"Now I lay me down to eat..."

“…I’m full but want a tasty treat…”

*sigh*

Undoubtedly, my "midnight feedings" – in which I pace in the kitchen & look for that special something to satisfy & sate (usually something sweet), usually between the hours of 11pm-1am – are the hardest part of this journey for me.

I remember a time in the not too distant past that I would run the water in the kitchen to drown out the sound of my cabinet rummaging and cellophane paper wrap krinkling from the little debbie snack I’d try to sneak back into the bedroom.

I should be ashamed *hangs head*

I think its a step forward that I’m starting to notice my patterns and put an end to them. I’m sure there’s always a chance to relapse, but at least by not keeping the junk in the house anymore, my choices are limited. Of course, I will ALWAYS and FOREVER keep the obligatory chocolate candy bar stashed away “in case of emergency”…but even then, it’s just ONE bar, not an entire bag of mini’s

Old habits die hard, its true. But new habits live in the light, to be nourished and cultivated into a way of life.

I can do this. I. WILL. DO. THIS.

*praying*

“Jesus be an appetite suppresant”

*then singing and channeling Carried Underwood*

Jesus, take the wheel…

My deliverer...he can deliver you from anything - yes even late night snacking. I personally have found solace in cottage cheese and peaches - high in protein and it satisfies my "sweet tooth" - The protein shakes with real fruit are lovely too... I make mine almost like a milkshake the thick fage yogurt blended with ice and agave nectar gives it the same consistancy.

I wish i liked cottage cheese...

But, I am starting to research some other things to help me with that old pesky sweet tooth. Actually, the Slim Fast choco shake is excellent - put it in the freezer for about 30 mins so it gets really thick... But I def need to start getting used to the protein shakes & such for post-surgery...