Today is June 1st

It is also the first day of a long and winding road. My life feels like it has been rolling downhill, out of control. I am ready to put a halt to this path, turn a corner, and discover something new. I'm looking for a new, healthier, sassy woman who weighs 160 lbs. The problem is that the person walking on this road is 350 lbs and feels trapped in a body that can't move.

I decided to look into gastric sleeve surgery after speaking with my PCP. I have seen the internist, surgeon, behaviorist, GI doc, and the sleep specialist. I have been scoped upper/lower, labs drawn, ekg done, and after speaking with GHP (dr's office) I have been approved. I will find out my surgery date tomorrow.

I have informed my sister of this decision, but no one else in my family. I am not ready to discuss this with anyone else until the date is set. I am going this for me, I want to have my new path set, then I will include the kids, siblings, and parents.

I am looking out into my back yard. The leaves on the trees are dancing in the wind. The sun is shining, it is 73 degrees and windy. It is a perfect late spring day. It really feels like I am starting something new today. It hasn't seemed real until today.

It is the first step of a new Journey.