Day 8 - hit with the post op blues everyone has been talking about

Wow, boy was I hit with the post-op blues last night and this morning. I watched a pretty sad moving on TV last night and it made me cry. I didn't stop crying until over 3 hours later. I couldn't sleep, all I did was lay there and cry. This is very strange because I take medication that regulates my moods and I haven't had a cry like this in a long time. I know there is nothing wrong and there is definitely not anything making me upset. So, I just kept grabbing tissues and cried it all out. I was still tearing up this morning a small bit.

I keep reading how at about 11 days post op, you lose most of your restriction because the swelling finally goes down. I really can't eat very much right now, but I really don't want it to increase. I like it how it is.... I feel perfectly full on very small amounts of foods and satisfied, I might add.

Still can't wear a bra to work. I wore one today and took it off within the first hour. It is just too irritating to my port site and tight on my diaphram still. I asked the Dr. to move my port site a bit lower but that didnt happen. I guess when everything shrinks the top part of my stomach will no longer be touching my boobs anyway, and the higher the port the more discrete it will be. For the long run, I guess it will be ok.

Now that I have finished lunch, I regret not eating a protein. I saw a nice pre-made tuna in the cooler section of where I got my potatoe that would have been a much better option. I need to find more sources of protein. I tried the unjury powder and gagged. I wish they had the stuff in a pill. LOL. hmmmmmm. That is what I will do this afternoon, browse the web for more protein supplement choices.

Morning Scale: 211

Food today:

cup of coffee black w/ 1 equal

Breakfast - 1.5 eggs scrammbled with cheese

Lunch - 1/5 of a baked potatoe w/sour cream, margarine, chives, lettuce and salsa.

protein snack - Quick Weight Loss Center's Protein Supplement - Cappacino (left over from previous diet, obviously)

Dinner - 1/3 of a chicken, broccoli, tomato crepe from La Madeleine.

Excersize: None.

I cryed like that when I watched the "Notebook". I have never had that reaction before - Crying yes, but that movie made me a wreck!

Notebook....hmmmm. I wonder if I have ever seen that one. I was watching "Phenomenon" with John Travolta. It's a pretty old movie and I had never seen it before. Hubby was driving, so I don't know if it was on HBO or regular programming.