01/08/10: Fires in the fireplace and by golly, I think I'm feeling better already!

It's cold. I love it! I hate the idea that next week it heats back up. And by heat I mean temps in the upper 50's and lower 60's. I think this up-down-up-down has got to be hard on us!

And that's what my weight does...odd...parallels are always interesting to me...

I'm not up. That's history.

I have lost about 15 pounds so far. That's insignificantly significant! I am on the "unweightloss" program, as required by my insurance. Maybe it's ok that I lose weight on this program but I don't ever get the impression that it is. So I'm holding back. I'm living it up on some days, too - 6 months full of 'this might be the last time ever" crap.

I hate crap. I don't play the crap game well.

Now craps in Vegas - that I can do.

But the malarchy-game-playing-crap...not so good at it and tend to avoid it. Yet, here I am....

So 15 pounds. What does that mean?

Here's what I'm noticing so far.

I have one pair of jeans that "fit". I get to wear jeans on Friday and on weekends depending on what we are up to. Not a lot of necessity for jeans. So I am not worried about having only one pair. This one pair changes from comfortable and relaxed after being washed to tight and tight. I hate washing them. It's a necessary evil. I will love the day when I don't have to worry about this anymore as I don't remember "normal" jeans being so drastically different after a wash. Anywho. 15 pounds means that these jeans, when I put them on this morning - and it was the first time in almost two weeks - were almost comfortable starting out. Yes. Just washed. And I didn't have that stuffed feeling I get until they get to comfortable and relaxed again. I could almost like these jeans...

Another thing on my noticed list.

And these are all small, mind you. But they are starting to appear and I LIKE that!

This weekend I cooked up a lobster risotto for some visiting friends. Lobster risotto is a bit of work. There's the cracking of the lobsters to extract the meat. There's the making of the lobster broth. And then there's the actual making of the risotto. Anyone ever make a real risotto? It requires a long stint of standing at the stove keeping the rice just moist enough to cook while not drying out and not drowning. It's easy to do - but it requires usually about 40 minutes of standing at the stove before all is done and perfect.

3 months ago when I made this dish my feet were KILLING me!

This weekend when I made this dish....my feet were just a little mad once I finally sat down to eat.

:thumbup::thumbup::smile2::thumbup:

I love it! What a wonderful feeling. I undertand. I've only lost about 35 since surgery, but I feel wonderful and can buy clothes in a regular store (some items anyway). It's a start. I have had 2 fills and have 4.5 ccs so far. I don't feel much restriction yet, but probably after the next fill, I'll be in restrictive town.

Way to go on how you feel!