and it sucks.

 

In the past, this would not have been an issue. I was notorious for being able to chug a full liter of water in under 30 seconds as a pre-op. Now it takes me the better part of 6 hours to get down one of those 16.9oz bottles. WTF. After 3 hours of drinking as much as I possibly could, I was only able to produce 20ml of urine...they sent the test bottle off anyways, but I have that sneaking suspicion that I'll be required to retest.

 

See, little things like this nag at me as a post-op. I was prepared to possibly not be able to eat red meat/steak again, so I spent quality pre-op time eating a TON of beef, and I was ok with that going away. I had no idea I'd end up lactose intollerant...to the point where I wake up at night, covered in sweat and dreaming of cheese, to the point where I can taste it in my mouth!!

 

The social aspects of food are hitting me hardest. I suppose that this is normal for everyone. I've been lucky in that I have been somewhat isolated from other people for the last month, but food advertising is everywhere, and it makes me want to strangle people. If I have to see one of those Pizza Hut ads for that damn CHEESY BITE PIZZA one more time, I swear I'll go postal!!!! Bread and cheese! I'd rather have it than sex! ....at least, I think I would. Truth be told, I'm not even sure if I would really enjoy it anymore.

 

And that's what it comes down to....food hold absolutely no enjoyment for me any more. I can't think of anything in my food choices that tastes GOOD right now. Some things are more tolerable than others, but there is nothing that I truly savor, and it makes me sad.

 

I'm sure the fact that I'm "stalled" does not help matters. I chose to consume a small amount of something I shouldn't, and gained 4 lbs of fluid overnight...which has stubbornly clung on for the last 3 days. And now I am terrified to eat pretty much anything. Worried that I went in debt and nearly died from complications...all for 42lbs of weight loss, which may or may not stay off.

 

Ugh, frustrated. I'm at that point where I'm not far enough to see positives (no, I haven't lost any clothing sizes or had any NSVs yet), but buried in negatives, and it's hard to see when things will improve.



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I had my first negative tolerance to iceberg lettuce and onions, it was horrible. I also am having a hard time enjoying food like i used to so worried about my eating habits and the feelings i get in my stomach. Unsure what they are really. Am I full am I starving????I can hold about 100 ml of soup or liquid and about 2 oz of solid if I drag it out to an hour eating. I would love to sink my teeth into a hot melty saucy piece of pizza nothing else does a thing for me, I am 4 weeks post op and my stomach still perfers baby food yougurt and soft stuff.

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Be patient. I am 8 or 9 weeks out, I forget, and just a couple of weeks ago I was lamenting to hubby that food was no longer a pleasure but a big old pain in the butt. But that is rapidly changing.

Yesterday the company ordered pizza for lunch, so I thought I would give it try, planning to eat just the toppings of a pepperoni pizza made by a local pizzaria. I thoroughly enjoyed pulling the cheesy tomatoey topping off and savoring it. Then I thought I might eat the thin but not crispy crust, and finished about 2/3 of it. I felt stuffed for 5 - 10 minutes, then the feeling went away. It was worth it!

And lately I have been enjoying homemade cheeseburgers without the bun. I can only eat half of a cooked patty with real cheddar, but it is oh-so-delicious. And it does not make me feel bad in any way, physically or otherwise!

Hang in there, it will and does get better!

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Hold on Lady. You were strong enough to make it this far... And congrats on the 42 pounds! That is awesome. I think we are about the same amount of time out and have got to say you hit everything on the head. I think ALL these feelings are normal. I think once you can start adding things into your menu, it won't be as bad. At least that's my hope lol. I deal with the food problem daily. I work at a call center and 85% of the people I work with are over weight. They have brought the CHEEZY BITES pizza in and asked me if I wanted any. So i understand. To think, you are down 42 lbs, you are about to start a new job, and you are strong enough to make it. You got it chica. Stay positive. The scale has no where to go but down :D

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42 lbs is amazing. I'm very proud of you. I know you've had serious complications, and even though this post is not a happy post, you still have your sense of humor.

You'll be in my thoughts.

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You have been through so much since surgery and 42 pounds is awesome for the complications you have dealt with. I'm a water chugger too. I can go through an entire bottle of water at night, and sometimes refill it in the bathroom sink if I get up and I'm thirsty. I am pretty sure I drink about 5 or 6 16.9 bottles of water a day and yet. The sip and not drink or chug is going to trip me up I think. I am going to start practicing sipping and drinking out of a class instead of the water bottle for the next two weeks.

Good luck to you and I hope things smooth out for you soon.

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I was going to post a topic tonight about the fact that I just drank down 24 oz of water not long after I drank my 8 oz shake. It hit me that my stomach will only hold a couple of oz. at a time. My stomach must be huge now. I admit I could have done the same after eating a whole meal too. Portion control is going to be a battle for me, for life I think. My counselor says that I should expect to go through the stages of grief after the sleeve because I will morn food, my changing relationship with it, and how much of my marriage relationship is based on our social eating. I've been on the liquid diet for 19 days now and it has already challenged our marriage habits. Like breakfast out every Sunday morning and Chinese out every Saturday night.. ect. This is such a great place of ideas and insights that help me feel not alone in my thoughts and habits. Hope your stall breaks soon and your job turns out great!

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You are approx 1 month out, right? I have been talking to two wonderful ladies, one sleeved here in the U.S. and one in Mexico, and they are both so positive and doing so well. They saw that first month as an adventure, and said to just get it in your mind that "this is not forever" and you WILL enjoy food again. One of them had a 1/4 of a burger and 2 french fries yesterday on a family outing, and the other still camps and enjoys wine and loves to cook. They just do it all in much smaller, healthier quantities now!! So that day is coming!!

Also, at some point, our stomachs do hold approx 4-6 oz at a time, after all of the healing is done. So while you may not chug that entire bottle, you will eventually be able to take normal drinks of water. Spacing it out more is the key!!

And believe me, I am NOT sleeved yet and these are the things I tell myself on a daily basis. :)

Good luck!!!

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As a fellow desert dweller I know well the pleasure of guzzling water. a 16 oz. bottle of water is consumable in one motion right now and I can follow it with another in a matter of seconds.

Maybe something added to the water would help. I just sampled a product called True Lemon, an unsweetened mix that adds a bit of lemon flavor to water. It might be worth a try.

Forty two pounds is pretty good for less than 5 weeks. Don't give up, your metabolism has changed dramatically . . . for the better.

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Just found out I have to try to do the urine tox screen again...not enough sample. And my urine output was only 50ml yesterday....total. This is bad news. I may need some IV hydration at this point.

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