Either This Or That...i Hate Not Knowing......
By Shelleymb
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This was how it was all planned out:
June 29th--Ty and I go in for our dietion appointment and surgeon consultation
July 2nd--Ty leaves for San Diego for almost 6 months
All the time in between would be us saving to put as much down on our surgeries as possible
December 14th--Ty comes home and we see the surgeon again to start our Pre-Op diets
December 26ish--We get banded...
Well all of that has a huge chance of changing, Ty might have to stay in San Diego until February. He then told me if that was the case, I might as well go to Japan for 6 months starting in November, and have the surgery when I get home. That way we won't have to finance anything, we would have saved enough for both surgeries.
As much as I like the idea of not having to finance anything, I hate the idea of having to wait a year to get banded. I'm having a hard enough time waiting 6 months, let alone a whole year. Ty doesn't understand. He just keeps saying, "What's another year?"
1 Year =
- Me hating what I look like for another year
- Not being able to do all the activities that I want for another year
- Feeling terrible about myself for another year
- Not fitting in my clothes for another year
- Running the risk of gaining more wait for another year
- Giving up on everything and not wanting to be banded in a year
- Depression.
This whole situation is depressing to me. So now I don't know what to do. Should I cancel the appointment that we have on the 29th of this month and wait the year or keep the appointment and hope he doesn't get extended. All of this makes me sick to my stomach. Any advice or encouragement would be appreciated.
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