all starting to sink in...

I can't believe it's Nov 1st already... the year is flying by. It has been 7 months since I've had my lapband in and it's amazing to have lost this much weight (58lbs so far). I never thought it was possible for me to be thin and now Im starting to believe. Its all starting to sink in a little more now. It's also been a year and 3 months since my brother died in a tragic motorcycle accident. I never thought I would be able to write that down anywhere... so many things have changed since then. I wonder what he would have thought about my weight loss? I wonder if he would have approved of the surgery? Im sure he'd be happy that my ex-boyfriend left me when he heard I wanted to have surgery. He wasn't supportive of it at all...I guess thats part of the reason I keep the surgery a secret. However, I start to feel like Im lying to people... but they do not need to know every detail of my life. Still struggling with that aspect. I am also struggling with being social with people because eating is such a social part of life. Everything we do is surrounded by food in some way. Its HARD! I don't regret this lapband procedure at all Im truly happy with it, and no one said it would be easy. I joined a new gym today! Im so excited to start working out again. I stopped when work started up, but now Im determined to find the time. I really can't wait! I'll be happy if I can make it there 3-4 times a week. Im trying to prepare my mind set for thanksgiving since I know I will be spending it alone, and I don't mind! lol It's better for me to stay away good tasting and smelling food. It just tempts me! It was bad enough I bought 20 bucks worth of halloween candy and only got 4 trick or treaters! now Im stuck with candy...Im gonna bring it to work. Make them fat! lol k Im gonna get going to watch the Yankee tonight! xoxo

Congrats...that's terrific WL in 7 months! -BG

I understand not wanting to tell people about the surgery. I agree, it isn't their business. I told the people that are important to me. The rest, it just doesn't matter. Because, yes, there will be some haters out there. But they are the ones that have never had our struggles, our addictions, our sadness. Keep up the good work and stay strong.

Hi, I am 3 weeks post surgery and I am happy to have had the surgery, but a little unsure of what the future holds, so many different challenges. I am writing to you because your post about your brother grabbed my attention. We lost our son last year in a motorcycle accident. We owned a motorcycle shop and he was our chief mechanic and 1 of the loves of our lives. Michael is our middle child, sweet, kind and he had a wonderful gift of making people happy. Sorry I could go on and on. I am very sorry for your loss, I know how hard it is and I think your brother would be very proud of you! I wish you a future of happiness.