How do you eat an elephant???

2 more days and I have my procedure! I am still really nervous but I know that everything will be OK. It is just such a large change. I am a size 18 right now, 5 months after having a baby, I was a size 14 before I had her, I am up to 255 pounds, the only time I was heavier was at 9 months pregnant and weighed 298. I couldn't believe it, I didn't even recognize myself in the pictures, Who is that? I had a lot of complications, and I didn't really eat for two, seriously I was so careful. I was about 218 when I got pregnant. My OB doctor says that a gain of 37 pounds is normal and I should be able to lose it, on my own. The fact is that I have been told that I have NASH and if I was to ever have another baby the weight could again be an issue. I am tired, while this has not been a problem my entire life I have been over weight long enough, it is time to get serious and this is the tool that will help! Nothing else has, not for the lack of trying. But somewhere inside I say, what if this doesn't work? It has too... I am 5'8 and my goal weight is 160-165 that is 90 pounds! 90 pounds, that is a lot of weight, my doctor says that is a good start but maybe 140? My husband says this when I am stuck with any sort of problems or road block and I think it is cute, "How do you eat an elephant?" the answer: One bite at a time, so the metaphor here is you take one step at a time until you reach your goal. Which is totally doable, I know this, XOXO