Hi everyone. Well grumpy sour puss Texas bandit is here to update:

It's been a rough couple of weeks. My hubby, due to medical reasons, cannot drive anymore so that has disrupted my normal workout routine for mornings. I am still trying to feel my way thru this. I bought some dumbells to use at home and I still walk for an hour on my lunches. Friday-Sunday I hit the gym, hard. I still feel like I can and should do more, but I just dont see how it's possible with my schedule. I cant work out after work either. I gotta pick up my child from his sitter.I wish daylight savings time wasnt here either. I cant even go walking after i pick up my hubby. I dont feel safe at night by myself walking.

Despite all that I am losing weight steadily now since I've been on my kidney meds. My dr, doesnt know how long I have to be on them, but at least for now I dont blow up if I eat anything salty. My diet has been really good. I try not to beat myself up too much, but I do aim for prefection. I do under 1200 calories a day.

I got my 3rd fill on 11/08/11. I can feel restriction a little more. I have gotten a bit stuck a few times, but no vomiting. I just need to slow down and stop talking and eating! LOL!

I've lost 38lbs since 08/28/11. I feel better and look great. Family holiday pictures are in two weeks, so I'm really trying to lose another 5lbs or so. I havent been this thin since I was about 22 so 12 years ago. I have gone from a size 22/24 to a size 16!! From 3x to XL. I've done more clothes shopping and went thru my closet and tried on everything and bagged up everything that is too big and looked stupid.

I just keep thinking all of it is gonna stop one day. I feel that one day I wont lose anymore. I know its a crazy stupid fear, but does anyone else feel like that?? I just feel that one day the scale wont more. I weight myself everyday still, but I dont go crazy if I gain one pound. I honestly havent had the wild swings up and down since I've been on my pills. I just dont feel I can get down to 230! That is my goal for now. Can I lose another 38lbs? I'm finding it hard to believe for some reason. Maybe its cause I've never been thin in my whole life? I dunno.