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Mind Over Matter

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Kime-lou

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I have hit many stumbling blocks of late and admit to falling a few times. I regret this and do not blame my band at all, I blame myself for becoming complacent and just plain out not caring enough.

 

When I get down and out I tend to get into the "I just don't care" mode- not a good place to be.

 

I haven't had a fill since Feb and am really feeling it now. I get hungry pretty quick, this lets me know the band does work, which properly used. I go in Thursday to see my surgeron and get a fill- pretty excited. I will be happy to drink protein shakes for a day and have them fill me up.

 

Last night I did a fridge purge of all the bad stuff that I was falling prey to. I know this is my own fault- not the foods or the bands. I am not as strong as I would like to be when it comes to certain things. I must work on that.

 

Work is killing me - long hours and a lot of hurry up and wait. Right now I am waiting on several teachers to do their part so I can finish mine. There slowness, makes my days long and irritating.

 

I woke up this morning and told myself that today was a new day- fresh with no mistakes (A line in Anne of Green Gables- love that movie :)_) I am going to make this a good day- I have that power. I can do it and I will.

 

I have said this several times of the last month and still manage to stumble in a few days. However, this time I have taken a few steps to help myself. I am back to my journal and I have made meal plans.

 

I will not gain this weight back, I will not fail. I will move forward. I will not fall!! It is imbarrishing to faulter as much as I have, but I am not pefect and I have my issues.

 

There are some bandsteres on here that are the "perfect" patient and don't seem to ever have a problem or struggle with this process, but that isn't me and I have to accept that I am not them. I have to stand up, shake it off and get back on the horse.

 

I hope that others who read this and have stumbled will join me in getting back on it. I hope that those who stumble find courage and support that they are not alone in the fight. We can do this if we continue fighting, but if we throw our hands up in defeat the fat will win.

 

My rump is dusty and sore from all the "throws", but I am jumping back on!

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Raising my hand in "imperfection"! I bring the effort.....everyday...that's all I require of myself. I also make daily goals..small ones. Like today I am going to drink 64+ oz of water. If that is all I do then it was a successful day. It's hard to get back up after falling sometimes. The difference between being successful and not being successful....is just getting back up. Be kind to yourself sweet lady!

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