It's My Last Fat Friday!

OMG! Three days to go! My surgery is on Monday and you know the weekend is going to fly by.

SO...this morning I went to my sons senior breakfast at the High School & as I got ready I looked in the mirror and thought am I doing the right thing!:thumbup:

BUT....as I was trying to pick an outfit out for tonights charity event that I am attending, again I realized what has gotten me to this point!

As I tried outfit after outfit & realized that I basically look like a linebacker in everything, I had another lightbulb moment!:wub:

This what has gotten me here....this is why I have decided to take this drastic measure and finally get a grasp on my weight issue.

I want to look in the mirror and feel like my body is as beautiful as my face. When I was a kid everyone would make fun of me for always looking in the mirror. I finally realized that I never really look in mirrors that are below my waste anymore...it is just to painful:crying:.

I never wanted to be the girl that people would say "Oh it's a shame she is so heavy...she has such a beautiful face". But yet here I am that person at 46 years old.

So today on October 15th I mourn my old lifestyle but am looking forward to embracing my new one. I look at this Friday and think that this will be my last fat Friday. This will be the last Friday in my life that I will ever weigh this much again...

As I sit here and ride this emotional rollercoaster, once again I have had my doubts about whether or not I should go forward but in the end my rational mind takes over & reassures me that I am doing the right thing!