feeling like a train wreck!

I cant beleive that i feel so terrible!!! most of the time i have no energy, and if i do get a flash of energy it only lasts for about half an hour!!!! then its off to sleep i go.... i feel like a train reck! i found out last night that im averageing 3 kgs loss per week so i guess my body needs to be cut some slack!!!! what about my head tho???

my hubby is quitting smoking and had found a sweet tooth and a hunger pain that never ends... hes eating all this crap infront of me which is seriously hard but i am kind of getting use to it. its probably good timmng as to get some kind of immunity to watching everyone else eat this stuff (and not get fat i might add).

SSSSOOOOOO apart from watching this go on also sending my hubby out to dinner with my mum cause they are all missing going out for dinner (me included)i finally cracked thisevening when i got a $1500 extra bill in the mail for my surgury!!!! i broke down. lost it....come unstuck!!!! and there it was that famous question....WHAT THE HELL HAVE I DONE! you know the one. i have never dealt with stress very well and this was a moment where i felt like a total basket case! i cryed/sobbed for about an hour and still feel like i got the itchy eyeballs!!!!

i have to call the docs tomoz and see if i cant get some idea as to why i got this bill!!! i had an educated estimate that wasnt worth the paper it was written on!!! (unless they made a mistake) AAAARRRRRRHHHHHHHHGGGGGGG bottom line. i am totally screwed if i got and extra bill of $1500.

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