today I'm just over 2 weeks since surgery and I feel great. In fact, probably too well since I've been eating regular food. If I don't get a fill soon, I'll probably start to gain weight. So far I'm down 15 lbs. but have stayed at 15 lbs for the last week. I'm feeling a little discourage but I know that I'm not doing all of the things I'm supposed to. I NEED that fill! This is definately harder than I ever thought it would be when I started this journey. I haven't been too hungry since the surgery so I can definately tell a difference. Since the surgery, I've had Thai food once, spinach dip and sandwiches at a party (Ashley Lissy's baby shower), potato salad at another party (Maryanna's 1st Birthday), and 6" chicken salad sub at my mom's house. But on a positive note, I've exercised almost every day at least 20 minutes. I feel physically better. I just wished it showed a little more. At first, when I lost the weight really quickly, people that I work with noticed but that has really slowed down. Actually, the thing I think about most is "what if I paid 17,000 and lose 20 lbs?" First, that would make me feel like such a failure, second, I would be so embarrassed, especially because some people like Donna and Brent know how much it cost. I would feel like a fool. yesterday, we went out on the boat w/ my family. At first, I was excited to take pictures, by the end of the night (after I had seen a couple of them on the digital camara) I didn't want to be in any more. I looked so fat. That was really discouraging. Anyway, I'm still glad I did it, I just want to make sure I don't waste the money or the opportunity. I'm joining the chat forum. The next support group meeting is 4th Thursday in Sept. Anyway, thanks for listening.

Love,

Sarah