Fresh Start again

I will start off with telling you all about myself I have been over weight all my life since I can remember I have been on diets, My mother was always worried about my weight and she didnt want me to be fat so she had me on the military diet and weight watchers at the age of 11 which was not fun and at the gym at 5am on weekdays but she did it because she was worried about my health. Well nothing worked I started high school and would work out and joined sports and still no change in weight then I found out I had Diabetes type II and that scared me. I did lose a little weight then but not enough. I got married at the age of 20 and had a baby and still never changed in weight I got divoiced at 24 and remarried at 26 and happy so happy I gained like 30lbs more so I was at 260 and got pregnant and at the end of preggo I was pushing 315. The worst part was that my baby girl was born with CHD know as Heart defects and other birth defects caused by my diabetes being out of control and over weight. They were not able to be fixed she pasted away at 6 weeks of birth, So that is the reason now that I had Lap Band so I can be healthy for my son and want another beautiful baby.

I say Fresh Start again because the first one start was when I was banded in May 2010 and I did really well at first. But I didnt do any exercise and I didnt feel full. So now I really need to use this band as a tool and lose some more weight . I have been tracking my meals online at the lapband journey site and tracking my workouts. So I have limited myself to no more than 1200 calories a day and at least an hour working out 4 days a week for now. You know it sounds so simple in my head but when it comes down to it, It is really hard to get motivated and i say want this so bad but then I fail to go excerise so I am so Bad that I let food control me I should control the food. Because to be honest with all of you I still get really hungrey after work and in between meals. But who knows I will beat OBESE one way or another.