It's sinking in...but I wanna see it in writing

So I called my insurance company and they said I was approved as an inpatient. However it's not showing up online as approved. So officially I guess I am in process. I was assured by the nurse that I was good so I am going along now as though ONE MONTH FROM TODAY I WILL BE BANDED! It doesn't seem real. Not after all of the commercials watched, hemming and hawing, classes, seminars, tests, office visits, and even overnight for a sleep study...whew! I mean you really have to be serious about this to actually get to this point. You know I THINK I am ready. I have been on a raw diet for the past two weeks and I intend to stay on it until the surgery. I just want to get into my surgeons office and find out what needs to get done before i actually go for the surery. If I can just focus on knocking down a checklist of to do's then I won't be so anxious. This month of waiting is worse than the last year of waiting.