Orientation In 2 Days

I'm so excited to start this journey. I have been overweight my entire life. It has never really been a problem. I guess you can say it all started when I went to college. I started being able to go out for the first time and I must say the options of clothing for "big girls" is depressing lol. All of my friends were skinny but that never really bothered me. The "problem" started after I lost a bunch of weight. I started to become more confident in myself. I was still big but I felt big and sexy lol. Then I came home and started eating everything that wasn't nailed down. I wasn't in school and I wasn't working so I would just sit at home all day and do nothing but get bigger and bigger. I thought that I would use my time to work out to try to lose more weight. well, that just ended with me gaining more weight. Before I knew it, I was 300 pounds. I would look in the mirror and not feel like a 300 pound woman. I felt sexy but I still understood that I needed to lose weight. One day I was at the bus stop and this random lady was telling me how she was going to get the lap band surgery. She told me everything about it and the next week I went to my doctor and asked if I could get it. He gave me a referral and now I'm going to orientation in 2 days. I'm so excited. The more that I think about it The happier that I get. I know I'm young, but I do not want to spend another day being obese. I don't want any health problems. I just found out I have pcos. This was devastating. I want to be not only a new me but a healthy me. So going forward I'm going to work my ass off (literally) getting this pre-op weight off so that I can start my new life as a healthier, happier me =)